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Recieved: 2001/09/27 08:56
Subject: [K-list] Need Help - Severe Kundalini
From: L. J. Klinsky
On 2001/09/27 08:56, L. J. Klinsky posted thus to the K-list:
I am new to this group and am hoping that someone here will have an idea about how to help me. I'm also hoping that the responses will not be mean, unlike those I received when I posted my concern on a yoga newsgroup. I need help because I think I'm going through a severe physio-Kundalini experience and no longer know where to turn. My symptoms began just 4 1/2 months after I started doing daily yoga, and they have been getting progressively more intense. I have been meditating on and off for about 12 years.
I thought I was insane until I accidentally came across a video and book, "Stalking the Wild Pendulum," by Itzhak Bentov. He amazingly confirmed my symptoms to an absolute tee as a severe physio-Kundalini experience. Needless to say I was relieved. Doctors don't have a clue, considering symptoms like I have (listed below the body of this e-mail) to be anything from Fibromyalgia to peripheral neuropathy to schizophrenia. Getting drugged out will not help my spiritual path any, so I will not go that route. I believe I am somehow evolving because suddenly my energy seems to have a healing effect on animals and people other than myself; and my energy level is out of this world, literally.
My yoga teacher (Sivananda style) has never been exposed to someone like me, so he
doesn't have a clue how to help. Do I see an energy healer or something? Are there any "gurus" who understand this and know what to do about it? If so, any recommendations? I would REALLY appreciate some help from somebody who's experienced what I'm going
through, but supposedly only one in millions has this type of experience. I don't know why I'm one of them but would sure like to find out quickly, before my body explodes or something. Ultimately, I'd like to learn how to control this so the effects aren't so drastic.
Here are my symptoms:
1. When I do my Hatha-style yoga routine, I often feel massive counter-clockwise circles of energy at all chakras. Then I feel like I am just a huge ball of energy, mixing with the world at large. This isn't a bad feeling, nor does it feel like an illness; it feels like something else. I have to go into Corpse Pose for moments after many poses so my body can "come back." Additionally, I'm a huge "buzz" all the time. I feel like I can feel every molecule moving in my body every moment.
2. When I meditate, my left toe, left leg, and left hip invariably go numb
after a short period of time. By the end of a 40-minute meditation, the whole
left toe/leg/hip complex feels completely dead. I can pound with all my
strength on my leg and not feel a thing for many minutes. I guess you could
call this complete temporary paralysis. Itzhak Bentov calls it a physiological brain-cortex phenomenon that eventually leads the nervous system to a higher state of evolution. That is, if you can get a handle on it before permanent damage occurs.
3. I have variable pains occurring in my body, differing most every day,
with corresponding surges of energy seeming to go to those areas. Presently my
neck is sore. Other times I've had intense pains in my shoulder blades and back, legs, and my arms.
4. I have not slept more than one and a half hours straight in over 3 1/2 months. I try to force myself to go back to sleep after each waking. Last night I didn't sleep more than 45 minutes straight because I was woke by energy surges, giving me a total of 4 hours sleep. Even when I am totally tired, the energy surges through my body anyway, keeping me awake. The feeling is as if I drank 1000 cups of coffee, only I haven't had any or any other outside stimuli.
5. I've been having a hard time focusing and I feel disoriented often, probably because I'm not getting any sleep.
6. I have an incredible, recurring ringing in my ears that can't be believed. It's almost conversational in nature, and sometimes it even overpowers outside sounds. It is hard to sleep sometimes because of this, too.
7. I often feel like "something" is trying to communicate.
I am scared and pray for help.
Leslee
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
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