To: K-list
Recieved: 2001/05/11 21:26
Subject: Re: [K-list] empaths
From: Kimberly Burlison
On 2001/05/11 21:26, Kimberly Burlison posted thus to the K-list:
>Why does everyone here want to be assimulated???????
Assimilated? As in the surrender talk is a bit upsetting to you? I can understand it; I remember feeling the same way. There was a lot of me, me, me at that time. To be honest, there still is. ;) I'm just not a worry wort trying to control something I know nothing about. I remember trying to control the K energy...it's rather like putting a 3 year old in charge of the US' nuclear arsenal.
> I dont get this... shit
>man my thoughts are my own....
If they are your own, are they original? Are you the first person to ever think what you think? If not, they are not your own, and they are still coming from a trickle from the collective consciousness. I don't personally think an original thought has ever existed. There is nothing there we are not pre-wired or install aftermarket that didn't already exist. I'm not convinced there are anymore new combinations anymore, either. (I got a huge kick out of CW's computer post simply because before this list, and still to offline friends I have a huge analogy built up based on computers that can link up and make sense out of a lot of spiritual happenings. It didn't make sense when it started coming to me. I literally laughed myself out of my head. Now in my circle of friends (who are mostly computer geeks) if/when they start waking up it is simple to relate to them without freaking them out. The language is already there.) I am not trying to be argumentative, I promise. :)
>my body is my own..... i have been tapped
>into this collective consiousness and i dont like it!!!!!!!!
>i have been ascended and drunk on divine bliss...... and you know what.. all
>i wanted to do was sit around not thinking not eating not doing..... not a
thing!!!!!
The not eating part can be wonderful if you have a large butt like me. ;) But even at my smallest, it was still there. I love it. :) I am still trying to get used to the quietness that has fallen over me in the past months. I used to belong to all these lists and type for hours. Now it is work to get this much out, because my mind is constantly elsewhere and I'm having to rope it back on topic and my attention back to the computer. You know those awful animated "under construction" gifs you see everywhere on the internet? I feel like I have one permanently hardwired into my grey matter...lol. I have things that keep me busy...I have an iguana named Pandora that absorbs as much of my attention and time as possible. If you know someone who owns a reptile, they are hard but fun work. Iguanas will turn you into a worry wort, though, with their special dietary balance. I found myself blessing her food when I forget to bless my own. I guess it's that built-in confidence that I'm taken care of...
> it was awful!!!! shit all i want to do be is be normal!!!
Missy I love getting your posts because they remind me of me a while back. I am not sure of whether that is considered cruel or not...but it draws my attention.
> i dont
>want to be a battery. nor do i want to use anyone else as a battery.... i
>just want to go home. wherever home is!
I used to lie on my own bed, in my own house as a little girl crying my eyes out begging to let me go home...now, whenever is whenever, but I will enjoy it when it comes. How to know pleasure without pain? Perhaps the most powerful draw for why I'm here again. I never have been much for finding constellations, my hubby is big on them. I've always stopped him from pointing things out, because I've never seen a single one, not even when they "connect the dots" on tv. I just got frustrated. Anyways, when I was a little girl, I would find the same stars when I would start crying for home. Last night I got the nerve to actually go through the heck of "no, THOSE over THERE!" with my husband (patience is not a virtue in this version of Kimberly, but is hopeful for the release) and found out the stars are the ones on Orion's belt...hmm...dunno. *shrugs* Little puzzle pieces going snap, snap, snap.
>be it earth be it heaven..... personally i liked it best in the elition
>fields with my mother... my real mother not the goofy B*tch who birthed me
>here...
>missy
;) I think it takes a goofy B*tch to put up with people like us as children. :) My mom and I are now on speaking terms about the whole spirituality deal. Turns out we have a lot more in common than we thought. She's still as manipulative as ever, but isn't that what unconditional love is about? Loving them how they are and covering your ass? ;)
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