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Recieved: 2001/11/04 15:55
Subject: [K-list] Transition - White to Red
From: aster MP

Hi Everyone,

Is there any particular ritual, meditation, energy
work that should be used when changing from the white
(celibate) path to red (sexually active)?

I've been going through my 'aloneness' time now for
the past few years, very rarely having sexual
partners. In the past 12 months there has been no
sexual partners at all.

I have been using the orgasmic energy for growth and
clearing etc. Its been work, work, work...*smiles* At
times I have desired a partner but found there wasn't
one available or the ones who were available were
unsuitable.

I found because of my clearing and lessons I was
learning I was attracting the wrong type of person.
They came into my life to teach me the lessons I
needed and then left. Sometimes it was distressing as
I didn't realise they were here for only lessons, not
relationships.

Eventually I realised that a relationship wouldn't
happen until I cleared away blockages, fears and
wrongly held beliefs. I had to believe I deserved love
etc. :)

So I concentrated on myself and stayed away from
sexual encounters.

Now I'm entering into a sexual relationship with a
person of the opposite sex (I'm hetro) and I can't get
my interests 'sparking'

I'm still focusing on myself and personal growth. When
I think of a sexual encounter with a man it feels
'ho-hum' Sometimes it raises up and becomes sexual but
seems to fade very quickly.

This could mean I still need more inner work
done...or...I've focused on work too much that I've
brainwashed myself to belive orgasms are only for
inner work and not for personal pleasure...not sure...
:(

Anyone have any suggestions?

warm regards..

Aster

http://www.kundalini-gateway.org

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