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Recieved: 2001/10/01 15:24
Subject: Re: [K-list] Sean VS Autumn
From: siska
On 2001/10/01 15:24, siska posted thus to the K-list:
I think it's good you feel this energy thing whatever it is to be kind of
neutral rather than bad. the unconscious definately does throw up gruesome
frightening stuff that people must surely experience in different ways.
I've touched on very powerful stuff at various times - when ill with
depression I could have killed and not felt a thing. I also understand
people who kill out of anger as I've felt anger to that degree too.
Enlightenment isn't all sweetness and light and angels - God has an
extremely dark side. Dark but not evil - that's the important distinction
to make I think.
Lots of people are sensitive to the moon. I've got a good mate who swears
he turns into a wherewolf at full moon - his wife agrees!
From what you've said, you seem to pick up stuff coming off others, so
perhaps it's no surprise you're being deluged with images,whatever of
burning towns and destroying, giving the current world situation. And if
you see yourself as a destroyer - well yes you are, we all are. I thinking
we're entering an era of destruction and reconstruction on many different
levels and in different ways, personal, family, collective, world - so it's
not surprising that sensitive people are being swamped by images (or
archetypes?) representing these energies. We're all linked up and tap into
each other via the collective unconscious and there must be an awful lot of
gunk washing around down there right now.
well, just a bit of guess work.
siska.
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From: <unit1021ATnospamhotmail.com>
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Sent: Monday, October 01, 2001 9:39 PM
Subject: [K-list] Sean VS Autumn
> Hello all,
>
> Thanks as always for your support.
> 1st... Kate.. no awakenings for me.. I am just like this. Always
> have been. Memories return. Thanks for your words :)
> 2nd.
>
> Possibly scarry stuff after this.... Wait.. its realy scarry... No
> newbies read... go away... I'm a newbie and I dont want to read it at
> all... and I wrote it.. Shoo....
>
> I have just realised what has been happening to me and the things I
> have been saying about dark stuff. Now I dont know if this is due to
> my emotional state now. Or what.. But around this time every year I
> get TONS of energy and creativity. It builds up slow and then BANG!
> ITS ALL ON ALL THE TIME! Now I tend to stare at the moon a lot
> durring this time. Go on walks alone. Think different thoughts etc...
>
> In the not to past I used to love being out at night and just feel
> the energy there. I used to say.. "haha, I am a demon in the night"..
> And want to howl at the moon. What do I know?
>
> Ok now things are stepping up. Since I'm more connected to this
> stuff now it seems to be more powerfull for me. .. Uh... I am not
> thinking like I normaly do, "everyone have fun" thoughts now are
> suddenly, "Why dont we kill everyone" thoughts. This is not me at
> all.
>
> Last night I had a rush of this energy so I hit the road and drove
> around for a while. While I'm on the road I start getting images of
> demon hords rising into the skies and all of that, but I am one of
> them.. ..ok... After a bit I see myself as I could be, a
> destroyer, a leader of an army that kills everything. I could do this
> if I wanted to.. The clouds are red from reflected burning towns. I
> see my coat and scarf and everything. OK THIS IS GETTING OUT OF HAND!
> (can you even see me as a destroyer? I laugh.. I cant hurt a thing)
>
> Uh... Goddesss?
>
> Then I see people and I... uhh.. want to shred them??? With my
> claws???? Why do I want to watch horrable things now?
>
> OK.. Goddess take all of me right now.... ALL ALL ALL!
> I just learned to leave people alone with there ways. I feel it in
> me. I dont really hate them now. I just let them go. But now thats
> changed.
> I hang on to trees now a lot. I dont surrender to this though. I
> dont think that is what the plan is... Not at all. Nope.. I'll walk
> around people instead of through them...
>
> THIS IS NOT WHO I AM.......
> So.. Is this something in my subconcious that is comming up?
> Is this something to do with this time of year? Well I know it
> is.. But what is it? This energy?
> Does anyone else feel like this?
> Is this just energy for me and my mind makes up the rest? I dont
> feel that this stuff is "good" it's different. Its not "Bad" either..
> Its more like borderline... At least is was....
> This energy does change after a bit.. Towards Christmass I feel a
> lot different again. Better. I LOVE Christmass time!! Just the time
> of year..
> As if I didnt already have problems enough.. I'm so confused.... Why
> couldn't I just be a redneck and drive a muddy pickup truck??
>
> ...Maybe I'm a total fool though too. Cant rule anything out...
> Surrender all
> Surrender all
> Surrender all
> Surrender all
>
> Thanks...
> Sean ..the first one..
>
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