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Recieved: 2001/07/16 04:57
Subject: Re: [K-list] Surrender
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2001/07/16 04:57, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 04:20 PM 7/15/01, tracymATnospampipeline.com wrote:
>Maybe "surrender" isn't really the right word for it........is it really
>more about.......joining? Or maybe it's a combination of that and
>removing one's own obstacles , the better to do the first.
>
>Anyone care to expand?
>
>Tracy
When I first got the imperative to surrender, I struggled with it. I
was told that surrender is not submission, which was a relief to a dominant
personality..
I actually got out the dictionary, looked up surrender and submission
and wrote out all the definitions longhand, pen and paper to compare and
study. Submission is associated with humiliation.. and being humiliated is
not the same as having humility, though one may lead to the other.
At last, I found a definition of surrender that was resonant to me. It
is how surrender is used in real estate legalese. When one part of a large
estate that has been leased out is returned to the main part of the estate.
When the smaller part that has been temporarily under separate ownership is
given back to the whole.
That made sense to me.. my ego had a lease on life, separation from the
whole and illusions of ownership. Its lease was up. Time to surrender. End
the separation and rejoin the All.
Quite simply though, surrender means give up. You cannot fight with
Kundalini and win. Infinite wisdom will always outsmart you. Infinite
patience will outlast you. :) You can struggle and resist till K. beats you
into submission, or you can surrender with grace, and avoid the bruises.
If you can't beat it, join it!
I compare the K. process to having someone help you clean a closet. One
by one things are dug out, and Goddess shows them to you and says "Do you
still want to hang onto this, or can I have it?" The correct answer is
"Goddess please take it, it is a gift for you. Thank you very much." Then
breathe a sign of release, and let it go.
If you are meant to have it, you will get it back as a gift returned,
only it will be cleaned and polished, repaired and reworked into something
useful and lovely.
That is passive surrender.. there is also active surrender, which is
surrendering to the actions that intuition prompts. Often they go
together.. first, surrender what your ego wants, as many times as you need
to, to find peaceful stillness. Then out of that stillness will come an
impulse to action that is unreasonable.. meaning, that it is not motivated
by reasons, excuses or rationalizations. Not acting on the carefully
thought out, reasonable solution, but the one that comes of pure
inspiration, and makes you vibrate with joy.
The part of you that is infinite wisdom, power and creativity can
always find a better path than the smaller part could ever be capable of
coming up with. It is really only logical to let the smarter part of your
being make the decisions. The part that is infinitely wise and loving,
outside of time's linear constructs.
Who you really are, is not the thoughts you think.. you are the silence
between the thoughts, the empty stage where the play of consciousness takes
place.
Blessings..
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