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Recieved: 2001/10/24 08:43
Subject: [K-list] alright then....
From: Final Element J A Livengood
On 2001/10/24 08:43, Final Element J A Livengood posted thus to the K-list:
ok, do it..silliness ok. right, perhaps I am in the wrong area.
(yep dsl is still up, but it is 10am ).
I have not walked near anyone with or near the inner power nor had aura that
superceeds mine thus far. People always shrug and stop to look at me. Again
I say
I am not just waking up, alost I have had for many many years, example. when
I was 8 I could go outside ,look up at the sky and wish for the most
terrible
storm because I simply wanted it too, and it would, 8, 8 years old with the
power
to call on fierce storms.
I am starting to think and see it may not be K after all. The more I am
understanding
K, the more it simply seems like another form of meditation. I have
meditated for 26 years
living simply, in this world and I am now waking up, Im not going to close
my eyes again.
Sorry, perhaps this post is forceful, fine, I can not seem to find anyone
that understands, yet once again.
I will continue my search, thank you for the insight of K and its
similarites to what I am going through.
But what I am going through, Is far more than wht I have posted, and I fit
into signs,symptoms of just
about every 'special' term you can think of. So , what I have simply, is a
higher 'gift' and it isn't a loss
of grasp to myself, that I have enough of. I do not need to understand
myself any longer, I have for so long yet, I lost
everything. Now, in the past few weeks alone, I have managed to find a
perfect job for me, friends are popping
out of the woodwork. And my soul is content with my path I choose. So, it
cannot be wrong and I finally changed
my life crossover and things are actually becoming right.
ego= that word is why I never could fit in. why my life was a curve ball.
NOW that I know my power as it grows
and keep an ego on it, I keep it and myself lined on reality, not to 'get
carried away' yet, sure of myself in what
I currently can do because, well, I have yearned and tried for so long.
A person that yearns for power, looses desire.
A person that yearns for desire, has the power of many.
remember that, I learned that by the way of life.
perhaps, like a child, I got super excited because I thought I found my
fitting here. But, just as a child
when they are shown a new group of frineds, they try to impress, this
doesn't mean that is the kind
of person they really are.
You can't judge a snake until it sheds its skin.
to know is to understand,
to understand is to know.
--
Past the coldness of dark,
where hearts fall to nothing
like a void of absence intruding
through an absolute blank of marks
Exhist lines,
Where thoughts inspire dreams
and dreams lead on to reality
Is where I recall seeing lines.
They express your everyday life
as you foolishly follow them
not knowing where they lead to
just hoping that dreams come true
when you walk the lines....--
So to end this post, I am following no path that someone has set out because
they 'felt' like it was correct and age gave those
thoughts seniority. But, I am following a new path because I am in control
of myself and only I know of my own power and
I can see and feel others and never in my life, have crossed paths with
similar.
I walk down the street, animals will flock to me. If someone owns a cat, it
will go nuts and not let go of me. I am so deeply
in touch with the earth and its surroundings, the moon and its danger to us.
I am so deep I almost can not talk because
it doesn't make sence to anymore. Just foolish communication that sounds
silly.
Perhaps the awakening as described I had gone through. BUt, I don't think
the guidelines are in my commandments nor on
my path. Yes I have wished off people sae, also told people not to go
because of unstoppable dangers awaiting, always got it.
When people seem to loose their physical life around you and you can not do
a damn thing, perhaps you will be and have
such an 'ego' as I. Because, if I die, and did nothing as big as I feel I
will from this power, then I was a waste of life and im dead.
But if I do live, and suceed, I will bring peace and hapiness to all those
around me.
No more to say or do
As I have made more songs than you
so before you sigh and say I am wrong
will you take time to hear my songs?
Jesse....
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