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Subject: [K-list] Ego - Bondage and Illusions of Truth
From: Ganga Karmokar
On 2001/03/05 20:21, Ganga Karmokar posted thus to the K-list:
Date: Fri Aug 25, 2000 5:33am
Subject: Ego, bondage, and illusions of truth
EGO, BONDAGE, AND ILLUSIONS OF TRUTH
All of our emotional bondages are created and held in place by that
which is
known as ego... Ego is the belief that we are these bodies, emotions,
and
thoughts.. Therefore when anything goes against any of these systems
we hold
it to be an assault against our persona..
Depending on our belief system and identity which is already in place
it can
be mildly irritating to downright devastating..
If we encountered a traumatic situation where there was a belief that
impending death was just around the corner then that trauma may be re-
run
again and again in the psyche, creating ever more pain and perceived
trauma.. But there is a way to short circuit these illusions of
truth..
For anything that is not LIBERATING is not Truth at all but an
illusion of
truth.. It is these illusions that we will address. How are they
created and
what sustains them? And if they are illusions how can we move beyond
them?
If we are not this ego structure then what are we? How can peace of
mind be
attained and preserved? Where do we begin and where will this search
end?
Believe it or not that which you fear the most can be THAT
which liberates you in the end. The largest perceived fear can be the
greatest liberator. Please bear with me in this. Right now you are
probably
thinking that this woman has a serious screw loose somewhere! And if
I were
in your place I would probably think the same thing right about now.
But I
have been where you are and have escaped the concrete fears and
thought
constructs and emotional baggage which kept me bound for many years.
I have walked the path and therefore can speak from the position of
direct
experiential knowledge and not hearsay. All I will speak of has been
acquired by direct experience. I do not have a PHD but rather a
direct
knowledge of Truth as it is. It is this truth that I wish to share
with you
today..
From the moment we are born the conditionings begin. And the
conditions of
life are set. We are born into this world with a body. Some bodies
are seen
as perfect and some as flawed. we are born into a family. Some are
glad at
the arrival and perhaps some are not. So all these things begin to
create
the conditionings and conditions of our lives. The views of our
parents and
society and friends all have an impact on our thought structures and
perceptions. These all come together to create our basic outlook on
life ad
what we hold to be truth. These create our perceptions of truth. If
you are
supported and told you are smart then you have confidence in whatever
you
do.
While on the other hand if you are always told you are stupid and
ugly then
this will color your world and view of reality. This colors your
thoughts of
who you perceive yourself to be, along with all the other events in
life
which also color and inter-play within your reality framework.
One person that has always been sheltered within a loving family will
see
the world as a kind and beneficial beautiful place to be. Where as
one that
has come from a harsh and abusive environment will see the world
colored as
a place to be continually on guard. While there are events which
unfold in
everyones life which will skew these basic belief systems.
Now you begin to see just how much the conditionings create our basic
view
of reality as we know it.. Or "think" it to be.
Now with this out of the way we begin right where you are at this
moment in
time. So the first thing we do is to look at the fact that the past
is past.
So if your are re-running the tapes of the past let's look at the
fact that
by running them over and over you can change nothing. All you are
doing is
re-inforcing past nonsense that is keeping you bound in one form or
another.
If it were not keeping you bound it would have passed right out of
your
awareness. But for whatever reason that you perceive you are
continually
holding on to this perceived slight or hurt or trauma. And you have
to admit
it is not doing anything constructive in your life.
Now lets look at the other waste of energy which we continually find
ourselves in. And this is the "what if" factor. Trying to live in the
future
just never works. as the ONLY place that you can ever truly live is
in the
present moment of now...
So what is happening when you are running the past tapes and the what
if
tapes? In essence you are passing life by.. You are only existing!
You are
Not living at all.. Life is in a holding pattern. Continually
circling
around and around. And the more you feed the past and the what ifs
the more
they grow into unmanageable cyclones of wasted energy and efforts. As
you
are attempting to deal with an change something which is already
gone. It
lives only within your illusion of truth. And the conflict is there
because
of the ego identification with the body and emotions and thoughts.
