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Recieved: 2001/07/26 02:55
Subject: Re: [K-list] Re: Karma Judo. Was: fundamentals of witchhunts
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2001/07/26 02:55, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 06:36 AM 7/25/01, Nancy Brook wrote:
>From: Mystress Angelique Serpent <mystressATnospamfire-serpent.com
> > Remember, you are the person who taught
> > me to recognise karmic stuff
> > that belonged to other people by asking for it
> > all to show up within me as
> > a specific color. Handy trick!
>
>Well, you taught me that it was karma that I was taking on! I just would
>know that someone was hooked into me.
Our friendship has been very rewarding!
>I don't think I take on much of others' stuff because I have little
>sympathy for people wallowing in their own creations. So many people just
>want to complain and not do anything or change their perceptions. Wallow.
Yes.. and I have too much sympathy for them because I used to be one..
LOL!!! I recognise that sometimes people get into a stuck fish cycle like
I was in for so long,
http://www.davidbowie.com/users/mystress/fish.htm
and they need a hand getting unstuck before they can move onward to
resolving things for themselves.
>Then there are others who want me for my energy. Usually, they get a smile
>and politeness but not me. They get tired of the game when they realize
>they will have to do their own work. Much like your phone friend last night.
:) Yes, well .. I get so many of those that I made a career out of it..
LOL! That guy tho, is in scarcity consciousness. I indulged him for a
while, teaching him for free or for tiny donations.. but finally I realized
that he really won't make much progress until he decides to pay me my fees
because *he* is worth it!
Morgana helped me with that one.. to understand that it not my job to
support their scarcity consciousness by accommodating it. It was a real eye
opener, I had not looked at it like that, before! By accepting a lower rate
from those who insist they cannot afford me, I am implicitly agreeing with
their self assessment of poverty, with their self assessment of what they
are worth, and what they think I am worth. I would not make discounts when
I was a Pro-Dom, because of the latter, but I had not considered applying
it to healing. Personally, I believe my work is priceless, but "priceless"
does not work in the marketplace.. perhaps that is my own scarcity
consciousness speaking!
So generally I either get my fee or work for nothing, and call it
tithing and trust Goddess to pay my wages. I benefit from the work,
anyhow. There are a few people who have sent me more than I asked for..
bless them!
>Now there are some people I have become hooked on, mostly men. I have
>without consciously being aware used the force of my energy to draw them
>in like moths to the light. And as you've said, their poor wings get burnt
>when they get too close! haha! I'm stopping that. Rather than a laser
>point, I'm focusing my love as a beacon that comes from within and
>radiates round. It's much gentler and not focused on anyone or anything.
Yes.. the radiance that comes of loving your Self.
>I have some people in my life who don't like to see me too often. I think
>I bring up too much stuff for them to process. There is one woman I work
>with who is like this. I saw her last week, and she was telling me all
>about her previous unhappy work environment, complaining about her boss,
>etc. I wasn't too hard on her because she had made a change. But, this is
>the good part, I REALIZED that she was giving me her karma! That
>realization is thanks to YOU, Mystress. Oh! I thought. Incoming karma! And
>I pictured it going in my heart and out the top of my head...Goddess a
>gift for you. Voila! She felt better. I felt fine.
LOL!! You are welcome! I get that a lot. I get emails from my sites,
great long letters of people telling me their whole life story.. and at the
end they go, "gee, I only meant to write you a short note, but this all
came pouring out.." LOL!! Their unconscious knows that I can handle it, so
it makes them spew.. I think its cute.
My Mom these days is funny.. she has felt my healing, so these days she
calls my up to say hello and then tells me about all of her aches and
pains.. expecting me to wave my magic wand. However, I have cleared
everything that I can clear from her, what remains is connected to stuff
she will not examine or surrender.. so there is a short silence and then I
ask her what she plans to do about it. :)
> > You were part of me coming to this understanding,
> > when you channelled my
> > higher self, in a dream to explain the
> > meaning of twin flames in clearer
> > words than I had been able to find for myself.
> > You asked me to translate
> > the information you had been given,
> > and with your consent I will forward
> > that post to the list.
>
>Yes, please do forward. It would be helpful to see!
I will.. dug it out yesterday.
>You know, I think I am being love rather than projecting love most of the
>time. I'm struggling a bit to understand intellectually, though. The love
>is free from elation or frustration. It feels peaceful and radiant.
It was a struggle for me to understand it intellectually too.. and that
struggle is quite evident in the post I will forward.. LOL!!
