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Subject: [K-list] Fire Serpent Tantra, Lesson #43. The road to hell is paved with good intentions.
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2001/04/27 07:42, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
Fire Serpent Tantra, Lesson #43.
The road to hell is paved with good intentions.
Copyright by Mystress Angelique Serpent.
Quotes:
The road to hell is paved with good intentions.
Karl Marx , Samuel Johnson,
A Native American elder once described his own inner struggles in this manner:
"Inside of me there are two dogs. One of the dogs is mean and evil. The
other dog is good. The mean dog fights the good dog all the time."
When asked which dog wins, he reflected for a moment and replied, "The one
I feed the most.
Unknown.
"From the spiritual point of view, the only important thing is to realize
Divine Life and to help others realize it by manifesting it in everyday
happenings. To penetrate into the essence of all being and significance and
to release the fragrance of that inner attainment for the guidance and
benefit of others -- by expressing, in the world of forms, truth, love,
purity, and beauty -- this is the sole game that has intrinsic and absolute
worth. All other happenings, incidents, and attainments in themselves can
have no lasting importance."
Meher Baba, Discourses
Essay Lesson:
In the world of ego-based Magic, where Chi must be directed by power of
Free Will, there is a law "For the good of all and harm to none", to make
sure that intentions are good when doing magic. In that world, it is
important and it works.
In the surrender based world of Kundalini, the part of your mind that
judges good and bad is your ego.. and you are trying to give your Free will
up to Goddess.. So intentions are usually ego resistance in disguise, and
it pays to be suspicious of what your ego is up to. If you are patting
yourself on the back about your "good intentions", you are setting yourself
up to get a spanking from Goddess.
I realize that may seem confusing, because you are accustomed to thinking
about your actions and making well thought out choices. But, the part of
your mind that needs to think to know what to do, is not smart enough to
make your decisions.
Good intentions and judgments are all about thinking. Stop thinking with
your mind and focus on your body. Follow your bliss. If an idea gives you
goosebumps, makes your panties wet and your heart explode with joy, chase it.
The Cosmic truth is that Goddess is All that Is.
Most people are convinced of their helplessness. If they convince you of it
too, then you lose yourself because you have fallen into their beliefs.
Moved into their world, their reality. Bought their victim soap and come
down to that level below the heart where they live, where there are winners
and losers and victims and evil.
You fall from Grace. Lose touch with your own Divinity and lose your
healing magic, your ability to help them see past their limiting beliefs..
and you have also just become God for them. Responsible for their problems
and how they feel. Their karma flows to you. You cannot help them, from
there.. that's why you have to maintain detachment.
Road to Hell is paved with Good intentions.. if you are trying to figger
out whether your intentions are good or bad, then you have fallen from
grace. Good or bad is a judgment. If you are judging then you are not in
the heart. To get back into the heart, you have to get out of where you are
now, and it is easiest to do that by balancing the polarities.
Look for the Road to Hell in all of your Good intentions. The fear behind
your apparently loving motives. When you see it, you will laugh at
yourself, and be free. If it's not funny, then exaggerate it and make it
bigger until it is absurd. Laughter heals.
I call doing this, "looking in the ugly mirror". It can be painful but not
doing it is more painful in the long term because the longer you postpone
looking, the further you go down that Road to Hell.
I imagine the ugly mirror like a warped funhouse mirror that shows you your
ugliness. Where your karma is hidden. The mirror will glady show all your
hidden fears and judgments so you have a chance to love them into light.
All the things you think you are not so you can love them into unity.
Get very selfish about following your bliss. Bliss is a navigation system
that is Goddess' carrot to lead you to where you need to be. Following
bliss with perfect selfishness will keep you away from the road of "good
intentions" and steady on the path of grace.
To find out if your motives really are good, look for your selfishness.
That may sound weird in a lower chakra universe, but in a higher Chakra
universe there is nobody but you, You are All that Is so selfishness makes
perfect sense and any "good intentions" otherwise will knock you back into
separation.
Follow your own bliss and make yourself happy. If you are happy then your
whole world cheers up because it is all reflection of you. That is Grace.
Selfishness does not mean being greedy or misery.. both of those emotions
belong to the lower chakras where there is fear of scarcity. Lack of faith
in abundance. From a state of Grace kindness and compassion are automatic
and effortless. It feels good to do it.
Video transcript:
Sometimes I express things in cliches. I hope you're not getting tired of
them yet. I'm gonna go expound on another one now. I want to explore the
idea of that old expression, "The road to hell is paved with good
intentions." It's a very true expression, and it's one that you can almost
use as a rule to really keep an eye yourself, because sometimes this
intention is really true.
A part of this idea is what I call "the ugly mirror". I've spoken a little
bit before about the idea of "Mirror of All-That-Is": that everything you
see is yourself reflected back. But I also want to go a little bit further
into the idea of the Zen polarities. Everything has an opposite side. Every
light carries a shadow, and so on. And "The road to hell is paved with good
intentions," really talks about that.
