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Recieved: 2001/07/22 14:04
Subject: Re: [K-list] Mother's Death
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2001/07/22 14:04, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
Hello, Sherry:
I don't think any thing anyone can say, can make this process of
coming to terms with your mothers death, any easier. Words are so
inadequate, I think that is why few responded to your post.. the love was
sent wordless.
Death of the Mother is a big deal for the daughter, much more so than
other passages and transitions. It is never easy to come to terms with
death, especially when it is sudden and unexpected, but the process a
daughter goes through with the death of her Mother, is archetypal and profound.
We the women form the unbroken chain, mothers and daughters and
daughters becoming mothers in their turn, on and on down through the
millennia. When the mother dies, it marks a passing of the torch to the
next generation. The daughter goes through a passage that is not unlike
adolescence, when the maiden becomes the woman. When the mother-crone dies,
her wisdom and power passes to you, the new matriarch to carry on into the
future.
It is big, Sherry. Big big big, and don't beat yourself up and think
you are less spiritual because the transition is hard. Of course it is..
and the harshness of it is part of the price of the eventual growth. I know
you would prefer to have your mother back and not be growing.. that is a
natural reaction, and it will pass, as time heals. The letter falling from
the book is a true message. She is not gone, she has only made a transition
to a different state of being.
When your grief is passed and you come back into balance, you will be
able to speak with her again and feel her love. Then, perhaps she will be
able to tell you why things had to be the way they occurred. Perhaps not..
it may be you will not know the reasons until your own time of passage from
this earth, when you join her on that plane. Make peace with it. Give
yourself time to heal.
We may never know the reasons why things happen as we do.. we simply
trust that there is a reason. We can play the game of doubt and regrets,
the "What if.. then" game.. but whom does it serve? We must eventually come
to terms with what Is, or we cannot find peace.
Grief is a process, it has marked, measurable stages and if we try to
hurry through the process we only repress it. It cannot be healed that way.
All the great sages are seen to experience grief.. Jesus wept at the
passing of Lazarus, before he brought him back to life. It is natural to
grieve when a lovely thing dies. That is part of loving. By your grief you
honor your mother, and yourself and the love you shared.
I am moved to tell you, that several times I have been called to channel
dead mothers, for the sake of their children. It is not something I can do
at will, it comes of the synchronicity of time and mothers choice. It is
always so beautiful.. the mothers love.
I will tell you a story, of doing some magical experiments with a
friend. We found the room to be cold.. the sign of the presence of an
emotional ghost. My friend said that perhaps it was his mother, who had
passed on five years before. It was.. I felt that his mother was someone I
could trust, so I opened myself to her, asking what it was that she sought.
Immediately possessed, I flew across the room and found myself hugging
him and crying on his shoulder, telling him I loved him. He was English,
very reserved and startled by this sudden intimacy. By the time he
recovered himself, she was gone and I was coming back to myself, letting go
of him and drying the sudden tears that were not my own. He wished for me
to call her back, there were so many questions he had to ask.. but I could
not. She had come into me for her own purpose, and her purpose was fulfilled.
He told me a story of the night she died.. three times in the middle of
the night he felt the impulse to go to his mothers room and hug her
goodnight.. but being english and from a family that did not do hugging, he
was shy and told himself he would wait until morning. By morning, it was
too late.. she was gone.
Tears come to my eyes in the retelling of the story.. it is so
beautiful. The impulse to go into her room that night had come from her
wish. Her calling to him. She had wanted so badly to hug her child goodbye
and tell him she loved him before she died. Her spirit waited five years,
and with the opportunity I offered, to use my arms and voice she leapt to
express her love. I still don't know how my body moved across the room so
quickly! Then she departed, her need fulfilled.
Another time, I was working with a woman whose mother had died when she
was five, complications from a head injury after a car accident. The woman
was haunted by her last memory of her mother, looking tired bruised, and
with a bandaged head waving her daughter off to school. When she came home
from school her mother was dead, and all she was left with was that memory,
and a child's rage at not understanding, "Why did you leave me?"
When the mother came into me, it was with tears to say, "child I never
left you, I will never leave you. I have always been here right beside you,
watching over you.Sharing in your life. I am so proud of you!" The woman
was given a vision of her mother, smiling and happy and so full of love,
that wiped away the harsh memory of the last time she had seen her in the
flesh. She gained a new spiritual connection to her mother, the feeling of
her presence, and able to talk to her... and so she made peace with being
orphaned so young.
In the physical, all things must pass.. your grief too, will pass.. but
love transcends flesh, time and space. A mothers love is a precious miracle.
Blessings..
At 06:06 PM 7/19/01, SherriknobATnospamaol.com wrote:
>Hi all,
>I am having a hard time understanding my Mom's sudden death. My Dad just
>retired, they just remodeled the house and have money to travel. She was so
>happy and still young. She was very open minded and new age philosophy. She
>was great. I was missing her and picked up a book I had grabbed from home.
>A letter fell out from her to me ( there were 5 kids in my family so what are
>the chances?) I felt like she was saying "hey, I am still here but in a
>different vibration! The world would have been much better if she had
>lived...... I just don't get it.......
> Sherri
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