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Recieved: 2001/09/27 16:06
Subject: [K-list] Re: Need Help - Severe Kundalini
From: Divine Goddess
On 2001/09/27 16:06, Divine Goddess posted thus to the K-list:
Dear Leslee,
Welcome to the list and you are not alone.
I always thought it a bit strange that so many yoga practitioners
don't seem to know much about K. For me, I am not a yoga practitioner
but lately my body seems to be telling me to start using it. I have
found during my kundalini awakening process I was put in yogic type
positions, mudras, breathing exercises etc by the rising of k. I was
once told by a mentor that yoga disciplines began as a result of
watching kundalini move through the body. Another odd result is
lately I becoming less and less a carnivore and much more leaning
towards the macrobiotics way of eating.
--- In Kundalini-GatewayATnospamy..., "L. J. Klinsky" <ljklinskyATnospame...> wrote:
> I am new to this group and am hoping that someone here will have an
idea about how to help me. I'm also hoping that the responses will
not be mean, unlike those I received when I posted my concern on a
yoga newsgroup. I need help because I think I'm going through a
severe physio-Kundalini experience and no longer know where to turn.
My symptoms began just 4 1/2 months after I started doing daily yoga,
and they have been getting progressively more intense. I have been
meditating on and off for about 12 years.
I am also not a regular meditator. I am put into spontaneous
meditations by kundalini.
>
> I thought I was insane until I accidentally came across a video and
book, "Stalking the Wild Pendulum," by Itzhak Bentov. He amazingly
confirmed my symptoms to an absolute tee as a severe physio-Kundalini
experience. Needless to say I was relieved. Doctors don't have a
clue, considering symptoms like I have (listed below the body of this
e-mail) to be anything from Fibromyalgia to peripheral neuropathy to
schizophrenia. Getting drugged out will not help my spiritual path
any, so I will not go that route. I believe I am somehow evolving
because suddenly my energy seems to have a healing effect on animals
and people other than myself; and my energy level is out of this
world, literally.
Yes, isn't it wonderful?! As the energy rises it has an attractant
effect on others. I have found my experience to be the healing
effect, at least on humans, sometimes not gentle but people like to
be around me and touch me. So do animals and babies.
Bentov's book is wonderful.I would also suggest Kundalini by
Muktananda. It is small, short, readable paperback that gives
excellent info on the whole kundalini process. It is from an eastern
view point.
A book I have been recommending lately is Shakti Woman: Feeling our
Fire, Healing our World, The New Female Shamanism by Vicki Noble. She
also has her own website. It describes the awakening of women thru
Shakti to their healing abilities. She was mentored and studied with
Marija Gimbutas, an excellent anthropologist and archeologist of
ancient culture.
Although some people have had dramatic life or death awakenings that
are documented in Gopi Krishna's books, from my own experiences with
other k awakened people it is not the norm or the standard. He is
something of an alarmist about it.
>
> My yoga teacher (Sivananda style) has never been exposed to someone
like me, so he> doesn't have a clue how to help. Do I see an energy
healer or something? Are there any "gurus" who understand this and
know what to do about it? If so, any recommendations? I would REALLY
appreciate some help from somebody who's experienced what I'm going
> through, but supposedly only one in millions has this type of
experience. I don't know why I'm one of them but would sure like to
find out quickly, before my body explodes or something. Ultimately,
I'd like to learn how to control this so the effects aren't so
drastic.
It is really difficult to control K because it, imho, has it's own
divine intelligence. In fact, trying to control it often makes the
ascent worse. I think relaxing into the energy and maintaining an
attitude of surrender and grace makes the process easier and less
painful.
>
> Here are my symptoms:
>
> 1. When I do my Hatha-style yoga routine, I often feel massive
counter-clockwise circles of energy at all chakras. Then I feel like
I am just a huge ball of energy, mixing with the world at large. This
isn't a bad feeling, nor does it feel like an illness; it feels like
something else. I have to go into Corpse Pose for moments after many
poses so my body can "come back." Additionally, I'm a huge "buzz" all
the time. I feel like I can feel every molecule moving in my body
every moment.
