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Recieved: 2001/08/26 17:15
Subject: Re: [K-list] Thank You
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2001/08/26 17:15, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
Mystress wrote:
> > Some issues will relate to more than one chakra... for example,
> empathy
> > is a function of the heart chakra, where the universe of duality and
> > separation meets the universe of non duality.. when 2 become one and share
> > feelings. Feeling victimized and overwhelmed by too much empathy is an
> > issue of the power chakra. The power chakra is about issues of faith, fear
> > and surrender: free will and Divine will, status and power games between
> > people, breath issues of abundance and scarcity of energy, and the
>value of gratitude.
> >
> >
>At 08:01 AM 8/26/01, unit1021ATnospamhotmail.com wrote:
>
> This means a terrible lot to me as I now know myself to be really
>empathic. I didnt even know I had issues to deal with about this. I'm
>really confused. What do I surrender? I swear all I do now is
>surrender every day. I try to be invisable and let it all go around
>me, but I still feel everything though.
You do not really understand duality and non duality, so you are not
done yet. :) Simply, you are trying to be invisible to others.. there are
no others, you are All that Is.
Guess that is not so simple, eh? But your judgments about what you feel
are part of what makes empathy so hard to deal with. You surrender
everything, including the incoming emotions and your judgments about them.
>Where is the power chakra?
At your solar plexus, under the ^ triangle at the bottom of your ribs,
where they join.
>Do
>I need to balance my other chakras to make this work better for me?
>How can I balance them?
Wow, you want to know everything..:) Balance is part of the growth
process of K., and there is only so much you can do to help them balance.
Here is one thing that I enjoy. A rainbow meditation of the colors.
Each chakra is a color, and so we have a rainbow inside of us, red at
the root to violet at the crown.
root: tip of the tailbone, red.
2nd: below the navel, fiery orange.
power: at the base of the ribs, golden yellow.
heart: beside your heart, in your chest: leaf green.
throat: electric blue.
third eye: forehead, center of brain: purple.
crown: top of head, violet.
Get a cd disk, or some other perfect rainbow maker, (love the purity of
laser colors!) and look at the beautiful rainbows made by the laser pattern
on its surface. Meditate on each of the colors in turn, from the root up,
imagining your whole aura becoming suffused by that color, then turning to
white, then the next color.
Similarly, you can do a self diagnostic by simply looking intuitively
at the colors of your chakras and noticing what color is less bright.
> THe duality really got me too.. Its confusing. I dont have any power
>games between anyone. Breath issues? I have a hard time breathing in
>some area's.. Is this it?
Breath is related to the power chakra.. and you do have issues, because
you want to hide and be invisible. This is an effort to control.. it is not
surrender.
> Faith issues? I know about Goddess now. I
>do feel better these days than before I knew. Actually a lot better.
>But I'm still getting my heart ripped apart by people. I hate it. I
>try to surrender, but I feel that I just get hurt more. Sometimes
>when I do really become invisable and totaly surrender, I feel bad, I
>am not me, if I am not me, then whats the point?
What are you? If you are identifying "me" with the thoughts, the
feelings, the body.. then you will be hurt. What you really are, is not the
thoughts and feelings, but the space they happen in.
>I feel very very
>sad. This cant be the way. Maybe I'm not doing it right.
Sounds like you are doing it right, except that even when surrendered,
you are still identifying with the egos judgments about being nothing. It
can be incredibly blissful to be nothing. My favorite state.
> On a different note. I noticed that when people move there hands
>over, or anywhere near my heart, even up to over a foot away. I can
>feel it like they are touching me on the inside. Its like my heart is
>on the outside of my body as well as inside.
Where is the heart? :) Good question. The heart has the universe inside
of it, outside of time and space.. so the question of "where" gets rather
tangled and useless.
>It feels good when I or
>others rub that area. When I feel good, this area shines like a sun.
>I feel drawn up by it. But I feel that somehow the reason I get hurt
>so easily is because of my energy sticking out like that.
Then don't stick it out. Stop trying to love everyone, and focus on
loving yourself, Goddess within you. That will decrease the effects of
empathy. If you are truly being loving to yourself, then you will
automatically act with love to others. You have to love yourself before you
really can love anyone else, anyhow.
> It picks up
>on every single little tone in peoples voices. The good side is that
>I understand notes, tones and music very very well. Bad side is I
>feel peoples horrable lives when they talk.
There is your problem, in a nutshell. Your heart is trying to show you
that you are All that Is, and move you past duality and separation, but
your ego resists with judgments that the other people are horrible. In that
moment of feeling their stuff, THEY ARE YOU. You are judging yourself, and
hurting yourself. That idea that you are better than them and they are
horrible, is all power chakra stuff. Ego judges.
> If I asked for this in any life... I must have been out of my mind.
LOL!! You are not the first to think so.. but you did, and it will get
better.. Then, it will get more blissful than you can possibly comprehend,
from where you are at now.. You will look back on this time and cherish it
for where it led you to, with no regrets.
>What an idiot... Somone tell me that I can use this stuff for
>something positive instead of always getting hurt every day.
What you see in others, is a reflection of yourself. Goddess is showing
you other people's stuff so you can clear the resonant stuff within
yourself, through surrender. Eventually, you will run out of stuff and
become enlightened. At that point, empathy will not be such a problem
because you will see beauty in every aspect of the human condition.
Really! Romeo and Juliet were a couple of very fucked up kids, yet
their drama is legendary beauty. Such is the stuff art is made from. The
shit makes the flowers grow.
>I want
>to be able to get my music out and not be held back by all this
>hurting.
Music is essentially emotional.. so put the emotions into the music and
let them out that way. You can use the shit as fertilizer for art, if you
get your judgments out of the way. Nothing is stopping you, but you and
your attitude.
> Thanks for any info
>
> Sean
Yer welcome. Blessings!
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