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Recieved: 2001/10/14 07:59
Subject: [K-list] Buzz whurrrrr..Stones....Chakra's like the sun? What to do...
From: Unit1021

 Hello all,

 Things have been absolutly crazy for me. I'll post some things I
suppose tomorrow. I've found out I was surrendering wrong. This was
driving me nuts. Had to go back and re-start, re-read over from the
beginning. Got it now. I read over everything 4 times, miss half of
it, not realize it. Come back 2 weeks later, read it again 4 times,
learn amaizing and new things.. Miss half of it. etc... I guess it
takes time to let this stuff get used to you.

 Been going through the archives.. Archives have answers to more
questions than I have right now. I just let my mouse go and pick
things out then get all happy when I find that this is what I was
wanting to know about. I've been learning a lot.

 I found this post. http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Kundalini-
Gateway/message/8016 I was pretty happy to read about Reiki and see
how its a step back actually. Most times Reiki brings me down. Not to
sure on this. Some is good though. This was really driving me nuts. I
went and learned all about crystals and stones and how it was all
vibrational and its the same as Flower essenses and Homeopathic, and
its all goes to your chakra's. It can only balance you out and cant
hurt you. I got all happy when I got my stone that just seems to
laugh and be happy, and I got out my rose quarts and all of that. I
laid myself out with the stones..

 It made me feel worse.

 NO take them off NO take them off NO ...is this my ego? Maybe I need
to just let it all go and surrender and let them work.. NO take them
off NO

....sigh... I take them off...

 Is this stuff not at a high enough level for me? Am I past this? I
dunno...

 Absolutly nothing feels better than getting outside and letting the
sun shine on my now clearing areas and chakra's. Nothing. Not Reiki,
not stones, not medicine. Everything else is just not right. It can
bring my spirit down. It does. Anyone else feel like this?

 I get worried about this. I feel like my spirit body is pretty
messed up to not be able to work with any medicines, stones, energy
work. I sent it up to Goddess last night when I thought I lost it. I
actually felt it come back all silver and gold. But still I feel
badly..

 I know to surrender it all.. Thats what I do all day. Thank you
Goddess for this, for that, how I feel about this... How this makes
me feel for that..

 I just feel like I need something to help me through this. But
nothing works at all. Anyone else experience this? Anyone have
something to try? I dont know.. I learn so much every day.... But still, I suck at
kundalini...

 Thanks..

 Sean

http://www.kundalini-gateway.org

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