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Recieved: 2001/09/23 09:55
Subject: [K-list] awakening
From: Michael Read
On 2001/09/23 09:55, Michael Read posted thus to the K-list:
Awakening - interesting word.
A dictionary definition is 3. a revival of interest or attention.
Perhaps it is the dropping of one's preoccupation with one's misery.
Why? That is the question more than any other. Why - has been the
motivation for me to seek. I remember in school hearing scientific
explanations for many things. But, no teacher could answer the question
of why.
Take the simple things. The color of the sky is blue. Why? Because the
air molecules absorb all light spectra except blue. So, blue is
reflected back and we see it. But, why blue?
Why does this happen this way? heeheehee Just because it does? Basically
- yes.
The scientific explanation covers only the apparent phenomena. That is
all science can do.
We can discover so much with science. There is a point where science
fails to explain anything.
And that is again - why? No, not why does science only go so far.
Fundamentally - why does anything exist at all?!
Just because it does - that is acceptance.
The first time I got an answer to my little question was at the age of
fifteen. The answer was music. I did not hear this music with my ears.
No, I heard it with my entire body! And I knew then that I was being
played - by the universe. And it felt good.
I knew from an early age that I was different than most folk I knew. It
wasn't the fact that we are all unique - it was something more than
that. I could see that we were all reactive. We did one thing while
saying another. No one had any control and folk believed some many
different things!
In this regard I was no different - the difference was that I could see
it happening.
I could see that I was more open than most folk. That was and still is
the major difference.
It doesn't make me better - not at all. No one is better than anyone
else.
I remember clearly so many things from my childhood, youth, and young
adulthood. Back in the sixth grade (social studies class) (early
sixties) Mr. H. our sociology teacher was telling us about propaganda.
Mr. H. made it out that propaganda was a pack of lies being passed off
as the truth. He told us of how Russia used propaganda to teach the
Russian children whatever lies would keep them in line. He went on about
this for nearly five minutes - maybe more.
Well, something clicked inside my pointed little head and I put my hand
in the air.
"Mr. H.", I asked, "since we are all just kids here and have no
experience of the world, how do we know that what you are telling us is
true?"
He didn't like that question at all! But, I could see that some of the
other kids were nodding their heads in agreement.
This is the approach I took to awakening. So many words have been
written and spoken about awakening. A lot of them tend to contradict
each other or at best only describe a small viewpoint - and a seeker can
easily become befuddled and confused.
A person has to find out for himself/herself. And it is tricky!
Now, I am awake. And the key for my awakening was the gift of being open
and intuitive.
Somewhere along the line (of my life) intuition demanded that I not
become as the saying goes - set in my ways. I could see that adults who
were 'set' had a hard if not impossible time of learning anything new.
Not only that, they could become violent over the most absurd things! I
still remember two 'grown-ups' nearly coming to blows over which make of
car was better - Chevy or Ford! Sure it sounds ridiculous now, but then
it was a real eye opener for me.
Today I see that people are more interested in protecting their belief
systems that in taking good care of one another. Religion, politics,
economics, and so on are all ways of doing and being and trying to make
some sense of of this vast universe that will go on whether there are
human beings or not.
For the life of me I can't see any reason to murder each other over
anything.
Murder, neglect, abuse - all are rampant on this planet. And what can be
done about it?
Is it evolution in action? Will the meek truly inherit this good good
earth? Does that mean that a lot of humanity (aggressive people) must
die and leave the meek gentle ones to eke out a living as best they can?
Or, will the meek rise up and refuse to murder? Will they voice their
gentleness in no uncertain terms thus shaming those with violent
tendencies into re-evaluating their actions?
Who can tell?
I know that this human species is special. We have unlimited
possibilities, talents and gifts. Until we learn to open up we will do -
what? - what we have done all through our brief brief history. We will
murder and hate and oppress and neglect and destroy.
All because we haven't learned to open up and just live!
During the process of awakening I was shown that there is no 'ultimate
purpose' to life. There is no God who is weighing the relative goodness
of souls so some can be burned in eternal fire and some can be rewarded
with eternal bliss. That is a childish fantasy.
There is pain and there is pleasure. No doubt about that! Either one
could be described as a form of bondage - so what?!
We are all slaves to life - no exceptions. Life is to be lived and that
is the meaning and purpose of life.
So what to do - what to do?
Do anything - do nothing!
Wake up! Take an interest in life! Be open!
Of course these are only suggestions - I cannot force anyone to
'wake-up'.
What I can do is to be open - cherish life - let people work it out for
themselves.
Tickle their funny bone from time to time - it helps!
Sometimes grab folk by the elbows and lead them away from the fights
they are trying to start - and whisper loving words in their ears.
I know this - without a doubt - without a reservation - without
hesitation - it is good to be alive! Even when it hurts!
-----
I stumble drunkenly from door to door
Pounding on windows
And yelling - there is too much love!
It can't all be just for me!
Come and share!
There is plenty!
Michael
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