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Recieved: 2001/05/15 09:25
Subject: Re: [K-list] big butts ..
From: Susan
On 2001/05/15 09:25, Susan posted thus to the K-list:
on 5/13/01 12:52 AM, Pepper J. Baxter at
"pjdaveybaxterATnospamnctimes.net"ATnospamnctimes.net wrote:
> What is spiraling counter clock wise, and how do you do this.
Hi Pepper - Sorry to take so long to respond. I can only answer from my
personal experience, but when I "changed", it was like a sense of inner
spiralling was with me constantly. I "felt" counter-clockwise spiralling,
swirling sensations. When I got still and focused on the feeling, I'd get
little shivers, and full-body goosebumps. I still perceive these spirals
now, but not as intense.
> Before you
> changed
> did you feel bogged down in negativity, or were you in a more perfect frame of
> mind.
Well - I think in retrospect I was pretty negative, but not aware of it
then. Just seemed like a normal state. Used to be a lot more stressed much
of the time.
>How did you come to the conclusion that you are perfect and whole in
> body,
> mind and soul?
I was reading a lot before my "change". Books that turned out to be very
precious to me appeared in the most unexpected ways. Synchronistic things
prompted my experiences...
One of my key books was "The Nature of Personal Reality" a Seth book, author
Jane Roberts. Which also relates to Sherri's letter about creating your own
reality. I read this book in the summer, and my major k stuff happened in
August, like Mystress said was true of her. I start to feel it in the
spring, and it peaks for me in August. For me, I've found that every 7th
year seems to be a doozy! (42 was my biggie)
How do you get into that position of a mind set? Did you insist
> on being perfect or good and full of integrity etc.? What triggered your
> results
> in this manner? I have so many questions. Does there seem to be certain rules
> to
> live by in order for it to happen.
No - I did _not_ make an effort, did not insist, and did not follow any
rules. For me, I feel this would have been the antithesis of any expansion
trigger. Rather, I let go. I also think I accepted ideas that came to me
with a knowing vs. just intellectual understanding. I internalized stuff.
I do think I fueled it all with desire, though. E-motions do fuel events,
don't you think? :-)
> I had your experience up to a near completion level and lost it before it took
> because of a change in attitude because of a man who "did me wrong" and whom I
> loved very much. I always thought secretly that that had been my last chance.
> And still I keep trying to get it back. Was I wrong? Can I have it still at
> age
> 67 come Nov.? I used to look 20 years younger than I was year after year up
> until my little brother died and the shock of it was tremendous. Pepper
Pepper - (and Sherri) - re fear - when you truly KNOW and accept that
you/we/ATI is eternal, and that ATI is perfect, and you are ATI (All That
Is, Goddess/God, whatever), the fear-blocks just kind of go away and this
huge energy channel just flows, I think. And it's always there and
everywhere. Never too late. :-) How can an eternal being have any fear
when everything is right and perfect? (EIDER is what one of my teachers
that appeared taught me. Everything I do is Right)
It was like a "WOW" punch-in-the-head for me, when I realized this, and it
took me to the next level at that time.
we are stardust...we are golden
Susan
>
> Susan wrote:
>
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