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Recieved: 2001/07/23 14:24
Subject: [K-list] Karma Judo. Was: fundamentals of witchhunts
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2001/07/23 14:24, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 11:59 AM 7/23/01, CLEOCATRAsATnospamaol.com wrote:
>All the reasons for such attack always says more about the hunter's predatory
>shortcomings than about your attributes. An attack can be quick, but the
>heart and the truth endearing. The conquest is completely unseen as the quick
>attack does not define the timeline of prevailing over it. The players of the
>witchhunt do not understand this at all. Foolishness functions on a short
>fuse, but there is no explosion in your space unless you give it mass to
>explode. Likely to backfire if you realize this, and foolishness can be
>embarrassing.
I think you are still learning it, Cat. :) this post is not
exclusively written to you, I know you know a lot of this stuff already..
When I first got online, before I cleared more fear I often got very
hostile emails.. from insecure men and women, and from Christians who
wanted to "save" me.. stuff like that.
Nowadays, even though my website is much better known and on most
search engines, I rarely ever get an unkind email. The last one I got, it
turned out that the individual had actually written to almost every pro-dom
I know! It was not really directed at me.
Where is the shift? Within me! Change the world by changing inside of
yourself. So long as you fear witchhunts, the smell of your fear will
attract the predators. Goddess does it, so you can face your fear and
transcend it. Every problem carries a gift in its hands..
There is also another dynamic, one that I suffered from, for most of my
life before I finally understood it. I could not understand why people
reacted to me with fear and hostility, and rejection, even when I was a
small quiet child. It made no sense at all.
We awakened people walk around in a field of Shakti energy, and that
energy is a healing force that pushes on the karma within other people and
brings it into consciousness.
People who are in a state of surrender and want to grow will enjoy this
about you.. the "Guru presence". They will feel it as your being nice to be
around, and come closer. People who do not want to grow will feel it as
moodiness, fear, even a chill on the back of their neck, horror movie
stuff. Since they are not willing to take responsibility for their stuff,
they will blame you for how crappy they feel in their resistance.. and
because the reasons for it are etheric and not definable, they will make up
reasons why you are a horrible person.
They can get very creative with the inventive reasons.. it became much
easier for me when I adopted the image of a leather clad B*tch because they
would accept that as a reason and not have to invent something worse..
Their feelings about you has not much to do with you. It has to do with
their relationship with their own spirit, and their resistance.
Since most of us are no more aware of the shakti-field than we are
aware of our pancreas.. these unfounded accusations can come at you blind
side and catch you by surprise.
However, I have come to really appreciate this effect, as natural
selection in action! I prefer to be around people who want to grow, and if
the Shakti field makes the others run far away, great! :)
There are two things you can do to moderate this effect. The first, is
to keep your energy field turned inwards. This will also vastly decrease
the effects of wayward empathy. Most "new age" people are taught to
always project love and light wherever they go, and this idea is really not
so good. It leads to conflict and excessive empathic karma junk incoming.
What you put out comes back multiplied, AND every action an opposite
and equal reaction. Send love and light to people, you get back love and
light but you also get back karma and conflict.
No two people have exactly the same idea of what "love and light" is or
means.. we all have our own definitions of love. Our own love language.
So when you are projecting love to another person, you are projecting
your *idea* of love at them, and their idea of love might be quite
different, and so there is conflict as you project YOUR ideas of love onto
them and they resist because they like their ideas of love better.
Example: my slaves feel loved when I spank them.. but if someone tries
to spank me I am likely to rip their head off. An exaggerated example, but
you get the drift.. love languages are different.
You have to love yourself before you can love anyone else, anyhow... so
just love yourself and let Goddess handle the rest.. after all, you are All
that Is, so loving yourself IS loving All... without the illusions of
separation that make you think you know what someone else needs.
Direct your love toward your own heart, love yourself, love your own
divinity.. and Goddess will handle the rest. She will transmute that love
into a radiance that is warm and universally accepted, unlike an ego based
projection of what you think love is, and what you think the illusion of
the other somebody needs. There is a reflection of the entire universe in
your heart, anyhow. If you want to love someone, love the reflection of
them in your own heart instead of the external reflection.
