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Recieved: 2001/07/22 18:29
Subject: [K-list] Re: Movin' Along. . .
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2001/07/22 18:29, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 07:37 PM 7/20/01, Jason G wrote:
>Hello'ing the list, and all the beautiful people on it.
Jason, you ARE beautiful! The beauty you see is yourself reflected.
Radiant, so full of joy even when you are struggling. You are a delight to
know.
I would like for everyone to welcome Jason to the list. I have observed
his posts do not get much response, probably because he seems to be so self
reliant, and needing nothing... but despite his extraordinary wisdom he is
still a teenager who needs your love and acceptance.
So I thought I would take a moment to introduce him to you all.
I met Jason as a net friend a few months ago, when he wrote me a lovely
letter thanking me for some spiritual information on domin8rex.com, and
seeking guidance in the process of his awakening. We corresponded briefly,
then I discovered that he is legally just a little bit too young to have
been looking at my site in the first place!! uh-oh!
The disadvantage of my image being what it is, is that I feel it is
best to avoid any kind of personal correspondence with minors. The last
thing I need is some irate parents freaking out accusing me of corrupting a
minor or trying to lure him into my cult.. Jason is not the first awakened
teenager to approach me seeking guidance, but he is the first to not be
rejected immediately.
There was nothing sexual or scandalous in our correspondence, but I am
extremely careful. Parental consent is required for spiritual education as
well as sexual. I challenged him to tell his (unawakened) parents all about
me, and get his parents consent before I would accept him as my student.
His parents accepted his interest, with some concerns, but did not wish to
encourage it with permission, or to expressly forbid it. In another year he
will be old enough to make his own decisions, but K. is not waiting.
I feel that I cannot accept him as my student under those conditions,
but neither do I want to turn him away. I know what it is like to be an
awakened teenager with no support for the process, I was one, and it was
very difficult. It is hard enough to go through Kundalini as a mature
adult! I succumbed to peer pressure and ended up in spiritual winter for 5
very long and lonely years.
The obvious solution is for him to participate in this public, all ages
list, where he can receive support for his process from the many wise ones
here, as well as me. Please do give him your love and support.
I have written at different times, about the mass consciousness shift
as an evolutionary process, and about the "Indigo children" who seem to be
the manifestation of spiritually evolving DNA. Jason is a radiant example
of this! He amazes me, and I am utterly charmed by the combination of
teenage awkwardness and radiant pure Shakti that I feel from him. His posts
always make me smile, and his existence gives me faith in the future of
humanity.
Yes Jason, I am very fond of you. :)
>Today - -this week, in fact, I am struggling a bit with my God(dess)
>concept. .*laughs* A small crisis of faith , if you will, that makes
>Surrender quite difficult- -or has, until I started bouncing things off of
>a very wise Pagan friend of mine who made me smile and relax and take a
>breather. . . .
>
>Recently, it seems that I got all wrapped up in the concept of a God(dess)
>figure who thought and helped and taught and existed like I did (only
>wiser *snort *) ;0)- - -and then, when I started trying Mystress' entity
>clearing to search for Her voice within myself- -I began to wonder on the
>WHY and how of it all, and think of proof, and of what Surrender actually
>accomplished within myself, and all that interesting stuff… The Divine was
>within all things, made up all things, and all things were divine- -
>Intellectually, I knew this. But how did it operate in the context of
>Surrender? Why did it do that? DID it really do anything at all?? Or was I
>just messing around with myself? (;0) I'm doing that anyway, *laugh * I'm
>sure- -but I hope you understand what I mean.)
Yup! LOL!! When you do the entity clearing Jason, you are not supposed
to listen to what the entity has to say in response to the questions.
Listening to the answers will only make the voice of doubt that you were
trying to clear, stronger.. You approached the clearing ritual from an
ungrounded place, and got all tangled up in wrestling with the critter
instead of just kicking its ass. The more attention you gave to it, the
stronger it became. You ended up getting pulled out of the Now trying to
answer it's questions, instead of the other way around.
>Seeing as surrender is based on faith- -and I was certainly questioning
>that- - I was rather negating it all, even as I was breaking a sweat
>trying to work Through the block on my own (for why should any God or
>Goddess help me there?! And what was Goddess anyways?? Why did it
>sometimes seem to work, and sometimes not?? Why did I keep fooling myself
>into things that didn't show results??).
Hilarious! Trying to *make* it work, is not surrender, it is ego's
effort to control.
>It all just kinda popped up, suddenly, as the result of questions that
>I've been asking all along; but I Wanted to continue surrendering- - I
>just couldn't mentally work my way past all of this….. It stopped making
>sense, and I boxed myself in.
yup.
