To: K-list
Recieved: 2001/11/30 13:07
Subject: [K-list] In Love Poll Results
From: Druout
On 2001/11/30 13:07, Druout posted thus to the K-list:
Dear List,
Eleven people answered the poll (including 2 who refused to answer it ;) )
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1. How many times have you fallen in love?
Four
Four times for me too
I['m not] answering your Love Poll. If I were truthful, it would just look
silly. Nobody in the world has been in love as many times as me. I'd be
embarassed.LOL!
I'm not going to answer your poll because I don't know what love is.
Bah! Humbug! grinchily,
Once. Any other time I loved somebody it was slow over a long period of time
To me, love is either nothing or the sickeningly-sweet
procreation-infatuation-lust phase that never lasts. Love as nothing feels
better, feels more real. Mystress seems to think feeling and being nothing is
good, so maybe I'm on the right track :)
Once
Six times
Many in my teens, but maybe two or three times later on.
Twice and then some… : )
love as an addictive type high that is,, no sex
three
High school (4-5 years)79-83/4
tec school (2 years)84-86
dance ball partner (86-90+)
she was the last, the fist two grew on me daily
the 3rd hit me like a lightnin' bolt outra the sky
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2. Was this before, during or after your K awakening (if applicable)
The first woke it up.
For me, it was my last love who awoke my K.
Way after.
not sure
Three were before, one during and two after.
One was after.
1st was before K. Second (plus) time after K – saw it coming to. Had a
“vision†of taking a Tai-Chi class and meeting this woman who was teacher
there. That’s exactly how it happened. Was painful. I see all my
relationships coming, all are lessons – learning about Mom and Dad, not fun.
The first woke it up.
That might be true for me too...dunno
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3. What symptoms did you manifest?
it's like incredibly strong magnetic force, loads of synchronicity etc.
I get close to psychic - I just need one look and just know something big's
going to happen. It's in the eyes!! The resulting catalystic/energy
exchange is dramatic, short lived, intense - and leaves me in pain at least
18 months after.... sob
<snip> so there
is a strong energy at work.
All of them...:) I had it baaaaaaad
The first time I was very young and it took on an obsessive quality. The
second it was more a feeling of familiarity--we got along on every single
level. But the third time I couldn't eat and barely slept. It was a very
strong physical attraction and incredibly exhilarating. But it was
interesting--an LSD trip woke me up to the fact that my love for #2 was more
profound--that loving and being *in* love were two very different things.
The fourth time my K awoke! This man was "*always*on my mind." It was one
of those romances that "couldn't be" but I felt that we were united for
eternity. I'm still with my second love. I never fell out of love with him,
but I'm not sure I've fallen out of love with the others, either! All my
loves aside from the second were infused with a combination of pain and
pleasure
Random power/heat surges, random visions and insites, not able to sleep etc...
Intense energy, warmth throughout the
body and especially up and down the back and in the heart chakra. Feeling of
floating about 6" off the ground. Feeling of well being, glow and energy
lasting for quite a few days after sharing energy.
The one after I experienced as a deep soulconnection - but unable to be
fulfilled since this guy was just going gay....no real physical symptoms,
just a tremendous pull towards him.
With most of the woman I have been with since K, I can just about read their
minds, feel an intense deep, intense (did I say that already) connection. I
get lost between the unconditional love and the illusion of the person I am
creating around me to be (boundary issues)
still dream of first (consider her to be my minds DeBeloved)
Heart charkra energy jumps at 20 to 40 feet (thru walls too)
saw ora's around eyes at times
shakes (third)
seemed to call me to go find her, could do so within 25 miles
Chest pain (sepporation anxity)
Masochistic Behavior (i truly truly truly did LOVE pain)
after seporation from first (2 weeks into summer vacation)
that may have been the k-awakinin'
LOL..
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4. If after or during K awakening, what was different (if anything) about
the experience?
Have not experiened love before K awakening. All I can say is each
experience acts as a catalyst for further growth - usually painful. Or for
something big that needs to happen. It's like I integrate more parts of
myself through encounters with others. So these guys really do move me up
and on. But also once the 'exchange' of energy has been made, increasingly
I lose myself less, can get out faster and recover faster - since I'm
rounder and more self sufficient as a individual. And have heaps more self
esteem....
In the affair after K, love took on cosmic dimensions. There was an eternal
quality about it.
Deeply spiritual cosmic bonding of becoming one. Flesh made spirit, spirit
made flesh. Just inadequate words to describe the undescribeable. I was
captured totally unaware, ambushed by the experience
not sure i have always felt like this
K has been awakened ever since, strong desire to heal others
magnified. Unconditional love expanded.
Like I mentioned above - more of a soulconnection, somehow a more "mature"
feeling than those teenage kind of butterfly-being-in-love-feelings.
After K: more intense, deeper, lost, floating, not grounded, all educational
to bring me toward awareness, not about finding the â€oneâ€â€¦. Yet…waiting is….
Saw the lesson before it happened. Always thought that it was because I had
found the “one†to cling to. Turns out I get a little preview of what I’m
about to learn, who has come into my life to teach me. Easy to say it now
after its over.
One thing about love after K – I find myself attracted (and reciprocated )
mostly by Bi-sexual woman – very sensual very sexual, feminine types too..
Was not like that at all before K, more conservative attractions, straight,
church goers (he he)
not shure,,, have to thinks on that a bit
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5. Have you made a love connection with anyone on the K list (optional!)
;)
Take me I'm yours.
you want me to name names now? :P :D More than once
nope we met through a phone prank (she is my friends sister)
No.
OOh..well, I used to have a crush on my fellow (ex) countryman *** (oops! Is
he listening?) - really liked him when I just came onto this list!
I never thought of the list that way, but filling out this poll is making me
tingle all over right now, so I guess all of you in an androgynous sort of
way. No?
I did make a connection on the list --
we were together for about 18 months (long distance relationship,
got to see each other once a month or so, max) and we're still
good friends.
Thanks everyone who took part!
Love, Hillary
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