The other thing is shieldedness vs receptivity. To wear armor or build
a wall is to show that you fear attack, thereby inviting the predators to
attack you. If you shield yourself with a mirrored bubble that reflects the
attacks back, people will feel attacked by you.
The tornado bubble seems not to have this effect so much, because it
accepts the projections and sends them up to be transmuted.. but it is
still a type of shield. When you feel the urge to shield, ask yourself what
do you fear, and what do you think needs to be protected, and from what?
The arrows of criticism and aggression will only stick on something that
is resonant with your own stuff.. the same dynamic as the criticism
thread. Eventually, you become so transparent that there is nothing for
the arrows to hit on, they pass right through you harmlessly... then you
can be the Buddha who walks smiling through the battlefield unharmed. Like
Gandhi in prison.
It is Ok to shield, especially at the beginning when you still have so
much stuff to be cleared, and you need shielding to make a sanctuary space
for processing.. but eventually you will have to challenge yourself to stay
wide open and mindful, and clear your own stuff every time you feel
uncomfortable or attacked.
Now for the lesson on Karma Judo:
I have written many times, how it is possible to use empathy to take on
karma from other people and transmute it on their behalf, and then you both
feel better.. but only if they consent to surrender it, otherwise it can
get stuck in you and be messy to clear again.
I have also written about how blame is giving away responsibility,
making someone be God for you, responsible for how you feel.. nobody but
you and your inner Divinity can be responsible for how you feel, that is
the nature of choice and perceptions and free will.
There is an undercurrent in this thread of that... accusations of witch
hunts, victimhood, blame... and it is important to be aware of it, and take
responsibility for your own feelings, even if you are being attacked!
As a side note, there are reasons why the Witch hunts happened as they
did.. the witches at that time had lost some of the purity of surrender to
Divine will, much of their magic was free will based and manipulative. Even
so faithless as to believe that the seasons would not change on time if the
sabbats were not performed.
The Christianity at that time was not so pure either, but it was a
surrender based religion that was stronger than the free will based
religion of the witches. The Witches did not have the Gandhi effect of
surrender to make them bulletproof... they were not secure enough to shrug,
laugh, don't care...
This same dynamic can also be used for something I call "Karma vampire
Judo". You know how Judo works.. someone takes a punch at a judo master,
instead of defending, she will grab the punching arm and pull on it, so the
person swinging will end up flat on their face.
You can do the same thing, on an energy level with blame and attacks. If
someone is blaming you for how they feel, then on a higher level, they are
making you be God for them, and so giving you their Divine power.. Instead
of resisting and defending, grab onto it and pull!
If your Shakti field is stirring up their crap and they are blaming you
for how they feel, then on a higher level of their
unconscious-consciousness, they know you are a more evolved being who can
help them, and they are *giving* you the karma you stirred up. So, you have
their consent to surrender it.
I am not sure if I am explaining this clearly, so feel free to ask
questions. I'll try again with different words.
If someone is attacking you, because of their own fear or karmic issues,
then they are also *giving* you responsibility for it, and responsibility
is power! You can grab onto the thread of the aggressive energy they send,
and pull.. and the whole karmic issue behind their behavior will unravel
from them like a sweater off bugs bunny. It may take you some time spent in
meditation to pull it all out of them and process it within yourself, but
when you have, it will be gone gone.. and anything similar within you will
be gone also. They may come back to you puzzled as to why they responded to
you the way they did, because they cannot even remember why they felt that
way.
To illustrate how this works, here is something I wrote for another
list, of how I used this dynamic to heal my druid's depression.
