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Recieved: 2001/11/13 16:46
Subject: Re: [K-list] Amazing Colors!
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2001/11/13 16:46, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 10:58 AM 13/11/01, Siska wrote:
>ME TOO! Amazing, incredible, indescribably intricate, detailed, beautiful
>patterns that divide and multiply and swirl about in colour sometimes - like
>a cosmic kalaiescope with the quality of fractals.
These are called "phosphene" patterns and they often show up in native
art relating to Shamanic travel to the dream world, and in 60's acid
inspired op-art. They are the wallpaper pattern of the portal to the
dreamtime, the boundary between the conscious and unconscious mind, and the
veil of forgetfullness, itself. It is like the tunnel leading to the light,
except it is representative of the duality of light and dark and the
endless creativity of colors that they manifest together.
Look at Australian aboriginal art relating to the Dreamtime, and you
will see these patterns.
>They first started for me after my 5th depressive breakdown (long dark
>night) when I experineced a kind of union of male/female, with lots of
>syncs, mythological archtypes etc. That was 4 years ago - I see them every
>night, though not always clearly. They seem to correlate with the glowing
>of my crown, third eye, heart, throat chakras - they seem to set each other
>off as if all 4 interlinked.
Yes. You had started to integrate the dualities, conscious and
unconscious mind after the breakdown caused the ego to fracture and fragment.
I used to watch these patterns as a game to fall asleep, when I was a
small child. My own private fireworks show. It was not till I was an adult
reading about Shamanism that I understood the relationship between falling
asleep watching them, and the awful night terrors I had, of a big shadow
monster that destroyed me over and over again. I would wake to the
nightmare still continuing, my room filled with malevolent presences that
had me petrified to even move. Every ghost for miles around must have been
attracted to my terror.
Finally I learned to approach the Shadow monster with unconditional
love... and that is when the dreams got worse, because I became the
voiceless shadow monster that destroyed any who feared me. By then I was
old enough to know to say my prayers, and I prayed for the dreams to end
till they did. Rather, they went underground until my Shamanic initiation
with Chacmool jump started the process.
The monster is the Portal Guardian of the dreamtime, also known as the
Jungian Shadow, Lucifer, and the angel with the fiery sword that guards
Eden, so that only those who are without fear, may pass. It is death, and
fear of death, it is karma reflected to keep away those who are not ready
to pass into the light. It protects you from being overwhelmed with the
content of the unconscious.
Death is the doorway to the light, and kundalites go through that door
at ego-death, instead of physical death... and eventually beyond that too,
and into the clear light of the Void. The Portal Guardian is a being of
the brightest light, but movement into duality that comes of reflecting our
karma causes it to show up as a negative image of darkest shadow. It is
unconditional love, manifesting as a reflection of fear so that we may see
what we fear, and have the option to use our free will to choose to love.
Most Kundalites do not meet the Portal guardian as a being, as such...
although many experience the lovely patterns of the portal
itself. Kundalites typically may dream of death showing up as person or
entity, but having your demon/shadow show up separate from you as an ever
present spiritual teacher/guide is usually part of Shaman training. Not an
experience I would wish on anybody!!
You can think of it this way: you are passing through the tunnel to the
dreamtime, just as NDE's describe travelling though the tunnel of light.
The world of dreams is the safe experiential schoolroom where we learn
lessons about the illusion of duality. The upper chakras represent the
universe of non duality.. where every duality shows its reflection. Your
third eye is open so you can watch the trip.
There is more on this, if you search the archives.
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