To: K-list
Recieved: 2001/03/07 15:19
Subject: Re: [K-list] Rambling On...
From: Leo
On 2001/03/07 15:19, Leo posted thus to the K-list:
--- In Kundalini-GatewayATnospamy..., Mystress Angelique Serpent
<MystressATnospamk...> wrote:
[It is funny, Leo.. you see nothing happening.. I see everything
unfolding as it should.. including you.]
Sigh.. I always makes things so much harder than need be, with my
fury of thinking.
[.. unconditional love feels like nothing, when you are there.... but
others respond to it warmly. You may have noticed.. if you thought to
look.]
I always assumed unconditional love as, well.. anything *but* void of
feelings... Still holding on to the old I see
[You still have it, it is simply being redirected underground, to
fuel your spiritual growth.]
Phew...relief. That's some high octane stuff being redirected - i'm
not used to my body being so "quiet" in that sense...
[I have some ideas about the meaning of your dreams and visions, but
I chose to snip rather than translate..]
I'm sure it can get quiet time-consuming translating dreams. All of
these lucid dreams are centered around water - fishing, hanging off
the bow of the Titanic afraid to fall, walking along the shore. In
the dreams i'm afraid of being in the water. It's strange because
i've been swimming since I could walk, and loving the water.
Anyone know of a good book on dreams?
[Some Zen Buddhists would say you are blessed, to be so free of those
distractions...]
That's one way to look at it I guess. But still..
[I think, essentially.. you have been down this road before.. so
there is less work to do.]
In another life? As i'm new to this mode of thought, on previous
lives, etc., I have very little understanding of it.
[Check in with your friends about whether this is really true or just
your subjective judgment. I suspect those around you are seeing you
getting better.. calmer, more relaxed, less judgmental and
argumentative.. peaceful to be around, radiating love.]
Well, my best friend (about 10 years now) seems to be going through
this in his own way, so we're even closer now in understanding each
other. Another friend, she knows "something is up" and that i'm not
the same after a few months without talking. She only really asked if
I still have "that fire," but accepting nonetheless. Another friend,
she doesn't know what to make of me anymore. She's just like like me,
a stubborn Leo, but otherwise very dogmatic. My most dramatic and
sudden changes are taking a heavy toll on us; we hardly talk anymore.
That's all of them. I don't keep many friends. I've always only let a
select few into my world in the past.
[:) I think you may be right.. you don't see enlightenment as
anything special because it is normal for you. It was the same for
me.. I didn't know that not everyone has a light on inside their
head.. for example.]
After reading this I remembered the surgical scar I have just above
the right buttocks. I remember asking my dad what it was from - "When
you were a year old, you had an infection from your head to down
there. The doctors had to do emergency surgery."
I've actually remembered this my whole life: Prior to the surgery in
the hospital, in the memory image, I saw myself laying on my stomach,
with my mom and sister in the room beside me, the doctor walking in.
I never did ask any more about it, but I intend to.
[:) Perfect. Surrender means "Give up". You are exactly where you
need to be. Blessings.....]
Thank You, Mystress. As always, your words have been very helpful.
And many Blessings to You.
-leo
DISCLAIMER!
Home | Archive Index | Search the archives | Subscribe
K. List FAQ | Kundalini FAQs | Signs and Symptoms | Awakening Experiences | K. list Polls | Member Essays | Meditations | List Topics | Art Gallery | Cybrary | Sitemap | Email the moderators.
symbol.