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To: K-list
Recieved: 2001/07/31 19:51
Subject: Re: [K-list] shamanic initiation
From: Joyful Fairy

On 2001/07/31 19:51, Joyful Fairy posted thus to the K-list:

--- In Kundalini-GatewayATnospamy..., Mystress Angelique Serpent wrote:

> You are flirting with the *idea* of being a shaman,
> but if you really are one, then your whole being would shout it out
to you
> like a thunderstorm hurricane erupting from the core of your being,
and
> there would be none of this indecision and flirting with the idea.

This is rather a relief to hear cuz I have no interest in being a
shaman, and always shied away from learning anything about it. But
encountering the bit about shamanic sickness scared me silly. I guess
I wanted affirmation that I wasn't going down that road. I'm way too
selfish to *help* others for a living, and I don't like all that goes
along with that.

Anyhoo, I went thru an emotional ego roller coaster today
surrendering to a nameless nothing, fully believing *they* were doing
this ~to me~. And then later I realized how this is a reflection of
the *victim consciousness* issue stuff I've been clearing out. Only I
was being victimized by *God itself*. I surrender being victim. I
hope there's NONE of that left now. {A girl can dream right? hehe}
So far I've worked it out through my physical, emotional, mental, and
now spiritual bodies. It was interesting to watch this piece move out
and reflect in my life events at each level. Most fascinating really.

OK, I got the ego victim illusion issue thing, which may have been
all the shamanic stuff was about for me. So, what do I do about my
health now? I still don't understand what this disease is all about,
or how to get my health back.

But then: I also had a vision of a fairy I've been talking with and
~his~ familiar/dragon that was on my back, which I THOUGHT was ~my~
protector. HA! After talking a bit with him he released his death
grip on my ribs & him and the fairy dude left. The crushing pain
lessened, but I still have problems breathing.

hmm. I feel like I just boxed myself in back to square one.
Rebeckah






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