I think the understanding is hard, because the conditions of the
chakra-universes above the heart cannot really be explained in words. I am
sure people who have experienced the higher chakra dimensions had little
trouble following my last post, and for those who have not it made no sense
at all. Gobbledygook, like "what is the sound of one hand clapping?" The
learning is experiential.
Experientially, I knew that there was some things in the dynamic of my
work that were about how energy flows in different dimensions of unity and
duality, and how the vertical dynamic of slavery altered the rules.. but
your channelling put it into crystal clear words that my intellect could
grab onto and apply to my experience.
>I did a meditation this morning and asked about sending love. The answer I
>received was that it is fine to send love as long as it is going through
>the divine.
YES! That exactly validates what I was trying to express.
You might say, vertically not horizontally, *or* through the heart
reflection, internally not externally. You are not projecting love to the
illusions of other, so much as recognising the unity between the Divine in
them and the Divine in you. Namaste! You are love and they are love and
Love Is.
Does that makes sense? Ack Words! It is like riding a bicycle... much
easier to do it than to describe how the body knows its balance.
An example would be the Grounding site. I was guided in creating it and
charging it, and when it was done I gave it up to Goddess to be maintained
and altered as need be. The intention on it is the intention of what
Goddess Shakti does anyhow.. "to each according to their need and ability
to recieve, but not more than they can handle"
It is connected to me, through Goddess, and people tell me that the
energy they get has the "flavor" of my Shaki energy, like a scent.. perhaps
it clings to my writing style, I dunno.. it is that individuality the
forwarded posts speaks of. It goes through Goddess, vertical not
horizontal. Like Goddess is the filter of transmutation.
The transmission is not on a conscious level for me, at all...
deliberately so. Goddess has it handed.
I am not aware of who visits it and what they experience unless they
tell me, and I do not get any negative karmic feedback effect from it. I do
get some nice karmic "brownie points" for being the vessel of it, but they
are hard to define. Goddess' wages for the work.
LOL!! OK, maybe I can define some of them.. grace.. and glowing clothes!
ROTFLOL!! All the little miracles, so many I stopped telling stories about
them.. but here is one.
Last night I went to bed well after 4 am, very tired from sorting new
images to add to the FST e-card shop at
http://www.fire-serpent.com/cards/index.html
and trying to plan a redesign for www.domin8rex.com
I had been admiring my site on bowienet
http://www.davidbowie.com/users/mystress/
and wondering how to adapt what I like about it to the redesign of
www.domin8rex.com.
Then I remembered that I had meant to test it in different browsers,
installed netscape.. then got into trying to figger out why my background
colors look so different in netscape compared to Iexplore, and trying to
find a closely matched color to change the backgrounds to, that would not
get as messed up across different platforms. The sites were designed for
iexplore and I hadn't realized how much difference there was till I
looked.. not happy with what netscape did to my banners.. they went muddy.
So I was playing with doing screen captures of the site and pasting them
into photoshop, and comparing the colors I got with what the browsers
showed.. different again, especially depending on what format I saved them
in.. arrrgh!! Then stupid netscape crashed and I could not unfreeze it
without restarting my system, which I did not want to do because I had some
www.sharebear.com downloads happening. (Thanks, Susan!) At that point I
decided it was a sign to give up and go to bed.
I am explaining this to illustrate my state of mind.. not what you
would call a spiritual or meditative state! Actually, it is a good example
of the work patterns of an ADD mind! Hopping from one task to another but
getting very little done on any of them.
I went into my bedroom, flicked the light on to make sure there was
nothing to trip over between me and the bed, (I really need a housekeeper!)
then flicked it off again and undressed in the dark and tossed my skirt on
the bed.. then I did a double-take because my dark red silk skirt was
softly glowing blue! It was so dark I could just barely see my white
sheets, so a dark red skirt on a black bedspread in a pitch dark room
should have been invisible, but there was a definite blue glow coming from
it. I could see clearly where it was. Wondering if this was an afterimage
from having the light on so briefly, I picked the skirt up again and waved
it before my eyes.. no trick, it was glowing with the energy it had
absorbed from me. Very kewl!
druid has commented that sometimes he can feel my energy clinging to my
clothes, and sometimes I have turned out the light to find myself glowing
blue.. but this is the first time, I think, that I have noticed my clothing
radiant with K-fire..
I got into bed and held my arm up, to look at it and could not see it at
all..so probably I was invisible. Invisible is a higher vibration than
glowing blue.
<The mornings writing is interrupted to spend the day at the beach.