And in
Truth you are none of these things.
So now you ask where do I go from here!? And from here I say it is
time you
found out the Truth of who and what you really are. Once you Know at
long
last just what comprises your Being then the rest of that which is
illusion
will just drop away of its own accord.. When these things are no
longer
given any energy then they will just dissipate into the vapors of
unreality
that they are. Like a drop of dew evaporates in the sunlight. these
illusions will dissipate under the light of truth.
Are you ready to begin the never ending adventure? Are you ready to
begin to
really live life to the fullest. to grab and rest in the freedom
which is
just waiting for you to reach out and accept it? For it is ALWAYS
there and
has always been there. It is only your own blinders which keep you
from
seeing it.
Is your fear that you are nothing and nobody? Is your great fear that
of
death and that you will cease to be? Let us go into these fears and
see what
comes out of them.
Let us proceed to look at what is temporary and transient. What is it
about
you that comes and goes. When you peel away the layers of the
transient what
is it that remains? When you come to what remains you will come to
the truth
of your Being!! You will see that there was nothing to fear and that
there
is only Freedom that remains. Won't that be a lovely thing to remain.
Just
FREEDOM to BE. The Freedom of knowing that you are the unbound Truth
of
Existence. That all you perceived was just an illusion of bondage and
fear
which never had any reality at all, except that which you yourself
gave it.
So are you ready to unravel all the fears and thoughts and emotions
that
have kept you tied on the wheel of Karma? Are you ready to let go of
the
desires that keep you bound to the wheel of birth and death?
For it is not the actions which keep you on the wheel of karma going
around
and around. It is the thought and intent of the actions. And it is
the
re-actions of the actions which come against you which once again
keep you
bound to the wheel of birth and death. Just going around and around
in the
never ending spiral called life and death... birth and re-birth...
We keep cycling through the same old patterns again and again until
we can
break the cycle. And in each life we will draw the same patterns to
ourselves and will keep creating the same illusions of truth until we
can
break free and can see them for what they are. And once we see
through them
then the pattern will drop and we move onward to a new experience..
Look at your life and see what patterns keep coming up again and
again. Now
let's walk through the door of Knowledge to Liberation and the
Freedom with
awaits.
what is mind? Is it a physical thing? Let us first look here. What is
the
mind comprised of? Is not the mind comprised of thoughts? And just
what are
thoughts? Are they some concrete existence? NO! Thoughts come and go
like
waves on the sea. First one thought is there and then another and so
on and
so on. One arises and falls and then the next and so on infinitum.
But there
can only be one thought that makes its appearance at a time.
Sometimes these
thoughts will start in a whirlpool one after another just going
around and
around until you are dizzy and disoriented just from the sheer
continued
motion and cycling around and around. But look at it again. Even
thought
there are certain thought patterns which keep appearing and cycling
they
ultimately come and go.So if they come and go they are not concrete
in
nature but fluid. And like waves on the ocean they can appear like a
ripple
or with enough energy can appear as a tidal wave pulling you out into
a sea
of emotion and fear and despair. all because they have touched upon
an
illusion of truth. They come and rock your world. Cause waves in your
reality. So let us continue on in this search until we uncover the
Reality
that cannot be shaken.
When you come to the Truth you will be set Free as the Truth always
IS and
is the bases for ALL of creation. ALL has proceeded from Truth - is
sustained by truth - and will once again return to truth. And
illusions
being what they are in the end must disappear; when the illusion is
uncovered it ceases to be!
So we see that mind is comprised of individual thoughts which come
and go.
One thought manifesting at a time. So mind is Not concrete in nature.
Mind
is an illusion. Mind has no substance. Let us move on now to thought.
