To: K-list
Recieved: 2001/10/16 06:44
Subject: [K-list] I put my heart here...
From: Unit1021

I post my heart here. I post myself here. There is nothing that I
post here that is not myself. Who I am. What I feel. I only give 100%
of myself. Thats it.

 I am true.

 I've always loved how I can post the most craziest stories and not
be judged. But told that this is actually not all that uncommon. I
post what I feel, and get back good things, I am not judged. I flow
out and grow. This is what I need to do.

 Paul. You like to judge? You like to do that? To control? To fit me
into some catagory you have? You know what Goddess is like and how I
should feel about it? You understand all about this? And let me know
how I can best serve Her? And how I can talk to Her? How She should
talk to me?

 Paul, you want to be my goddess? You want all that is me? I'm ready
to go here. I have a lifetime of problems in me. I have several
lifetimes of other peoples problems in me as well. I'm just learning
how to cleans myself of this all. You want this? You can have it!

 You mixed up a lot of things in me. Am I not feeling myself right?
Maybe what I feel from Goddess is not right? Maybe what I feel is not
what I feel? Maybe this is all wrong? Maybe my life is just a joke
after all?

 Now I'm afraid again. Afraid of what I feel. Afraid to post here.
You gave me a lot of anger, and I dont know what to do with it... My
body is armoring up again. After I had just figured out to let it all
go. My thoughts are spinning in hate and anger again. Twisting inside
me. Thanks Paul..

 I know your type Paul. I see it often. What you don't know is my
type, you cant even begin to understand it. You like to mess with it
though, dont you?

 Here are 2 words for you. SENSITIVE PERSON. Learn what they mean.
Learn the depth of feeling there. Learn how they only speak with
there heart. Learn how when you step on them they slowly turn that
anger in on themselves, not knowing how to deal with it. This can
build up into quite a terrible storm.. You ready for this?

 I know though... I laughed. I feel that sun burning in my chest
again. I know what I feel is good. I know what I think is good. I
know how I am is good. I know what Goddess is to me is good. How I
talk about it is good. Its all good!

 So if you have a problem with any of this...... take it up with Her!
I'm sure She will be ready to discuss with you...

 Sean

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