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Recieved: 2001/03/28 12:20
Subject: [K-list] Forward from So & So Need
From: Wim Borsboom
On 2001/03/28 12:20, Wim Borsboom posted thus to the K-list:
Wim wrote:
> Could it be that your practice was mind driven ?
My practice actually gone through a transitions before. I'd say that prior
to last fall my practice WAS mind driven. Then, until December it was goal
driven. I had been in an accident that left me unable to hold my head
up. By the end of the year, the most remarkable thing happened: auto-yoga.
No planning, no goal, just sitting/standing on the mat and waiting until
poses
started happening. Quite wonderful. I was 'told' I needed to share this
with others... create an opportunity for them to do it. (Haven't followed
through on that yet.) Then, I really got into kundalini yoga again...
around the new year, it became my main form of practice (hatha served as a
loosener). It seemed to tone down a lot of the energy flares I had been
experiencing. Yes, you're perceptive - it became a mind thing with a goal
again. Whereas a previous goal had been to be able to hold my head up
again, this time it was to build up the body systems in order to carry the
energy.
So now, what I am watching for is signs that by not doing asanas, my body
will begin to "deteriorate" to the point of not being able to handle the
current again. I have been vibrating, sometimes intensely (hard to sit
still... have tried 'pounding' to loosen it up) around the sacrum and hips
(and down into my left leg sometimes). Also, I notice that when I do do
k-yoga, that it is as if the floodgates open and energy flows very rapidly.
Ah well... watch and wait, eh? ;)
Wim wrote.
> ... *mind* driven yoga has no effect but for losing
> some weight, (snip) and oh... social approval.
Hehe, speaking of social approval: my hatha yoga teacher thinks that all of
my crying and inability to hold poses in class has to do with spinal
injuries I had in the accident. Last night when we were holding bridge
pose and I let go because breathing, clamping my butt and hips, holding,
and quietly weeping was too much for me... she later came over and said
that bridge pose would be good homework for me - that it would strengthen
my lower back. :) Sweetheart, she is, really... but no way am I gonna tell
her the REAL reason.
>So, good for you... AND do not forget to congratulate yourself... I mean
>this... take some credit...
Mmmm... ok, I'm really no good at congratulating myself
>Start noticing what happens at night, but whatever it is, turn the alarm
>bells off... It is an exact reversal in time of the muscular stresses that
>you were forced to take on years ago. Whatever comes up now... the mind
will
>want to react with its usual anxieties and strategies, which will start off
the
>physical symptoms again. Stay ahead of this 'mental surrogate self'...
Catch
>a vision before it becomes a nightmare, catch happiness before it becomes
>excitement, catch the positive energy before it turns into an 'wrathful
>deity'.
Oh, Wim, PLEASE go into this further. This is a piece of information I
really need.
So & So
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