Yes, I went through this stage too. I would just lay on my bed for
awhile until it passed. It would be a little more unsettling when I
was sitting at my desk at work ;) I occassionally still have these
experiences, but not non stop like they used to be.
>
> 2. When I meditate, my left toe, left leg, and left hip invariably
go numb> after a short period of time. By the end of a 40-minute
meditation, the whole> left toe/leg/hip complex feels completely
dead. I can pound with all my> strength on my leg and not feel a
thing for many minutes.
One of the classic symtpoms of k rising is that it starts with the
left toe. Some people's toenail will fall off and /or have a big red
stripe that travels from their toe all the way up to their crown
following the route of the spine. Sometimes the stripe goes away,
sometimes it doesnt for quite some time. I have had the toe pain
occassionally. One of my most dramatic symtpoms was a very hot brown
triangle of skin that appeared on my body. The tip of the triangle
pointed down to my yoni and the 'legs' of the triangle spread out to
my hips. For about three months, the skin was almost too hot to
touch. And I wanted to have sex with everyone...lol...the desire was
almost uncontrollable. It didn't matter what gender, age, appearance,
if it was an animal, a plant, the earth. I had this incredible sexual
desire for physical union with everything and everyone.
I guess you could
> call this complete temporary paralysis. Itzhak Bentov calls it a
physiological brain-cortex phenomenon that eventually leads the
nervous system to a higher state of evolution. That is, if you can
get a handle on it before permanent damage occurs.
Your nervous system is being refined and retuned, morphing and
evolving. Sometimes meditation and yoga can exacerbate the symmptoms.
It would be like throwing kerosene on fire. Sometimes just 'earthing'
yourself with sports or physical activity or a luxurious bath can
make the process smoother. Get some plants and when it gets too
strong touch the plant or better yet, hug a tree. Also get a basin of
water and put your hands in it, visualizing what you feel to be
excess energy draining into the water. Then give the water to your
plants or make an offerring of it to the earth.
>
> 3. I have variable pains occurring in my body, differing most every
day,> with corresponding surges of energy seeming to go to those
areas. Presently my> neck is sore. Other times I've had intense pains
in my shoulder blades and back, legs, and my arms.
Sometimes just breathing into those areas, visualizing,imagining a
tangled area becoming untangled helps. The k surges are working on
blocks in your body. Relaxing into the surges, riding them out, and
knowing this is a natural process of becoming human helps the process.
>
> 4. I have not slept more than one and a half hours straight in over
3 1/2 months. I try to force myself to go back to sleep after each
waking. Last night I didn't sleep more than 45 minutes straight
because I was woke by energy surges, giving me a total of 4 hours
sleep. Even when I am totally tired, the energy surges through my
body anyway, keeping me awake. The feeling is as if I drank 1000 cups
of coffee, only I haven't had any or any other outside stimuli.
Let your body needs guide you at this time. There are reasons the
energy wants you awake. :)
>
> 5. I've been having a hard time focusing and I feel disoriented
often, probably because I'm not getting any sleep.
I still get this when I have k activity. Your neural wet ware is
being rewired to a divine design. Feeling disoriented is natural
because your 'equipment' is getting an upgrade.
>
> 6. I have an incredible, recurring ringing in my ears that can't be
believed. It's almost conversational in nature, and sometimes it even
overpowers outside sounds. It is hard to sleep sometimes because of
this, too.
I still have this, sometimes so loud I couldn't hear other
conversations. I have learned to ignore it. It's going on right now
as I type this. It is not unusual to have ringing in the ears with
awakening.
>
> 7. I often feel like "something" is trying to communicate.
You bet there is...it is You. :)))))) Also as you awaken in K
rising, it attracts spirits to you. This is why people become aware
of entities.
>
> I am scared and pray for help.
>
> Leslee
Yes, being scared is OK. Be assured you are in the middle of a
*natural* evolutionary process. The more you give up trying to
control the process the smoother it can be. You are being reborn.
Natural childbirth can be so much easier and more healthy if one
listen's to the body's wisdom.
Also be assured there are plenty of people here on this list who have
had some of the same experiences you are having (like me :)and have
come out OK.
You are exactly where you are meant to be. All is perfection.
Peace and grace to you,
Susan
PS...As always, check with your health care practioner to rule out
organic causes.
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