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Recieved: 2001/03/15 09:18
Subject: [K-list] Fiona's Mother
From: Cleocatras
On 2001/03/15 09:18, Cleocatras posted thus to the K-list:
It sounds like the mother has accomplished what she set out to do, as you
seem to feed right into it. I'm convinced if you do not let go soon, it will
consume you.
Knowing how "rugged" fox terriers are, there is not much likelihood they
would be in that much "danger" in the company of your mother. Preconceived
notions can have a destructive life of their own.
For any communication (even in this realm) to take place, there has to be a
sender and a receiver. When I realized how destructive my mother was, I just
took down my antenna, and set my tuner to another station.
I have not spoken to her since 1987. She lives 4 miles away. She can think
about me and my son all she wants to, but she is not in our world. She has
tried every possible means of her legacy of incest she could manifest, and
accomplish much while I was young and in her custody. She orchestrated rapes,
beatings, divorces, stalking, and many life threatening events throughout the
first 25 years of my life, including harboring a person determined to kill me.
She doesn't know enough about me to manifest these kind of events in my life
anymore. My fear and hatred also allowed her some success in deteriorating
my quality of living and I will not allow this in my consciousness, I
replaced this energy with volunteer work in victim advocacy programs when it
was on my mind. She is only atoms and molecules and part of God/dess, and her
energy does not belong anywhere near me. It is not who I am or what I am to
become. My destiny and who I am is only what I believe in. It was my free
will to release myself of this fear and resignation and my conditioning which
kept me engaging myself in those thoughts ... untying the knots of that
bondage, unraveling the DNA predisposition of my ancestors and opening up new
potentials for my offspring, about 17 years of work ... but just a
millisecond in Goddess time.
Blessings,
Cat
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