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Recieved: 2001/05/04 19:22
Subject: Re: [K-list] My story
From: Pepper J. Baxter
On 2001/05/04 19:22, Pepper J. Baxter posted thus to the K-list:
Hi Mystress, Thanks for this validation. It is really appriciated you know. / When
I read your last insert the tears of overwhelming joy nearly flew out of my eyes.
Alas, I still am holding back. Darnit anyhow. Why am I so afraid to allow myself
to cry with joy. Why do I have to control the flow of tears at bay by constantly
keeping my finger in the dike? I can't figure it out! Would you happen to
understand this about this kind of person? PJB
Mystress Angelique Serpent wrote:
> At 04:16 PM 4/28/01, Pepper J. Baxter wrote:
> >Hi, Even when K. isn't active you should be able to still activate healing
> >etc. unless your belief system is limiting you to that idea.
>
> yep.
>
> > Not by your
> >will, but by "Thy Will" be done if we open an inner door and allow our God
> >energy to perform for us. I am beginning to understand, though I haven't
> >quite got a real handle on it yet, that when we really begin to see that we
> >are only a cartoon caricature of the real SELF residing inside of us as if in
> >cognito, or at the controls of a skin/bone/hank of hair robot,... then we
> >know the "WHO" that is really "The One" in control.
>
> This is Grace.
>
> >I woke up this morning and did a "day off" sort of snooz-in. I intend to do
> >this more often for the messages I received were such appetizing food for
> >thought!
>
> :) Yes, I love that "Twilight zone" time, half awake, half asleep.. in
> the hypnotic state, the conscious and unconscious can chat.
>
> >The dream is telling me I'm about to have my Lower/Higher selves merge as
> >like in marriage but that I have to gain enough understanding to actually
> >trigger this merging myself. I have to totally understand this whole concept
> >more than just intellectually. It is what we refer to as God Energy etc. who
> >is looking out at the world through your eye sockets. "Whoa! There's me as a
> >tree growing fruit within a minute, and a cute puppy levitating, and a
> >swimming pool where you can breath under water." "Hey, turn ME lose so I can
> >do MY stuff." It is your physical eye balls that see the world with such
> >limitations as not being able to breath under water etc.while the God self
> >sees the limitless through non- physical inner eyes.
>
> that is a beautiful way of putting it, Pepper!
>
> >How soon will be up to
> >me, and my unlocking that inner door, and knocking to release that higher
> >power. It has been too awesome to let loose my lock as I have been afraid I
> >could not control It's awesome power. Ha! I am thinking now that it is not up
> >to me to make myself responsible to be in control of that power. It is up to
> >me to step aside and let this inner power release It's blessings into my life
>
> Exactly so! The imperative of Kundalini, is Surrender.
>
> > Then I saw the shelf fastly wearing down and my set
> >of dentures sliding off and always slipping as my real gums continued to
> >diminish before my very eyes. I got from those symbols that my secure set of
> >beliefs about the physical/material world were about to wear away and crumble
> >leaving me unstable for the moment until the new set of teeth (new belief
> >system) inserts itself.
>
> Yes.. :)
>
> > I know it will because I had no signs of fear or
> >panic in the dream as at some other times in life in other areas of work
> >needing done on the inner planes.
> >I feel at times that anything I have to say is probably absurd, boring and
> >stupid after I have the nerve to hit that button and send. I always seem to
> >feel at that minute I finally push, "jeeze, maybe I shouldn't have sent
> >that." "Nothing ventured, nothing gained. PJB or Pepper
>
> I am glad of your postings.. I like your style.
> Blessings!
>
> Surrender your eyes; they see only what thou wilt!
> Surrender your heart; it feels only what thou wilt!
> Surrender your will; and it shall lead you to ME!
> I will not be named - to do so is to denigrate ME; I am ineffable!
> I will not be defined - to do so is to limit ME; I am limitless!
> It is not without reason that this is the hardest thing you will ever do.
> Come to ME!
>
>
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