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Recieved: 2001/12/28 09:44
Subject: [K-list] Hi/New
From: kalyco77
On 2001/12/28 09:44, kalyco77 posted thus to the K-list:
Hi All,
Elizabeth & Michael - thank you for your responses. I'm 33 (as of
the 15th of Dec) and practice Bikram Yoga. I started having really
intense religious experiences when I was young - have always felt
this intense longing to be nearer to our origin. Well-the various
religious views contained too much hypocrisy and after about a year
or so of being ridiculously religious, I finally saw through it and
realized that a just and loving, omniscent God would never deny or
compartmentalize any of us.
I've worked pretty hard on smashing through belief systems that I was
taught early on, if they don't logically fit into my experiences.
I've had a dream one night, back in March, where I died and was
brought into the light. This light was by far the most intense and
powerful thing that I have experienced in this lifetime. It was
incredibly bright and active, it was literally love in action. The
light traveled through my entire being, at a cellular level and
completely cleansed me. ALL fear dropped away, and I am forever
changed. That is what we really are, this is just a momentary break
from that in order to experience something different. Then after the
light, I was brought into the darkness and just floated there for a
while enjoying the intense feelings of peace, wisdom and deep
understanding that came with the darkness. It was probably the most
important night of my present life. A kind of baptism, so to speak.
A couple of years ago, I dreamed that I was in a room, conference
type room and there was an astrologer/fatherly type there teaching
us. He had white hair and a long white beard and he was giving his
teachings and in the middle he stopped and looked at me and told me
to not worry, he said, "everything is going to be just fine, look at
you, you're beautiful, and the light is all around you" and when I
looked there was this incredible light shooting up from my shoulders
and all around my head.
I sing, write poetry and perform in a local band and it seems like
the more I head in that direction, which brings me incredible peace
and joy, the more intense this transformation kind of gets. I get
buzzing in my body, have woken up vibrating, occasionally see auras,
and generally can see things about people without really trying. I
think it all points to kundalini, but the night sweats thing, it a
little disconcerting. I'm fatigued alot too, but that's due to my
ridiculous schedule. I'm supposed to have some tests done, just to
rule out anything medical. But it really wouldn't make any sense, as
I look like I'm healthy as a horse.
Another thing that I've noticed is that in addition to making my art
(which takes alot of time) I work a full time job. Now I've had the
past week off and talk about heaven. I feel so much more rested and
resilient - I think I probably burn the candle at both ends too much
so to speak, but I'm working on that.
Thank you and I look forward to reading more about what others are
going through. (Makes me feel less crazy!)
Cheers,
Kally
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
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