To: K-list
Recieved: 2001/12/07 05:26
Subject: Re: [K-list] A sanctuary
From: emilybATnospamsympatico.ca

I second that emotion Gyrefalcon

This week, after my yoga class, I got up my courage to go speak to my yoga
teacher and tell her that I was experiencing a Kundalini Awakening.

The first weeks, I didn't tell her because I wasn't sure what was happening
to me. I simply asked her about Kundalini yoga and she gave me the name of a
Kundalini yoga teacher. And when I knew what was happening, I was still not
sure it would last. I still can't believe how blessed I am that it's there
every day. Also after class, there were always many people around her.

This week, we ended up being alone. I had watched her during class, showing
us some incredible asanas she could do. I thought surely a person who could
contort their body is such a way must be K awakened. I also know that she is
a devout practitioner of all aspects of Sivananda yoga and that she
meditates most seriously.

When I told her, I expected her to say something like: "Welcome to the
club!!" ;) Instead, she told me that she had only met ONE other person who
was K awakened and that was in India. I thought surely with all her time
spent in Ashrams in India and elsewhere, after years of devotion, she would
be K awakened and she would know tons of people who were. I was dismayed and
felt alone. We changed the subject to girl talk about her boyfriend and her
hope that he would propose to her. ;)

After reading on the net that there were numerous cases of spontaneous K
awakenings happening all over the planet, I felt I was a late bloomer and
not a particularly deserving one at that. I am just about the worse in my
yoga class!! ;) I never meditated for hours on end, I had never felt the
Spirit in me, I didn't converse with my Spirit guides, I didn't have any
psychic abilities. I would have thought I was just about the last person who
would have experienced a K awakening. Enough ego groveling! ;) Which is just
as bad as ego bosting!!

Anyway, like I said, I thought I would find a kindred spirit in my yoga
teacher and was sure she would tell me about so many other people she knew
who were K awakened. Now I'm feeling even more alone. We are all so alone in
this process and these egroups are our only link to finding other kindred
spirits with whom to share our K experiences and questions.

Does anyone have any info on just how many K awakened people there might be
on the planet? I know we can't take a poll ;) but I thought that someone
might be able to intuit the number.

And do K people in big cities have face to face meetings? Sort of like AA
groups? :)))) Are there K associations that meet regularly? Is there a
secret handshake? ;) ;) ;)

I would also like to know what are some good websites about K info. I've
done search upon search of course, and mostly find info about how scary it
is, how dangerousit is, how it began to manifest in other people, but I
want info on what to do after the initial awakening.

Last Sunday, my mom wanted me to give her an energy treatment. Afterwards we
shared a glass of wine and I felt so good from K all that weekend that I
decided to tell her. She seemed to take it quite well and I went home
extremely pleased. The next two days she told me she couldn't sleep at
night worrying about me, that I was being inducted into some cult, that I
was going to end up insane, that I was meditating too much. Oy!! :( She's
better now, and we both avoid discussing it. It sure has scared me about
sharing the info with other people. :(

Thanks to all for being there! And thanks to the founder of course!

Emily :)

> Unlike you, I have know and studied K for 19 years. This list,
> however, provides me with kindred souls. I know people into Wicca,
> Shamanism and lots more, but when I speak of my path and experiences
> they just go quiet. My family has been supportive but standoffish.
> Even in an ashram I stayed in for five months, they didn't
> understand. Kundalini is the most wonderful, the most difficult, the
> most painful, the most terrifying . . . but then you people already
> know all this.
>
> This place is a sanctuary. A 'Thank You' to the founder, for this
> list and all the peices everyone has written, even when I just lurk,
> I am reminded I'm not insane, and more importantly, I'm not alone.

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