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Recieved: 2001/03/30 21:14
Subject: [K-list] CATanomic CATatrinsic Purrceptions
From: Cleocatras
On 2001/03/30 21:14, Cleocatras posted thus to the K-list:
<< I just would like to comment a little about the cats...
We do have a cat who is a member of this list (yes, I mean our beloved
CleoCATra).
>>
Thank you, Augustin, for your love energy directed this way. It is much
needed... it's a good feeling to be a beloved.
I have no idea the final outcome of what God/dess has in store for me,
CATastrophic challenges up every crook and cranny - nearly everything that I
regard as important to me. "Bombarded" beyond earthly probability, the
prevailing sentiment as I watch so many things in jeopardy right now -- my
status as a parent, my home, my equity, my pride, my financial survival,
career, friends, reputation <poof> teetering on a wire and potentially gone
in an instant.
I could complain about every person I had hoped was helping me, turned,
ripping me off and caused me in double jeopardy -- a whole slew of those
friends have become adversarial or betraying, while the ones I felt I could
never trust (like and act of God) came to assist ... its all gone completely
flip! All my safety nets falling down like dominos in the middle of a
shipwreck... having nothing left but faith in God/dess is the only option,
here. My last ten years of theories, mindful planning, investments,
strategies going amuck ... no time to cry over it, and its so contrary to
normal predictability you cant even get upset, just nervous giggle as it
continues to unfold, the only other option is to be emotionally beat up
staying attached to it. Surrendering to its unfolding is my only option...
and some kind of ritualized attempt to stop the fateful motion.
Please all, send some energy this way that when the dust clears there is
still
something left after years of hard work (emotional investments, property,
etc.)
This is a true test if I ever believed in intended lessons, this one is
screaming at me loud and clear that I am being forced to learn total
surrender and faith in God/dess... at all costs.
Requesting protection for my health and that my vehicle will still be working
when this "thing" is over... so far, sanity and reality is still in tact...
tears have transformed to giggles as willful attempts to prevent
maxi-multiple crises repeatedly sets off an opposing energy that totally
befuddles me. Perhaps I have been too smart for my own good, and a little too
arrogant. Calculated innovation going tilt?
It could turn out everything stays in place or everything is gone, but each
moment is nearly the opposite from the one before. My idea of security and
supportive environment is experiencing an earthquake. I dont know if I am
being propelled to the heavens completely free, or stuck between layers of
earth destined for smothering hard labor 'til death. I am still amazed at the
dozens of people who got bliss to kick the cat while its down and then those
who have kicked for some long time suddenly helping... perhaps to play
another day?
Nine-lives Cat. Hmmm, I forgot when I accepted that persona, that it could
include nine sudden deaths. CATastrophe does NOT have my name in it!
Afterall, God/dess is Purrfection - I just cant see it right now...
CATagorically speaking.
I should have quit dreaming that I wanted to live in a treehouse a long time
ago... the thought has been a nice piece/peace of bliss for years, but I hope
I didnt put so much energy on the thought that it is causing me to lose my
house now... not to mention, because my fantasy neglected the trivial matter
of how to hoist a portapotty up there...
Cleocatra
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