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Recieved: 2001/10/12 02:22
Subject: [K-list] mail from Xerxenca re job situation
From: Serenasbliss

Hi list-

Xerxenca wrote this and asked me to forward it to the list.
In a message dated 10/11/01 4:34:38 AM Eastern Daylight Time,
SerenasblissATnospamaol.com writes:
<< Xerxenca, I was just thinking about you and your job
situation and wondering how things are developing for you.

Warm thoughts your way-

Serena
  >>

Wow Serena - Thank you so much for thinking of me! Did you have any thoughts
or messages for me? I trust and hope all goes well with you.

This week (hopefully today) I'm finishing the final report for my current
job. I don't have another job yet. And my next step is not yet clear to me. I
have a couple of leads I'm pursuing and I have an interview next week.
Although I had a pretty significant dream about them before they called that
seemed to show me in an infanilized position there. My dreams point to a
split between my anarchic/playful self and the
hardworking/let's-just-get-it-done self. All of the issues involved are very
highly charged for me right now.

This is such an energetically intense time - I feel a lot of transformation
in me and in the people around me (friends and strangers). There's a passive
waiting for something to unfold, as well as my brain being full of many
creative ideas. And I'm just following through with a bunch of impulses that
won't directly lead to me getting paid. My connection to the Goddess of the
underworld is newer in my consciousness and very, very important to me. I'm
concerned about being in a situation that doesn't value that or where I
forget to value that. I'm going out of town on a dance/meditation retreat
tomorrow, I'll be back Wednesday. I haven't consciosuly taken a retreat in
many years. I'm hoping to get more clear on WHAT it is I'm trying to manifest.

Let's see - could I even BE any more abstract? Back in college Chomsky was
my hero. Manufacturing Consent and all of that. I studied Linguistics and
Development Economics. I had a traumatic crown chakra opening. I worked
indigenous peoples organizations in Central America. Years go by and I'm
working as a political analyst and pollster for major news organizations.
Those organizations are in massive layoffs and are being dismantled. We've
let our commerce define our discourse. This seeems bad to me - advertising
numbs, distracts and feeds the insatiable consumer hunger. But then on the
other hand I think of the Phoenecians and all of the trade routes throughout
history. People exchanging things with each other - commerce is the
historical basis for tolerant pluralities. >sigh< There is a very big
Propoganda machine out there. And for better or worse I turn one of the
levers. Which one do I want to turn?

I put myself through school as a baker. I can't really eat bread anymore. LOL

Thanks for listening.
Blessings and love to all,
Xerxenca

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