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Recieved: 2001/08/29 13:43
Subject: [K-list] Dear Sean
From: Cleocatras

On 2001/08/29 13:43, Cleocatras posted thus to the K-list:


>
> Hello all,
> I am very glad I was directed to this group. I've learned so much
> already.. But have much further to go. The knowledge on this group is
> incredible. Thanks!
>
> I have this thing inside of me. It never loses control.
It never lets me

Feeling like you do not have free will is not about higher self.
Control is not about higher self.

> lose control. Its always on the look out. Its like a camera
> that I can see myself doing things from sometimes. It knows whats
> right and wrong instinctivly. It wont let me do anything "wrong". It
> makes me feel bad when I even try to do something thats not reletivly
> good.
>
> I try to get drunk,

How often do you do this? Twice a day, once a day, every other day? Weekly?

but I see everything, I never lose control, I
> just feel bad because I'm not fully in controll. It keeps me alive
> when I dont want to be.

Tell me more about your thoughts and feelings of not wanting to be alive. How
does your self talk go about this topic? Is there a lot of arguing going on?

It lets me know when I'm in a bad situation
> by making me feel horrable about it.

What kind of bad situation?
  
> What is this called? A friend said its a higher self? Sometimes I
> think I have 2 people inside of me.

You probably do. Do you live next to a Catholic Seminary or Monestary?

  
> Just trying to figure out whats happening with me... Thanks for any
> info.. Sean

Cat


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