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Recieved: 2001/04/05 09:43
Subject: [K-list] LIVING STORMS
From: Denise Lyon Anding
On 2001/04/05 09:43, Denise Lyon Anding posted thus to the K-list:
Many have asked about the how of spiritual growth.
Inquiries about the ego and Higher Self.
And personal experiences.
This little ego was awakened by the Higher Self at four in the morning to rise and begin writing this piece. There is someone on this list who requires this information immediately.
This is written to appeal universally to as many cultures as possible as there are many different countries represented on the list. English is not their native language.
Religious and cultural terms (which can be triggers for taking offense) have been stripped down to basics so as to not occlude the main concept presented.
LIVING STORMS
Funny thing about the ego: It lies a lot.
It loves to construct elaborate fantasies and spend years paging through illogical bad-dream dramas. It thrives on trying on every hat in the closet, crushing the last hat played with in utter disdain. It respects nothing.
Untutored, the ego really is nothing in the end. Oh, it develops the art of rationalization, for more lying to itself and others. That one, lying to others, is really called "the art of the excuse."
It plays the lofty intellectual trying to instruct everyone else but its self. It's a hypocrite. It doesn't have the discipline to follow its own advice. Let's not do that! It might require real effort and a purpose in life beyond running amuck! It is nothing but an immature rebellious child. It is easily recognized as a behavior/discipline problem by those who have grown past the need to lie, to themselves and to others.
There is nothing worse than arriving at the realization that you are your own worst enemy. Problems originate from the inside not the outside as previously thought. This is a stunning revelation when the Higher Self succeeds in carrying it up to the resistant ego mind.
The little ego is here to learn from the Higher Self. It is here to experience the world but with greater strength and focus. The ancient way, the most productive for all concerned, is to be trained by and allied with the Higher Self. This affords the ego protection as well as mentoring.
The ego loves to be in charge. Can it train itself? No.
Does it choose to focus upon the greater good? No.
Its only focus is to avoid focus. It is like a compass spinning out of control. It gets off track in life and forgets where due north is located.
But hey, it's having fun, isn't it? The fun of absolute misery. Two steps forward in your life and then suddenly a whirlwind comes out of seeming nowhere and then its ten steps backward.
Your Higher Self begins the process of pushing the little ferocious ego forward in life, yet again, for the millionth time. Once the little ego recovers from its latest faux pas, it realizes the Higher Self has been in charge in its absence. What did you expect? That no one was minding the store? The little ego was involved in yet another drama of its creation. This time it was off nursing its wounds and rushing about as many places as possible gaining sympathy from as many other little egos as possible.
What to do? The first step most people stumble upon is to grab the lying tongue and shut the mouth, silencing the lies. It helps to throw the screaming monkeys out of the mind and lock the door. Make sure you are diligent. They will pound on that door until you relent. Keep a strong lock on the door. Don't let the little troublemakers back in to the shelter of your Higher Self. Not even one whining little monkey. One causes as much trouble as many.
Take a good long look at the now hard-won precious empty space, your new comfortable spacious intimate room. Sweep out the crumbs of distraction and foolishness. Wash it clean. Remember, those pesky little monkeys like to leave little smelly piles to stake out their territory with you, hoping you will trip over them. Reminders like little smelly post-it notes. Lie down and rest on your now peaceful bed. You've accomplished a lot today. Rest. You're going to need it for what lies ahead.
Develop a consistent habit/routine of ordering the ego into obedience to the Higher Self. The little ego doesn't want to learn from Someone Higher, it wants to be that someone higher, even though it lacks qualification and experience.
Be diligent for the rewards are beyond belief.
So, now what? You've done the deed. You've been diligent on a daily basis. You feel the internal pressure/conflict easing. The ego is behaving within livable reason. The ego feels much more secure, not in a constant state of panic, cultivating fear and senseless activity at every turn.
Next step. Here's the good one. Instruct the ego to see only through the eyes of the Higher Self, to hear through the ears of the Higher Self, to be in the Heart Acting, not reacting, from the Higher Self.
Now this is when life gets interesting. Hold on tight. The whirlwind ride to correct your consciousness can be disorienting and downright frightening because of the unfamiliar territory and lack of teaching about the situation you are experiencing.
Your world literally disintegrates. Your finances often die a sudden death. That is usually first, if it does happen at all. Your car works/not works even if new. Very common occurrence. The people you thought were your friends suddenly don't have an interest in you. Why, you can't figure out. (Their perception is changing along with yours.) You may even lose your job, not to mention your health because of the stress of changing spiritual levels. Sounds like a rosy picture, doesn't it?
Do it. Stay the course. You won't be disappointed in the outcome. It is well worth it to go through this life-changing storm.
Try not to impose any timelines for destruction of old perceptions and the re-building of the new life. This only encourages frustration for the ego. It wants immediate gratification.
Keep your focus. Train the ego to focus only upon the Higher Self and its concerns. Train the ego to listen and listen intently to the Higher Self. It is the Higher Self that is to initiate dialog now rather than the ego filling the air with words.
Keep this Higher Self focus and meditative state all day long as you go about your everyday tasks. It is like two people for the price of one. Soon, the ego gets the point and becomes an effective ally for the Higher Self.
As old perception and illusions disintegrate, some quickly, some in chunks and smaller pieces, the ego adjusts to the Truth perception of the Higher Self and easily accepts it.
This one time is the hardest level to access. Why? Because the ego is unaccustomed to this alliance. It fights what it does not understand. By demanding constant daily association with the Higher Self, the ego grows in familiarity and gains understanding and then can trust. It redirects its focus to the work of the Higher Self and enjoys their paired accomplishments.
The next levels become easier and easier to access because the ego has learned the process and how to enjoy the ride!
Much Love Joy and Peace to All,
Denise Lyon
lyonesseATnospambellsouth.net
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
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