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At 11:19 PM 5/14/01, you wrote:
>Evolutionary Psychology
>
>by Maia Szalavitz Posted May 11, 2001 · Issue 102
>
>Depression can be adaptive, Price says, when it removes an animal or
>person from a losing situation. By showing signs of submission and
>withdrawal, the animal can avoid the danger of being injured by a
>dominant individual and can wait to fight for resources or mates until
>it has a better chance of winning.<..>
>The idea that depression is anger turned inward also fits with this:
>depressed people often bottle up their anger toward their superiors and
>take it out on themselves, although they may also express more rage and
>hostility toward those below them on the totem pole.
My druid used to suffer from depression. Clinical depression. It
pissed me off one day, and I ate it. It took me about 8 hours. Maybe more.
Depression would come upon him, about one week in five, and whenever
he was beginning to slide into a depressed state, the first thing he would
do is find fault with me and our relationship. It was annoying.
One day about 3 years ago, he sent me an email from work, in the early
afternoon.. criticising this and that, telling me how I had to change..
picking at me. Telling me I spend too much time at my computer, and I need
to get out more, and some other stuff I don't recall. It annoyed me, he is
my slave and it is not for him to tell me what to do. I started to type an
angry response when I realized his post was a gift.
I switched to an attitude of gratitude and receptivity. I latched onto
the thread of emotion he had sent me, and started pulling it all out of
him. I call it Karma Vampire Judo. Someone described Judo to me, as
surrender and redirection. Swing a punch at a Judo Master, sHe will grab
your arm and pull, so you end up flat on your face. Then the Judo Master
will politely give you a hand up and see if your manners have improved. :)
Sometimes I will do the same thing when someone sends me a verbal
punch. Not always, because it is a lot of work and I am a lazy person who
prefers to work with polite people.
By the time druid got home from work, I had been sitting motionless on
the couch for hours, and was at a point of being deeply involved in
processing layers of his rage. I came out of it long enough to snap at him
to "go away" because I wanted him safely away from me so that I did not
vent the emotion back at him. I had never spoken to him like that before,
so he hid himself in his office the rest of the evening. I stayed in the
couch, motionless, pulling.
By midnight, he had already been in bed for 2 hours, asleep. I was
still motionless on the couch, and I had reached a place of beautiful
deep peaceful stillness that was fascinating to me because it was so
foreign to my ADD brain. I was entranced with the beauty of it.
I seemed to have reached the end of the process so I decided to climb
into my druid's bed to reassure him that I was not angry and didn't hate
him. I felt no need for speech so I lay quietly holding him for a while,
enjoying the silence till he spoke... to apologise. I told him there was no
need.
he told me that I was radiating depression so bad he could not sleep
with me there. I understood. I had cleared the depression from the center
but it was still working its way out through my aura. he also told me that
he is afraid of what will happen to me because thinks/thought I am
schizophrenic.
That broke my silence coz I cracked up laughing.
I went back to my computer and looked up treatments for depression and
schizophrenia on the web. His criticisms about me needing to get out more,
were the standard treatment for depression. The care of schizophrenics was
quite different.. to basically humor them and let them follow where ever
their impulses lead them, without interference unless they seem to be
seriously in danger of harming themselves or someone else.
There was also some information about how some people think Kundalini
and Schizophrenia is the same thing. Both involve a damaged ego being
eroded and replaced with a healthy one. <shrug> OK. Whatever.
The next morning after I heard his alarm go off I rejoined him in bed
and told him it is OK with me if he thinks I'm schizophrenic, so long as he
treats me like a Schizophrenic and quits trying to tell me how I need to
behave like someone in treatment for depression. I also told him that I'd
eaten his depression. he did not believe me. I told him Ok, wait and see.
About 8 months later, over dinner one night he suddenly got a
thunderstruck look on his face and realized he had not had a single day of
depression in all that time, since the morning I'd told him I'd eaten it.
he realized I had told the truth, it was gone.. and thanked me. I cried
tears of joy.
Since then.. oh, once in a blue moon he feels sad for a few hours..
pretty much normal human mood swings. The week or months- long bouts with
depression that used to plague him, are gone. Our relationship has grown
into something more beautiful that either of us could have guessed, when
Goddess first gave him to me.
That's all I know about depression. It can be tasty, especially the
quiet bit at the end.
Blessings..
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