Now, how I want to apply this is for you to realize that quite often what
look on the surface to be very beautiful good intentions, if you look
deeper in them, if you look into "the ugly-mirror" of "where is the fear
here?", that's what you find. You find that they are fear-based motives.
And it's really the fear-based motives underneath that often create the
results, not the good intentions that is the little social mask they're
wearing. It's something to watch out for.
I'll give an example. Say, a mother who is very over-protective of her
children. She's got a good intention of keeping them safe, protecting them
and so on. But if you look at that more closely, it means that the children
are not having the experiences that they need to really mature into adults.
What that may mean, is in fact that as soon as they're no longer under
mother's thumb, as soon as they become adults, they're gonna go right out
and do all of the things that they were forbidden to do before.
It's like the expression, "The biggest sluts are all Catholic girls." Well
no, they're not necessarily... but the good intentions of wanting to
repress them like that; what you resist persists, and what is repressed
sometimes really springs up ugly..
The good intention and the ugly-mirror; the result of the fear that tries
to protect these girls. When they go against that, when the other part of
it comes up, it turns out exactly the opposite. They're actually much less
safe because they've been repressed for so long, and then when they're no
longer repressed, they spring up even louder and even brighter, and all
that kind of thing. They haven't learned.
So whenever you get a good intention, you get a really good idea, and
especially if you want to save somebody or protect somebody, think about
that. Think about "the ugly-mirror" of your good intentions, and look for
the fear-based motive behind it. What are you afraid of?
As soon as you look at that, you're gonna get a lot more information about
why you're really doing what you're doing. And this is important, because
the good intentions can really carry you off sometimes... and they really
can be a road to hell, not just for you, but also for the people that
you're putting them on.
Quite often a good intention is about what somebody else needs. And if
you're not aware of the fact that they are a reflection of you, it gets
tangled. You really have to change the world by changing inside of
yourself. When you do that, you're gonna see the balance of the polarity of
the good intention and the fear-based motive behind it.
Quite often what you can do is just like a rubber band. You stretch it out,
its snaps back. Zen is very much like that. If you look at something and
its polarity, like the expression that "the exception proves the rule", or
"a rule without an exception is no longer a rule". When you take two things
that appear to be opposite ideas, and hold them in your mind as both
equally true, what happens is that they both kind of disappear.
Your attachment to them changes, and suddenly you will see a third truth
that is wiser than either of the two polarities. So, if you take the
polarity of "I've got to protect my kids, 'coz otherwise they won't be
safe", and then look at the other polarity of what you're afraid of, and
what's gonna happen as a result of this overprotectiveness, that's just an
example of it.
There's the good intentions of being protective, and then there's the
ugly-mirror of repressing your children out of your own fear.
Not everybody always wants to look into the ugly-mirror. But one aspect of
this is I find that it' s really really good to get very sincere about your
selfishness.
Selfishness is human. The highest level of selfishness is "follow your
bliss", (what Joseph Campbell said). If you're so caught up in your good
intentions that you're not really looking at your selfishness, either
you're gonna get very disappointed, or your gonna end up on the road to hell.
An example is why I do what I do. Some aspects of my basic need is a need
to be provocative. I like to poke people; I like to get reactions. So when
I do work like this, I already know in advance that I'm gonna get my
reward, and as a result, I can give much more selflessly. I've already been
taking care of. I already know what I'm getting out of it.
There's not some kind of tenuous, "Oh, will I get my expectations? Will I
get what I need? Will I get any if that kind of stuff?" Because I've
already looked into the ugly-mirror of my selfish motives, and I know why I
do what I do. I'm not deluded with some ideas of saving the world, or what
other people need.
This course won't be right for some people. It won't be what they need. For
other people, it will be exactly what they need. I'm doing it because I
enjoy doing it, and because of that, I'm already paid. It's already taken
care of, and there is no ugly-mirror reflection of my good intentions and
how they're gonna trip me up in the future.
The ugly-mirror, the road to hell, they're both the same concept. Every
action has an equal and opposite reaction. Everything you do has its
polarity. Every idea you hold in your consciousness as true, has its
opposite.... and with the higher truths, the opposite will be equally true.
Get in the habit of looking for the opposites of any statement that you
make, to see if the opposite is also true. Because if they are, or if you
choose to believe them to be true, then these things collapse, disappear.
They're no longer an attachment. They're no longer a piece of ego that
you're hanging onto. And you can be free of it.
It's real simple. Be honest with yourself. When you want to do something,
look at not only the love, but also at the fear. It's sort of how Goddess
leads us, it's the carrot of temptation in the front, and a little
pitchfork poke in your ass, swatting you with a stick of the fear moving
behind you. That's the navigational system. Take a look at both sides of
it. Look at the carrot you're chasing after, and also take a good long look
at the stick swatting your butt, because they're both equally important in
any action that you make.
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