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Recieved: 2001/07/10 13:14
Subject: Re: [K-list] Dissatisfaction with life
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2001/07/10 13:14, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 05:51 AM 7/10/01, User Friendly wrote:
>My whole life there seems to be something
>missing. I can never put my finger on it,
>whether it be lack of understanding, which
>we all seek and never fully acheive, or
>lack of truth, which I think we all deal
>with also. At least I do. After much
>thinking and many revalations I find myself
>wiser but still unsatisfied.
Hmm.. there is an expression, "What you focus on, will grow." Do you
want to focus on your dissatisfaction, or might it serve you better to put
your energy into the things you enjoy.. the things that do satisfy you.
On the other hand, the state of mind that you describe is how most of
the folks who come to me to be awakened feel. They are singing the song "Is
that all there is?" and Goddess shows up to open them to knowing there is
More.
> I feel more and
>more every day that I am wasting my time
>with mundane day to day activities. That
>everything is trivial and a "game".
Well, most of the spiritual texts say something similar.. that life is
illusion. Yet.. the great sages speak of seeing perfection in the illusion,
they are not dissatisfied.
Please consider whether your very dissatisfaction is also a trivial game
that your ego plays to feel superior, important or cool. You know, that
thing of insecure teenagers and jaded rock stars, where admitting interest
in something would not be so cool as an affectation of being jaded, too
worldly for the world. Pushing things down to raise yourself up. Perhaps I
do not express it very well, but I think you know what I mean, I think..
too cool to live. Makes me think of that silly pop song by Right Said Fred,
"I'm too sexy".
<<< I'm too sexy for my shirt too sexy for my shirt
So sexy it hurts
And I'm too sexy for Milan too sexy for Milan
New York and Japan
And I'm too sexy for your party
Too sexy for your party
No way I'm disco dancing
I'm too sexy for my car too sexy for my car
Too sexy by far
And I'm too sexy for my hat
Too sexy for my hat what do you think about that
I'm too sexy for my too sexy for my too sexy for my >>>
So the world is a trivial game, you are too important or special for that?
I do not mean to be unkind.. well, maybe I do, I am a sadist after all..
but I am trying to help.. and it seems the opposite to the pop song is
another quote:
"Are you bored with life? Then throw yourself into some work you believe in
with all your heart, live for it, die for it, and you will find happiness
that you had thought could never be yours."
Dale Carnegie.
Sage advice for the jaded, I think.. what in the world is not trivial to
you? Focus on that. There must be something you have passion for.. and if
you wholly involve yourself in that passion, you will feel too full to be
dissatisfied.
Really.. What is stopping you? Examine your passions.. and your fear.
>Such as
>in a conversation with a friend discussing
>the limitations of language to communicate
>emotions,
Of course language is inadequate to communicate emotions.. except for
the occasional bit of good poetry. So what? Emotions communicate
emotions. Music communicates emotions. Empathy communicates emotions. It
ain't broke, except in your perceptions. Why focus on the inadequacies when
you can be filled by the essence? Why complain that a feather cannot pound
nails when a hammer is close at hand?
>it occured to me that every day I
>am placing myself in this "game" people are
>living in. And that's the problem. So many
>people are living in the game of life that
>they fail to see what life is. And maybe
>that's what's bothering me... I don't know.
You are funny. Yes, you chose to be born and place yourself into the
game, just like we all did. There is no problem except that you go looking
for problems and projecting an attitude of dissatisfaction with perfection
of your birth. Who is it that fails to see what life is? You? Could be! :)
So, life is a game? So what? You can sit on the sidelines like a
wallflower at the dance, playing the fox with sour grapes and judging the
dancers, or you can throw yourself into the game and play it for all it is
worth. The choice is yours.
"Dance like there is nobody watching and love like your heart can never
be broken"
Bravery, my friend. The courage of passion. Playing full out, no
holding back. If life is only a game, what do you have to lose?
>Never had a list to share these things with.
:) Welcome to the list! Thank you for sharing yourself and your feelings!
I do not judge them, but you do, and you express the unhappiness that
comes as a result of your judgments.. so, I offer you another perspective.
>Does anyone else have feelings like this?
Of course! Everyone does! That's part of the game!
Recently I lost a project that I had invested years in. Gave it up to
Goddess as I had so many times before, but this time She took it and did
not give it back. At first I was relieved, ad felt free... then I started
to miss the attachment, and spent about a week feeling like I was on the
wrong planet or something, wondering what error I had done to have the gift
of the vision taken away. LOL! Like a lion set free, missing the old
familiar cage!
The more I focused on feelings of wrongness, the more dissatisfied I
became.. fortunately, some friends from this list, whom I wrote to off-list
gave me the insights I needed to give my head a shake and go back to
looking for perfection. Apply gratitude till the silver linings showed up
all polished and bright. Now here I am, investing in my passion, which is
caring for this list, among other things.. and feeling too full to want to
return to discontent.
We all go through it.. the question is, why do you choose to stay
attached to it? You do have other options...
Blessings!
>----Nick
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