To: K-list
Recieved: 2001/10/02 09:28
Subject: [K-list] Kundalini process....
From: Gerardo y Yolanda
On 2001/10/02 09:28, Gerardo y Yolanda posted thus to the K-list:
Good Morning Everyone in the k list:
I've been reading your posts, related to spontaneous Kundalini awakening.
I've enjoyed all and each one, this was a wonderful experience to
read about everybody's opinion. Much better than medical "terminology".LOL
All of them are filled with good intentions and self experience, which are the best help to the K list.
In my experience it was an hazarous "process".(like most people)
The worst was that I didn't know what was happening to my mind and my body. My fears were more intense and the changes in my life goals were confusing me; that was the reason why I felt like
a weird being who was hostessing my mind and body.
I've changed completely. I had to join in armony to this new person and realize It was a *new me*. There were quite hard times. Step by step, not easy at all. Latter I achieved *astonishing well-being* and accepted my fears, which were deeply hidden. When I could work with my personal fears I began to feel a sense of freedom and self security. Then I realized that all my life I had been absoltutly insecure and many desitions I had made were for protecting me. The Goddess has been my therapist, too. LOL
After 5 years of changes and getting *nuts* frequently, I did many changes: lessened meditation, did (I still do) more exercise, began to give classes to children. My social life was a mess, with most of my friends I couldn't get along well, we weren't the same anymore. No common interests, even family members, they are very religious and "new Age" stuff is almost a sin.
Nowadays I've learned to feel honest empathy and I can be easy going.
Kundalini desition to stop or continue is personal, each one has his own fears and mental tendencies. So, what works for me
may not work for someone else.
If the "process" is driving us crazy, is important to know all about some different kind of experiences, good and bad ones to understand the "process". Advices should be listened. But, its up to each on, like everything else in life. Freedom is the key. Though, real freedom requires real responsability to yourself.
I have felt that Kundalini guides us, if we don't feel well, do changes. If we feel better, go on.
I believe "She is always giving clues, we need to listen to her"
(to our inner voice)
The changes are tough and risky. For me after all, worths-while. Daring to go on is our privilege. Though, I'm not sure what is going to come next.
Tons of love,
Yolanda
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
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