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Recieved: 2001/08/25 06:59
Subject: [K-list] Concepts of God/dess
From: Autumn Wild

On 2001/08/25 06:59, Autumn Wild posted thus to the K-list:

An interesting week this has been. Important and shattering discoveries.
Having had a religous up-bringing and a belief in a rightous God to then
shifting my beliefs to a more universal God of Light and Love and now to
finally realizing that in my heart I do not belief in a conceptualized
God/dess at all. This has taken me some time to acknowledge, what I have
buried for so long, as I now have no other in my heart to pray to or ask for
guidance from. There is no other...
The words that were resounding in my head the other night, was "I believe in
me"....
How freeing to let go of that white robe as someone on this list once said.
And yet hard because I felt alone, for no all-powerful other to comfort me.
Interestingly, I have had some old fears resurface as an individual was
posing as a possible threat to my physical well-being, although I do not
instinctively feel that, that person is a real threat, just enough to shake
up my beliefs of God, Guidance and safety on this earth-walk.
  I wonder if my thoughts and 'non-belief' are passing moments or whether
this is the moment before the dawn... where all beliefs are thrown into the
fire...

I still belief in a higher force but in a different way, the veils of
separation are surely disappering, the concepts fast disappearing. People
talk of the feelings of oneness with all things and seeing God everywhere.
I have not experienced this, but as recently suggested, there are infinite
ways of awakening. I used to belief that k-awakening meant we would have
the same realizations and discoveries, but that is so obviously not the
case, my unfolding is unique to me and yours to you....Our personal blocks,
fears and perspectives will always mean our journey brings us different
things and discoveries....
Infinite

Just some quiet thoughts,

Autumn


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