The forwarded post was sent before I left.. explains why I refer to the
forwarded post in future tense.. had intended to finish this and send it
first.>
>The divine force is what transmutes it as a healing force rather than a
>manipulative energy sucking force! ha!
>
>I also agree that it is good to feel love within. I will admit that
>sometimes to really center in my love I have to focus on my love for
>another. It's not something that I try to project to them, but something I
>feel within.
Yes.. you focus on the reflection of them within your heart.. not on
the illusion of the external person. You are loving yourself, a part of you
that wears another face from the one you see in the bathroom mirror. Ever
try just loving yourself, or your own Divinity? The transmutative alchemy
is not quite the same, but it can be very blissful and it will make you
stronger.
Similarly, someone has been writing to me recently on how I can
"improve" the grounding to help heal the Earth.. he has quite missed the
point in some ways, and hit the nail in others. His improvements would turn
the grounding into the grail ritual.. which would be way too intense for
most people.. and the idea of healing the earth is a suggestion.. an
excuse, almost, a point of focus that is really about giving people a
projection that will result in them healing themselves. Gaia is fine, it is
people who need healing, and sending love to the planet gives wonderful
Shakti feedback. We are the Earth. : )
>Love is the divine. Love is the force of miracles. It's the balm that
>heals all wounds. Love is the space between God and humans, between you
>and me, between atoms.
Yes. Goddess is the Void.. not the waves and particles of light, but
the spaces between, that allows the particles to exist with the appearance
of separate individuality. The spaces between are unified, even a balloon
or a steel sphere has spaces between the atoms that connect the inside and
the outside, spaces that connect the particles and give them a place to
exist. Goddess Shakti is the Void. The void is eternal. The spaces.. or
rather, The Space does not change, it is eternal, timeless, infinite...
love=attraction=gravity.. is the glue that holds the universe together. The
Unified Field.
In the Bible Genesis it says,<sic> "In the beginning, there was a vast
dark void, and out of the void came a voice that said "let there be Light..
and there was light. Goddess the Void giving birth to her consort, God the
Light. People associate the light with God, and that is correct.. the
God-force is the E=MC2 light=matter. Suns are born and die in the vastness
of Space. The wheel of birth and death of material things happens in the Void.
The God is the Stag King that is born and dies with the turning of the
seasons and the cutting of the grain. That whole cycle of material reality
occurs in the infinite space, the womb of the Goddess who spoke to create
the Light. The God is matter, transient, dying and being born again through
the Goddess... while truly never leaving that infinite great Womb with out
boundaries, where the universe sits.
In tantra, the male penis is the lingham, which means "wand of light".
Women have the Yoni, the sacred SPACE where creation happens. As above,
so below. In nature, all life begins with the fem. The female line of
mothers and daughters is infinite, unbroken.. your daughter gets her ovum
from your mother. Not the same with fathers and sons..
Or, to put it another way, God is matter, prana-light that does not
judge you or what use you make of it. Chi serves Free Will. Goddess is
Shakti, the "clear light" that makes you invisible.. She is
wisdom/consciousness and She requires you to align yourself with Her plan
for you.
The intelligence is in the spaces, like the gaps between neurons.
> It becomes conscious through us humans. Even when it's not conscious, it
> is there in all.
It is conscious.. it spoke the word.. the Logos.. let there be light.
> I remember even my mother's pillow that she died on had love in it. It
> told me a story about her. The energy trapped in the space between.
>
>Gosh, remember where I was a few years ago, Angelique? hehe. I had no
>idea. NO CLUE! And now I feel like I'm getting it. Starting to get it
>anyway. It's funny, even when my habit would have me go back to pining
>away for someone, I just can't stay there!
Nope.. :) Once you get to a certain level of ascension, you may fall
from grace now and then, but Goddess will kick you free, one way or
another. Like I wrote in the other post, even after full awakening,
enlightenment, it takes some time to get used to living in the new reality.
It is habit, we women are so trained by culture to buy into the
Cinderella stuff.. "someday my prince will come, yadda yadda.." You just
have to keep burning your fingers till you get it.
There are some habits that are so embedded in the culture that you can
get.. well, re-infected with them over and over until you are finally
immune. The romance fairy tale is one our whole culture is built on, Judeo
Christian monogamy and procreation messages though out the media, art,
music, film, TV, mythology, books.. it is everywhere. The illusory promise
of "true love".. I simply take it is as
my Divine Beloved serenading me and speaking to me of our Sacred Marriage.
Are you sure you don't wanna write a book about it? :)
Love you.. Blessings!!
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