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Recieved: 2001/08/28 13:53
Subject: Re: [K-list] Can anyone explain this?
From: percyval

On 2001/08/28 13:53, percyval posted thus to the K-list:

----- Original Message -----
From: <unit1021ATnospamhotmail.com>
> I have this thing inside of me. It never loses control. It never
> lets me lose control. Its always on the look out. Its like a camera
> that I can see myself doing things from sometimes. It knows whats
> right and wrong instinctivly. It wont let me do anything "wrong". It
> makes me feel bad when I even try to do something thats not reletivly
> good.
>
> I try to get drunk, but I see everything, I never lose control, I
> just feel bad because I'm not fully in controll. It keeps me alive
> when I dont want to be. It lets me know when I'm in a bad situation
> by making me feel horrable about it.
>
> What is this called? A friend said its a higher self? Sometimes I
> think I have 2 people inside of me.
>
> Just trying to figure out whats happening with me... Thanks for any
> info..

hiya Sean,

welcome to the list...

in my experience, my Higher Self does watch out for me, but will not make me
feel "horrible", like what you describe... it just gently nods me in the
right direction in a gentle and loving manner... i think this is usually the
way anyone's Higher Self tends to be... it's coming from a place of love and
understanding, and it's very accepting of any weaknesses and poor
decisions...

what you have described sounds more like an internalized parental voice that
has taken on a life of its own... if this is true, then it is not
necessarily looking out for your own best interests, but is looking out for
its own (which may sometimes correspond with your best interests, but not
always)...

warmly,

percyval

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