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Recieved: 2001/10/19 23:39
Subject: [K-list] Experience. another level?
From: Final Element J A Livengood

As I have told, I have had alot going on and alot has insighted me to the 'unexplainable'.

Tonight I decided to go out to the only persons house I know. I had a feeling I should have stayed
home but looked over it as depression.

 I was there only 10 minutes and I picked up on every thought in the room.
There were 5 people in the room, and I heard every thought. The one that bothered me was
A guy I know for 7 years that has been with a girl for 3 lives there. This other guy that they both know for a week was also.

I picked up that she wanted him and wanted the boyfriend to goto bed, and the new guy she wanted was worried about his physical
appearance vs me for some dumb reason and her bf was worried about them two being next to each other yet was in a shadow
because he was drinking so he wasn't paying attention to the insight in his mind. I almost screamed at one point. When she
thought about after her bf went to bed what she was going to do (requires a hand) I shouted forget about it. She yelled back at
me SHUT UP. Not the tone from being loud, yet I think I caught her off guard and she thought she said something to me out
loud. It was dropped, at that moment I was shocked. I figured I would call on the energy in my body and concentrate on its feeling
I think all the sences hit me at once, from over my head to under my feet, I had to hold goosebumps (as you will) for about 10 minutes, I have never felt
this strong of power I thought, and I surely never insighted on peoples minds so quickly and without thinking about doing it.
Yet I felt like I needed to try to meditate even for a minute but had a instinct that told me if I closed my eyes and did at that
moment I would see the most evil picture that could never be seen by anyone including me so I didn't.

Please, in a way I am scared. But I am not. I want to accelarate the process but I think I am getting over my head fast but I
dont want to back off nor have any intentions too. I want this because out of all the knowledge I have and all the things I can do
(ask me, you would be surprised) this is the one to seperate me from the common run-of-the-mill skill. This is why I truly want it.
I want to impress people with its power I beleive, I want to superimpose thoughts onto other minds at a whim. Not for anything
evil nor would I hurt anyone by doing so. I just want to be something I am currently not. Heaven on earth I guess would be a
good way of saying it.

 I want to be different, I dont want to be normal . Being normal is easy. Being different takes strength when you know
the difference and good/bad of both.

 I really think something is going to happen to me soon. Perhaps this is why I feel obligated to suddenly post 4 times a day
I dont mean to be a bug to people. I just want the true to help me because I know for a fact that the true is all that will interest me
else I will see through them like shallow glass.

  sincerely,
Jesse

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