To: K-list
Recieved: 2001/10/19 14:45
Subject: Re: [K-list] Hurrah for me....
From: Final Element J A Livengood
On 2001/10/19 14:45, Final Element J A Livengood posted thus to the K-list:
Hi sean,
Sounds alot like what I am going through. Extremely similar in feelings.
I beleive the point this is at is that whatever the negitive
side of the energy we consume is trying to pull it back as we are
draining it and this is why everything around us is our 'own little chaotic
world'.
The decision is A: cap the K, hold it where it is at and learn to control
it
to use it to your advantage which from what I understand is the thing to do
at
this point of situations. Or B: Continue to raise the level of K, take the
bruises
and breaks it causes you until it simply, cannot phase you then you control
a
possible infinate amount of energy, which is my 'destiny' I guess you could
say.
Alcohol is not a key, yes it will push it down but at the same time you will
get the
same negitive efects similar of K simply for lack of awareness. This is a
dangerous route.
Porn ,haahaa, I dont think that has anything to do with K personally but I
would think
that would not bring it down, haahaa.
Concentrating on something you know nothing of, new hobbys, etc seem to be
a good
way to control the K. Bringing it down is almost impossible once you get to
a certain
state of awareness so I would not waste too much time on the way to
neturalize it yet
simply deal with where it is at. Making a change in decisions can help
sometimes.
I hope you find a suitable control for your K.
Don't play with the K :)
Jesse
Cheer up, it gets stranger :)
----- Original Message -----
From: <unit1021ATnospamhotmail.com>
To: <K-list >
Sent: Friday, October 19, 2001 2:48 PM
Subject: [K-list] Hurrah for me....
>
> Hello all,
> I'm so confused. I went to a lady that does energy work. I was led
> to her, no doubts. She called in my guide. He showed up.
> Unbeleivable..
>
> Anyways she said all my lower chakras where closed. Upper were open
> more. Talked to me about this for a bit. Then I realised...
>
> I have never felt like I even belong on this planet.
> I have never felt any connection at all to anyone on this planet.
> I hate people.
> I hate this body.
> I hate this mind.
> I hate this reality.
>
> I can pop out of my body to do things pretty damn easily.
> I'd much rather be in astral space.
> I can talk to thing inside me, blocks, entities, whatever... But I
> cant talk to people. Cant relate.
>
> This is all lower stuff. This higher stuff is actually hurting me
> now. I'm always spinning away. I have nothing to hang on to. I feel
> lost all the time. Like something is snapped off in my head.
>
> I need to bring the energy down.. I see talk of bringing it up...
> But I need to do this in reverse.
>
> I'm thinking of just stopping all of this K stuff and working on
> doing world things... ??? Drink beer? Watch lots of porn? Get into
> drunken fights? Swear a lot? How do you do this? I think I have to
> lower my energy... Haha.. reverse K.....
>
> Damn.. But you know I need the energy to heal my body and life. But
> my mind and spirit needs less energy to ground and feel better.
>
> DAMNIT.
> What a twisted life I have... If I could have only been a rat, or an
> ant or something...
>
> Thanks...
> Sean
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