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Recieved: 2001/04/02 13:20
Subject: [K-list] Re: Imposed Silence
From: Nina Linette Murrell-Kisner

Dear Lynette,

Hi sweetie... yes, I have also been feeling an
"imposed" silence. It began as needing to be
quiet enough to hear my own Self... but then
I return to find that there are still issues
there about fear of being "found out"... I
even doubt my own realness. Am I making
this up? My well-exercised imagination is
suspect... thus, my experience is suspect.
Breathe, Nina. Breathe.

My mantra is becoming Be Still Be Quiet Be
Patient.

I shut myself up when I feel I have exposed
myself too much... and you're right. It's
lonely in that space.

I have imposed this silence on myself...
> through childhood programs, through afraid of offending, for fear of being
> ridiculed.. for fear of appearing "all knowing".... I've silenced myself of
> my truths...
>
> My beloved whispering sweetly in my ear for days now, " I Want To Be
> Heard".... and me feeling alone, and no one understanding me... And I
> remained in my silence...
>
> My Beloved wants to shout from the Mountain Top " I AM"
> I am, have always been, will always be... and let the chips fall where they
> may....

:) This reminds me of a recent subject
heading.... "Fuck off, I know what I'm
talking about."

Going back to bed, got the intestinal blues.

Nina

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