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Recieved: 2001/09/10 08:35
Subject: [K-list] Sister - Hello Gold
From: Denise Lyon Anding
On 2001/09/10 08:35, Denise Lyon Anding posted thus to the K-list:
Hello, Gold,
Like Antoine and Jose, I too am deeply touched by your experience....
Am confident that by the time I respond, well, a great many others will have contacted you. There are a lot of terrific people on this list and very loving at that!
I'm not the most experienced one here in this study of Kundalini yoga as my experiences are more like your sister's - spontaneous - and have had to make sense of it on my own and in my own words...
Your sister may have already figured this out now by the time you receive this... but will still turn around and step backward into your sister's shoes to "be" her in a sense ... and here is what I/her did/might be thinking in process...
... these kind of "happenings" which appear so violent - on the surface - are not necessarily a negative...
found it best to corral the emotions as if they were wild horses on the loose and at least herd them into a small space so they feel less threatened and can begin the process of calming down - somewhat- these kind of dramatic experiences have a way of triggering sheer animal fear for the body ...
...yet once you corral those fearful emotions it is possible to realize the body isn't dying but going through a transformation... found it important to hold that focus no matter what...
... one of the my weirdest examples is when sometimes you can't get out of bed in the morning - yet are wide awake - but your body is frozen into a lying position and no matter how much "will" you use, the body just doesn't respond and start moving - sometimes can last an hour or two or only a few minutes...
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Best thing to do is keep thinking - choose a calming meditation/memory/imagination of some kind that soothes/delights you - and wait for it to pass... and it will pass. From those weird moments have realized that that powerful thing called "my spirit" was taking me "offline" momentarily to make repairs in my system - and I needed a lot of repairs.
Eventually you get used to these "diagnostics" and over the years they are no longer so dramatic but become subtle as your spirit - inner self - continues to balance you so consistently that you no longer require being taken "offline."
Actually, during these dramatic kind of times have found the body goes into spontaneous fasting ... instead of focusing the mind upon digesting food - which requires a lot of energy - the body has gone into "fast mode" to flush toxins - even old medications - from deep within the body - residuals held in the internal organs... you can never drink too much water and the fact that your sister is hungry all the time is a good sign to me! ... it says to me that she is expending a tremendous amount of energy to heal/balance herself.
Healing can be spontaneous but have found it is generally a process ... like a big boost in the beginning and then a rest period of maybe several months ... then a gentler boost and again rest and on ...
As to spontaneous yoga positions, have been doing those weird things all my life ... just didn't know it was called yoga when I was a child. Three years ago, I was led to pick up a book on yoga - no classes offered in my area - and began the exercises. By the beginning of the third day, I bent over laughing so hard I almost fell over! Had been doing Iyengar Yoga all my life - spontaneously - and was just now aware it was an actual discipline! Quite relieved that I wasn't that weird after all. Those positions always felt so good, especially before or after extreme stress came my way ... my body would just go into position ... learned to love those positions and found them comforting ... which would explain my tremendous physical strength all my life ... the yoga!
Let me tell you, this yoga discipline idea is so great for the back ... back pain is rare and fleeting for me because of it... and there are other styles of yoga available to study as well.
As to God talking to her - it may be God is - she also may be finally hearing her own inner voice - and it is so unsettling - and downright loud - she may not have yet learned how to interpret all that is being said... that does take time. Her inner self may be giving to her the "mission" in life - what she is supposed to do with this experience - on a thematic level. Whenever have had these kind of visions I always take the time to test them and wait a very long time before acting upon them. Often this kind of "mission" vision is really about only the basic information of a person's purpose in this life. How to effectively carry it out generally comes much later after you learn the personal discipline of how to "go with the flow" and not get ahead of the timing and purpose of the Universe...
Seems to me that the hospital experience might be a good idea for the short term if only to get her past the fear. This experience involves a tremendous rush of spiritual energy that can easily be overwhelming to the everyday mind that hasn't been culturally trained to expect this. She will eventually go into a long introspective period - maybe decades - to make sense of it all and become accustomed to her new way of living.
Whenever I have been with folks in this kind of dilemma - or even with cancer patients in the last hours of dying - have found that maintaining a very deeply focused centered peace inside me - emanating, not projecting - has proven to be quite helpful to them... and they are able to come out of the pain and are delighted they can communicate so much better and often have so much to say! ...and much more coherently ... sort of operates on the principle: the more you attend to your own self and balance - the easier it is for others/your sister to regain their/her balance.
Hope some of this is helpful and my thoughts/prayers will be with you both during this time. It really only does get better.
Lovingly,
Denise
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