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Recieved: 2001/09/28 08:22
Subject: [K-list] More Experiences, this one is it...
From: Unit1021
On 2001/09/28 08:22, Unit1021 posted thus to the K-list:
Hello all,
This is the one. I've been going nuts lately. I asked an intuit that
I knew was connected up right who I was. What I was. He said,
"Ok, this is comming from a higher source, this might shock you...
Why dont you trust? We have given you a gift and you do not trust it"
WHAT!!??
Isn't that what I've been doing? I talked to him a bit more and he
tried to interpret it. Wrong... No no no... Anyways, he said trust.
Let go of my searching for who I am.
HUH!!!??
Isnt this the quest we are all on. To find out who we are? The basic
need? And I'm not supposed to know what, or who I am?
WHATS THE DAMN POINT!!!???
Round and round I go my thoughts spinning like crazy.. what do I do?
what do I do? How can I be me without being me? How can I live and
relate without knowing who I am...
Time passes... more time... I feel horrable.... Im grinding my mind..
Then I listen to my heart's reaction. And start talking.
"I am an empath"
I feel it.. but its not right..Its small and closed off...
"I am an indigo"
I feel that to, its more open and better but its still closed off...
"I am sean"
Almost.....
"I AM"
I feel myself open, I am in a limitless sky. My spirit floating
there. Up, down, everywhere. Nice clouds, light blue sky. Its
amaizing. I understand. By even trying to name myself I am putting a
limitation on what I can become. Control on the thought level.
Empath..small light, pinpoint, nothing. Indigo..bigger light, but in
a vast dark. I AM...vast unlimited sky.
I am.
I trust
I am
I trust
I repeat this
Thats it. Nothing is impossible I feel. I feel good. I hang out for a
long time.. I am so open, my heart likes this too. Cool... I try to
connect to Goddess... I feel something in my heart.. Its not right.
thats old thinking. Patterns for my concious mind.
I remember the scene from Star Wars.. "Let go Luke... Use the
force.."
I let go. I connect without thought.... I am connected. I am
connected and more open to the connection than ever before. This is
the right way for me. There is no object, its here, I am a part of
it. I dont care to understand it. It is. Whoa... I cant explain it..
uhh transendence?
I ask for something. I start the words.. Its done.. but.. its done...
I go to send up something. I pick it out.. Start the words.. It
disapears. Hey! wha...? Uhh... thanks....
Everything is happening so fast... I take a break, and view the sky.
I wonder about things..people. I move.. I see a block of a platform
below me, there are a lot of people on it. There are walls and doors
and they are all running around on it going different places. I try
to add the rest of the building and some nice architecture.. It
starts to fade...dont control, let go... I do it again.. let it go..
I finnaly get it. I let it show me. Its like a singel level of an
office building. Now I am on a lift that goes from there level and
slowly rises. I ask,
"What do they want?"
"Everything"
"Oh"
I asked why dont they just see all of this..
They cant.
I watch them for a bit understanding more about them.. Then I
realise that all this time I am repeating over and over again..
I am
I trust
I am
I trust
I move again, up and away from the platform, through cloud layers. I
go up. I see a soft sun blended with the blue sky. I am so open with
the sky. I get the feeling of first, or first time here. I Feel lots
of love.. Cool, I accept it all. I start talking. More like feeling.
Something about sending lots of stuff up and its ok. More talk about
other things I cant remember... I think I said that I liked this
place, I cant remember to much now.. I just remember limitless sky, I
am part of the sky. The sun that I am a part of and can sense and
connect to is in the sky and its all part of the same thing and its
like my heart is saying, "This is the right place" I feel it open, I
am flying without moving.
I stay for a bit but I am losing my thoughts, I'm trying to control.
things. I am I trust.. stabilise.. Ok... what is this? who is this?
Losing it.. stop it.. I am I trust... I am falling out of the sky,
there goes the sun. My brain is at the limit.. I have to leave.
I am back in the sky. limitless. Open. I can go anywhere, but here
is good.
I am, I trust.
I now see a horrable boars severed head bouncing around in the sky.
Its horrable. I'm about to run. But then I think of the knowledge
I've gained here...
"What are you?" I ask.
"I'm afraid, Im fear, I dont know what this is. I'm terrified...",
it said with a trembling voice.
"Ok," I say "I'll send you away........no wait..."
I reach out and take the head in my hands. Its bad. I smile and tell
it,
"You dont have to be afraid, I know what this is, its all good. I
know it, dont worry", and with that I bring it close and I see it
changing, I calmly give it a kiss right between the eyes sending it
love, its changing faster now.. It turns to a crystal object thats
morphing into something else... I raise it up above me quickly there
is a light and..
BOOM!
It explodes, shattering crystal. It explodes into the most beautiful
buterflies I have ever seen. There color patterns so intricate and
varied. There must be hundereds of them, all dancing about and
fluttering this way and that, flying all around me in the sky. I
stare in absolute amaizment. A beautiful new understanding.
"Wow.."
I get up, I feel different. I am missing/gaining something in me.
Its good.
"Wow..."
I have to post this on the K-list...
I run over to my computer.. fire it up....
Hello all,
This is the one. I've been going nuts lately........
Sean
I am
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