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Recieved: 2001/12/06 04:24
Subject: Re: [K-list] Re: K list intro and EMDR
From: emilybATnospamsympatico.ca
On 2001/12/06 04:24, emilybATnospamsympatico.ca posted thus to the K-list:
Hello Jezreel :)
I also don't know why some people are more blessed than others with problems
of all sorts.
I do believe now that it's a tremendous blessing to be so burdened. How else
do we learn and grow?
Certainly not from bliss. I have experienced such powerful moments of bliss
since K Awakening and I'm extremely thankful for them. But bliss is passive,
we simply receive it.
However, our problems, confronting them and overcoming them, are what make
us stronger, are what teach us compassion and humility. They ground us, they
push us to learn more about life, about ourselves and about others. We learn
to reach out to others and to be receptive when others need to reach out to
us.
If we knew only success, only ease, our egos would be powerful, would cut us
off from our intuition, from insight. Problems teach us that we are no
better than others, that everyone suffers and we should embrace those
problems.
In order to overcome our problems, we discover that we always had certain
tools, certain gifts or else the tools are laid on our path. We don't always
recognize them, but when we do, those are moments of insight.
A few years ago, I lost in 3 years, the two homes I owned because I was
betrayed by my two best friends. It took me years to get over this pain and
I wondered what the lesson was in this. But there were so many, I now see. I
learned that I could forgive them and forgiveness is an important lesson.
After learning that I could forgive others for causing me some of the
greatest pain I had ever felt, I discovered that now I was now entitled
forgive myself and forgiving ourselves is much more difficult. I learned
that I could go on even faced with terrible problems, that I had inner
resources that I had never appreciated.
And I was forced to look inside myself for happiness instead of looking
outside myself. Another valuable lesson. It forced me to take more control
of my life.
I had wondered at first if the Universe wanted me to start distrusting
people, but I could not believe that this was the lesson. Time showed me
otherwise.
Love and compassion are important lessons to learn and so is forgiveness of
others and ourselves. And the greatest lesson of all is to live in
gratitude. Gratitude for all the good we have and gratitude for all the
challenges that life, the Spirit (which is really ourselves) has put on our
path.
I do believe we chose this life to live; we chose to experience these
problems. We knew we had lessons to learn and we gave ourselves the tools to
overcome our problems.
So I now choose to live in a state of Gratitude. Everyday I thank the
Universe for giving me all my problems and all the tools to overcome them. I
find it's very comforting to live this way.
And the problems just don't seem so daunting any more. ;)
Thank you Jezreel for responding to my post. Being new to Kundalini, I
feared I had little to contribute to the list.
Blessings, Gratitude and Love
Cherish yourself
Emily :)
> Emily what you wrote was beautiful and touched a cord in my own life
> about depression. It's bewildering how when I reach down into the
> deeper parts of myself these feelings
> of 'unlovabliness', 'unworthiness', 'guilt', are there. Ocean's of
> them. I wonder why to myself that when I look a criminals or people
> in prison, they want to live forever! And yet people like ourselves
> and others struggle so much with these negitive emotions?
>
> I almost wonder that in the course of spiritual development; all of
> us must work through these deeper levels of "MUSH" before we get to
> the good stuff. Is it like a current that runs through humanity,
> these negitive emotions? And eventually if we follow a spiritual
> path, we'll have to face and overcome them? I wonder.....
>
> It's so easy to see how other's try so desperately to cover up the
> hurt, pain and sadness they feel. I guess it's all a part of the
> path we are all on; to heal the oversoul of humanities pain, that is
> within ourselves.
>
> With Love,
>
> Jezreel
>
>
>
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