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Recieved: 2001/06/13 21:59
Subject: [K-list] Stupid love stuff and ride the Snake slide
From: Denise Lyon Anding
On 2001/06/13 21:59, Denise Lyon Anding posted thus to the K-list:
Benoit,
Welcome to the wonderful world of the heart chakra. It ain't easy.
Everyone can "ride the Snake slide" up to levels unknown. The Snake takes us up to get a taste of great things.
Bliss is a great state to find a welcome rest. But you don't get to stay there long if The Snake has plans.
Guess what? Kundalini has a mind of its own. And if it feels you are not done with something it will take you on a ride "down" to the level where you still have blockages to clear. There is no place to run, no place to hide. Cooperation as much as possible makes the ride easier.
Resistance is the mark of too much ego. If you are serious about dissolving your ego, then cooperate with The Snake. The Snake is relentless and you might as well yell, "OK! I give up! I will do it now!"
Do you think you are the first person to have such dark and angry thoughts? Not so. And you won't be the last. This is part of the process to clear this level. It is normal.
The word "love" is your sore spot. When people worked with me on this heart level I didn't believe them either. My words to them and their sincerity was much harsher than yours. Like, "How can you understand my pain? You haven't experienced what I have! You don't know what you are talking about! It is all a lie, all this stupid love stuff! It doesn't really exist! You are all a bunch of fools! You idiots!" Add some choice adjectives... I was fortunate that they hung in there with me, knowing what it would take to teach me how to clear myself. Quality people do exist.
You can do two things. Like one person on this list was told, "That Kundalini stuff is too much trouble. Do yourself a favor. Put it back to sleep."
Or, you can use your will to help yourself in this turmoil. Use your will to grab a hold of all those streaming thoughts that just don't stop coming at an alarming rate, organize them, and box them up. Use your analytical self and examine them thoroughly, both the angry thoughts, any memories that come up for viewing, and all the swirling intense unbearable emotions that go with it. When The Snake gives you the awareness, whatever it is, act on it. Keep repeating the process. It will die down and give you a breather (breathing space to calm down). If you are lucky, The Snake may leave you alone for several months. Another Snake ride will come.
But if you are not clear, and you usually are not in one session, the Snake will return to dig up all these emotions, over and over again, biting you like torture until you do something about it. Learn to take an observer's approach to your own self, not just in the usual meditation, but especially during these wild ride moments. That is how you battle your way through this. It is also how you begin the process of dissolving the ego (being an observer at all times).
The more you resist because of ego, the more The Snake bites you until you look like a ridiculous pin cushion. The Snake will not turn you loose. You have two choices. Either tell it to go back to sleep and you will try this again in some other lifetime OR cooperate with it.
The whole point of clearing any level is that so your perception is not cloudy on those upper levels. You think you see good stuff now? Wait until you finally clear this heart chakra in particular. Those higher levels will open up possibilities you never even thought about. It is worth the effort. And after you have finished, you will look back and see just how simple it would have been had you kicked your bloated ego out of the way in the first place.
When Angelique comes back from holiday, why not pay her a visit? She is most knowledgeable and can help you.
From the "sore" spot,
Denise
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