To: K-list
Recieved: 2001/11/19 15:27
Subject: [K-list] lights, camera - action!
From: daniel tal
On 2001/11/19 15:27, daniel tal posted thus to the K-list:
Greetings to the list,
I hope you all bear with me. I am not fully comfortable sharing my life with
the list, never really have. Has nothing to do with the list, just the way I
am, but there are things I want to share and throw out there, see if I get
any feedback..
I have mentioned this before, but since rejoining the list, K has reemerged
in my life. Maybe the K was always there, I just did not pay as much
attention, or K brought me to the list because it was intensifying , or the
interaction with the list has made the K stronger, feeding off the energy
here – whatever it is.
We have been talking about spots, the light of other worlds that we see
behind our eyes –
Since talking about it ,these ethereal, astral lights, it has dominated my
pre-bed “vision”.
Last night was one of the most intense experience I have had with K in years
(aren´t they all though), very vivid and beautiful, but enough that I turned
the bed light on before falling a sleep.
I laid down and saw the swirls and pulses behind my lids. I can and do feel
many presence´s in my life since K started many years ago. I am not fully
comfortable with it because I am not sure if they are spirits or what have
you – but last night I saw more distinctly then ever before – I turned over
in my bed and opened my eyes. The room was swirling with lights, sparks,
energy, movement. Super bright, tiny blue "nova's", intense sparks of reds.
Energy moving in the room like watching tall grass moving in a wheat field
during a windy day. I saw and began to feel distinct forms, not shapes of
people, but not so indistinct as to be blobs – I felt “them”. Standing
around my bed, kneeling in front of me on my bed.
I heard the soft voice of my own mind, their telepathy telling me not to be
afraid and to find comfort with this.
And then I heard a voice, greet me, one that was SO FAMILER TO ME. The one I
have been talking to my whole life but that I have not heard or paid
attention to often, but knew was their. I felt its presence and its love,
it / me, telling me – I love you, I will always be there, I am you, you are
me. Etc.. – I started to cry, a good hard cry, a cathartic release I did not
know I had in me. The voice was familer, comfortable, full of love and
compassion, I called it Christ or God, but that does not come close. The
lights, the swirling the energy in the room intensified, grew stronger.
I turned on the light by my bed. I got freaked out. Its just not normal, its
not that I don´t feel safe.
The room was a mass of colors, little sparks streaking in and out of
“vision”, swirls in the air. Nothing was static in my room, the air was
alive with movement. My typical day of sight is like that, I see the
gray/haze of energy moving around, but not intensely. This was a fireworks
show.
I stared at the ceiling and focused on the light fixture (which was off) and
saw the “star”, yellow, blue energy pulsing ,forming a web hazy but distinct
but pulsating from the center out, very bright on the whole ceiling – very
very strong pulse, as bright as the sun, filled the whole room – it was
really cool!! I focused on in until I could not see past it, could not see
the ceiling. I remember vague posts on the old k-list I was on about that
phenomena, but don´t remember what it was about.
While last night was intense, pleasurable and vivid, this is not the first
time that has
“happened”. I could probably make that happen every night.
It freaks me out, more than a little, since I have no idea what it is that I
am doing, or even if I should be.
I don´t know what to make of the “spirit world” and have never met to many
people who wish to talk about that particular mystery in to much detail.
Why do I need to turn the light on, I´m safe right?
I know that the presence´s I feel are benevolent and that the overwhelming
presence of it all is God (or my version be it goddess or god or the earth),
I know, as a rule, we should not linger on the phenomena associated with K –
let them pass through, recognize and acknowledge , but man, they can me some
crazy things that we feel and see.
Its exciting to watch, special to be a part of – but what the hell is it?
Someone once told me that their perception of god was this miniscule part of
the pie, a sliver and that we can never truly know. I though of that last
night. Are these questions I am asking (besides the one on safety) even
worth asking when seeking out answers just isn´t as important anymore?
I apologize if I am babbling but its kind of like masturbating for the first
time in your life, you gotto wonder if you broke something, but its SO
EXCITING.
Love and Shakti
Dan
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