>Faith is trouble to one who enjoys the workings of repeatable phenomena
>(such as energy work . .;0) ) that prove themselves without the need for
>such an amount of Faith. I've always been wary of blind faith, even though
>I'm usualy eager to Try it out, because of my wish to find a truth that
>really Does work and resonate against me- -even if I am skeptical of it to
>begin with. One that opens me up and shines brighter than the sun within
>me- -beyond skeptisism and doubt. .
:) I have wanted to post this great quote from the Hitch hikers guide
to the Galaxy.. partly because it is such a great quote, and partly in
honor of the author, Douglas Adams, who died recently.
<<<
Arthur: What's this fish doing in my ear?
Ford: Translating for you. Look under Babel fish in the book.
Book: The babel fish is small, yellow, leechlike and probably the oddest
thing in the Universe. It feeds on brainwave energy, absorbing all
unconscious frequencies and then excreting telepathically a matrix formed
from the conscious frequencies and nerve signals picked up from the speech
centers of the brain; the practical upshot of which is that if you stick
one in your ear you can instantly understand anything said to you in any
form of language-the speech you hear decodes the brainwave matrix. Now it
is such a bizarrely improbably coincidence that anything so mindbogglingly
useful could evolve purely by chance that some thinkers have chosen to see
it as a final clinching proof of the non-existence of God.
The argument goes something like this:
"I refuse to prove that I exist" says God, "for proof denies faith and
without faith I am nothing". "But," says man "the babel fish is a dead
giveaway, isn't it? It proves that you exist, and so therefore you don't.
QED." "Oh dear," says God, "I hadn't thought of that" and promptly vanishes
in a puff of logic. "Oh, that was easy" says man, and goes on to prove that
black is white and gets killed on the next zebra crossing.
Most leading theologians claim that this argument is a load of dingo's
kidneys, but that did not stop Oolon Colluphid making a small fortune when
he used it as the central theme of his best selling book 'Well, that about
wraps it up for God.'
Meanwhile, the poor babel fish, by effectively removing all barriers to
communication between different cultures and races, has caused more and
bloodier wars than anything else in the history of creation.">>>
Well, that about wraps it up for faith and logic..:)
>And that's what started the boulder rolling. It seems that I was trying
>too hard to let go of everything that troubled me (irresponsible?) and be
>filled by some humanized Goddess figure that somehow existed Within me and
>outside of me (All that IS and all that Is Not)- - -all at once. I forgot
>that none of this stuff happens over night.
:) Nope. Takes time.. and a good thing, too! The Divine Beloved is
Goddess taking a form that you can love, to have a personal relationship
with you and be your teacher.. but that Infinite is still formless, All.
Eventually you have to surrender the form and unify, Be that and human too.
>I forget that it's already working. I forget often.
giggle.. guess what. me too!! :)
>And I was forgetting just to Be.
yup. I do too..if I remembered all the time, I could not be a teacher.
>I forgot that my heart would lead me in it's time. I also forgot an
>analogy I once heard * wink*, of Faith as a muscle that needs to be worked. ;0)
LOL.. wonder where you heard that line? ;)
>Conclusion?? Stop trying so hard, and just let things go. The letting go
>is the surrender, and your heart will guide me on my way, as long as I
>stay relaxed and open enough to listen… Just let things unfold….and
>perhaps my faith will unfold again With it all.
>
>… More words dance on the tip of my tongue, but I think that just now, I
>would very much like to be silent, and hear what any or all of you have to
>say about this. . .:0)
and everyone else became silent, too.. you solved it so well yourself,
you do not appear to need a response..
>Advice, criticisms, help and hope and trail-songs from those who have
>already walked here?? It feels well trodden, this road, and yet uniquely
>my own…. :0)
yes.. exactly so..
I don't teach you so much, as simply give you validation to help you
build confidence in that faith-muscle.
>I feel that I'm starting a circle at the same time I'm standing in one- -
>a point in a ring with no beginning and no end. .*laughs* Eventually I'll
>realize that I don't have to be confined to my one little point, and can
>loop my way around and Be the circle. .
Oroborus..
>Aspiring to so so so many dreams that scorch my soul and wish for
>a Miracle of rememberance.... I 'remember' so many things, but can't
>access them- - can't draw them forth into the light. . .and the light is
>biding it's own time. .*smiles* I'll have to put up with
>that. *Lol* :0) I'm Crazy. . I'm also silly. . . and I really thank
>you all for putting up with my Trying to be honest with myself, among
>other things. . *sighs*
Yes, you are crazy and silly and so utterly charming in your honest,
unmanipulative humility and freshness that putting up with you is a sweet
pleasure.
>Eghahds, the Poetry really wants to spill out…. ;0) I wish I could TALK to
>you people, sometimes….
You have...:)
Blessings..
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