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Recieved: 2001/04/04 08:54
Subject: Rant: [K-list] Chips on our shoulders
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2001/04/04 08:54, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
Warning: This is a rant.
At 04:08 AM 4/4/01, Wim Borsboom wrote:
>Dear Hillary and Fiona et al,
>
>Fiona, you wrote:
> > > Mother Church would never accept me for who I really am.
> > > I believed I couldn't survive without church approval.
> > > It has taken a long time to move beyond the Church
> > > as my means of survival.
>
>I wonder if you did fully, there still seems a sting left.
Yep.
>Although the thorns and stings and wounds and traumas, the pushes and pulls
>of manipulations are instigated by outside influences which have to be
>recognized and pointed at... to eventually let the suffering lose its sting,
>to have your own suffering lose its strangle hold, one has to see the
>suffering as one's own, as internal... but... NOT caused by you, not asked
>for by you and not allowed by you. (As disabled you were made to be... and
>powerless.)
How do you know? I'm snipping your essay on grammar, because I think
it is beside the point. You apparently think it is the point, that is
fine.. it just was not resonant for me.
I take the attitude "I attract that which occurs" because I find it
more empowering than continuing to hold an attitude of victimhood about
events in the past that are over and done with. I believe that all major
events in my life were planned by me, before birth to shape me in certain
ways that will contribute to my attaining what I set out to do, this lifetime.
Can I prove it? No. It is a belief, and I choose my beliefs by whether
or not they serve my highest good, in the long term. I find looking for
perfection in what Is, to be much more useful than picking away at my own
ego ideas of imperfection, and using blame to shift responsibility outside
myself. Do I always do this perfectly? No, sometimes I fall down... and I
when I realize it, I forgive myself for it, and accept that is is OK to be
human, fallible. I learn, I grow.
Recently you wrote something about your intuitive perceptions that
Edgar Cayce regrets teaching that people choose their parents.. well, the
thing about intuitive perceptions is that they still go through the filters
of personal belief. Your comments were not resonant to me, because I
believe I did choose my parents. I wonder why you would presume to speak
for a dead guy who cannot offer a rebuttal to your assumptions, but oh well.
I have a choice.. I can choose to believe I chose my parents and look
for perfection in finding the value in my experiences, or I can spend my
life shaking my fist at God-dess for landing me in a terrible situation.
Blech. I choose the former, and see zero value in the latter. Taking
responsibility for who I am and what I did, who I was born to, gives me
power to see how it empowered me, rather than being stuck wallowing in the
helplessness of self pity and blame.
There was a study done on body language, to determine how muggers
choose their victims. They took films of people walking down the street.
They showed the films to imprisoned muggers, and asked them who they would
choose to mug. Then they showed the films to policemen, and asked them the
same question. They all picked the same few people out as likely victims.
So they analysed the body language of those people on the film, and
discovered that they were communicating a message of fearfulness and lack
of safety. They expected to be victims. Likely their experience will follow
their expectation.
We are all Gods, creating our own reality according to what we
believe. As far as healing the old baggage, there are a lot of exercises to
dig up the old stuff and analyse it, wallow in it, and Kundalini itself
will do that process for you.. or you can simply apply gratitude, and the
silver linings will start to show.
We can never see all the ripples of any action, but generally we can
find enough to put it to rest, get over it, and move on.
I see a huge trend towards coddling the victims and trying to legislate
away the need for personal responsibility. Legislation cannot ever replace
the value of old fashioned common sense. I applaud the brilliance Goddess
manifested in the simple evolutionary process of "Natural selection." The
world is overpopulated. Stupid people getting themselves killed doing
stupid things is just part of Natural selection, and all the laws in the
world that try to prevent this from occurring won't really help much.
Admittedly, I have spent the last few hours/days reading a wonderfully
sarcastic site site called "Misanthropic B*tch" and looking at the world
thru her glasses, darkly.. so I am not my usual compassionate self. But I
enjoyed it. It truly was a breath of fresh air, with her "zero tolerance"
attitude for victims and human stupidity... and infantile lawsuits
undertaken by people who insist that it is their right to do brain-dead
things and then sue somebody. Like the woman who sued Macdonalds because
she burnt herself on hot coffee.
Infantile blame.. wah wah, they did it to me! Ick. Coffee is made from
boiling water.. duh. Driving with hot beverages in your hand is hazardous..
no kidding. The courts rewarded her stupidity with several million dollars.
A quote from the B*tch:
http://B*tch.shutdown.com/deodorantkills.html
>The advent of product warning labels heralded the decline of civilization.
>One simple command -- "Do not spray in eyes" -- has done much to
>contribute to our downfall. While humans have always engaged in stupid
>behavior, never has it been so rewarded. In the past, a person who dared
>to spray a known toxic agent in his eyes was doomed to a life of mockery,
>blindness and God willing, abject poverty. Now, that person can live in
>the lap of luxury and be smug in the knowledge that his act of stupidity
>contributed to the redesign of a product or its packaging.
>16-year-old Jonathan Capewell, a daft Brit, managed to accidentally kill
>himself with an overdose of deodorant. That bears repeating. He overdosed
>on deodorant.
>Jonathan, who apparently suffered from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (or a
>well-hidden inhalant abuse problem), was found slumped on his bedroom
>floor after being overcome by the fumes. Next to his body were cans of
>Right Guard, Lynx and Gillette.
>The coroner concluded that Jonathon had sprayed so much deodorant on
>himself that it led to a build-up of toxic gases, which ultimately sparked
>the heart attack that killed him.
>Within the past six months, Jonathan had become obsessed with his personal
>hygiene, spraying himself with deodorant two or three times a day. His
>parents often joked to their son that they could "taste (the deodorant)
>down here."
>Rather than admit to themselves they overlooked their son's obvious mental
>illness, the Capewells have decided to take the American course of action
>-- blame the deodorant manufacturers, and crusade for bigger warning
>labels and the addition of a warning on the dangers of over-use. Can the
>lawsuit be far behind?
Ick. Legislation cannot ever replace old fashioned common sense.
Goddess created "Natural selection" and this guy deserves a "Darwin Award".
Battered women's shelters and feminism are two huge areas where this
occurs.. women are encouraged to put all the blame on the abuser and never
spend a moment considering why they had such terrible taste in men, or such
low self esteem to choose to be with, and stay with someone who did not
treat them well. The result is they do not grow from the experience, and
go right out to find another male who will treat them exactly the same way.
Feminists and the big bad patriarchy. Same-same.. yes, it is true that
Patriarchal culture treated women as inferior and generations were
brainwashed to believe that it is so, but continuing the identification
with victimhood is not the same as clearing the brainwashing out of your
own system and getting on with your own life. It only perpetuates the
system of abusers and victims.
I read a story of a tiny crone, faced with a young powerful rapist in
her home, pretended to go along with his plans until she got one hand on
his penis and the other on his testicles and hung on for dear life, forcing
him to call the police himself, confess and beg them to come rescue him
from this crazy old lady's clutches. Too funny. She was nobody's victim.
I laughed till I cried, Goddess 2 Atilla 0. David and Goliath rewritten.
Granny and the poor vulnerable male. Oho. Three cheers for a woman
determined not to be a victim, using her power and brains to get out of a
bad situation.
Well, I could probably rant on and on and on, but I think its best to
stop here and go find something more useful to do.
blessings..
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