What is thought? Thought also has no concrete nature. So exactly what
and
where do thoughts manifest from? They have no substance. They arise
from
nowhere and return to nowhere. So why is so much importance given to
something which comes and goes from nowhere to nowhere. When it
leaves out
of our awareness and perception where does it go? It only has life
while in
the framework of our perceptions. When these thoughts float into our
awareness what happens? We give it life by then ascribing emotions to
it. Do
we not? When a thought comes in if you look at it and dwell on it
does it
not elicit an emotion? So this emotion gives the thought life for
that
moment in time. Now once again let us follow the emotion.
Emotions once again come and go. It is something that is particular
to
yourself alone. No one else feels your emotion but you. Others may
see your
reaction to the emotion but the emotion itself is yours alone. Is
emotion a
concrete thing? No! You cannot have an emotion that lives
independently on
its own. You are the one that gives it life. Your attention to it
gives it
energy and life. And once again emotions come and go like the waves
of an
ocean. In and out. High tide and low tide. And since they are
transient in
nature they are not the reality of your Being. They are but ripples
on the
sea of Consciousness. One emotion arises and is there for some time
until
replaced by another emotion. Once again they are only waves and
ripples
without any concrete form. Emotions are created and held in place by
mind
and thought. And we have already seen that mind and thought have no
substance and are only passing illusions. And these illusions create
and
sustain all the Ill-lusions that keep us bound.
So let us review. We know that we are not the physical body. Nor can
we be
the mind which is created by thoughts. Nor are we the individual
thoughts.
Nor are we the conglomerate of thoughts. If we are neither of these
then it
follows that we also cannot be the emotions which the mind and
thoughts
create and sustain. And isn't our whole persona just made up and held
together by all these illusions of mind thought and emotion? So let
us keep
going and seeing just what is left? My goodness do I even exist at
all? I
think it is safe to say yes you do exist--just not the way you
thought and
perceived.!
So when we take away the body, the mind, the thoughts, the emotions
just
what is left?
How do you know you have thoughts? How do you know you dream at
night? Or
that there were no dreams.
It is because of conscious awareness! You are this Conscious
Awareness... It
sees the thoughts.. But it is not the thoughts. It is aware of the
emotions.
But it is Not the emotions. It is aware of form but it is not form.
It is
Not concrete in nature yet clearly it IS...
You are in fact NO - Body... and you are No-Thing... You are
Awareness -
energy - Vibration - truth - and Bliss... and these are Eternal in
Nature..
They are what creates and sustains existence. All form while
appearing and
disappearing is created by these alone. And therefore Always exists.
The
form may change but it is eternal for it never was the concrete
illusion of
truth which we see.
See beyond the form to the Formless.. See beyond the illusions of
truth to
the Reality of Truth. Now let us continue onward.
Now we come to the point of putting all this together. Since we are
in
Reality Conscious Awareness and Energy and Vibration and Truth and
Bliss...
Just what thought or emotion or physical happening can touch us?!
None can
truly touch out essence!! so ALL of the perceived traumas and hurts
have
happened only to this body.. and you are Not this body.
This is how we diffuse the bondage. When the pain comes again go into
it...
Go to the root. There is nothing to fear except fearing the fear. So
go into
the fear fully and see that when you reach the end of it that it will
just
dissipate as it is only comprised of of illusions of truth. When
thoughts
come and go just see them as passing clouds with no substance. Do not
give
them form and life... Let them come and go like waves on the ocean.
Instead
of being carried away by a tidal wave get in the boat and float
downstream
and enjoy the ride.
When you drop the mind of thoughts and illusions you will reach the
still
waters of the Peace which passes all understanding. You will be the
everlasting waters. You will not thirst again.
You alone crate the fears and bondages of life. And you have the
power to
let all of them go. Just go into the illusion and it will dissipate
before
your very eyes. You will not cease to exist nor will you find more
bondage.
What you will find is the doorway to freedom.
You have never truly been born nor have you died you are beyond these
forms
and plays of life. As all this is created by mind and thought. So go
beyond
all these illusions to what and who your really are..
Live life to the fullest! You are here to explore and be existence..
So drop
all the self doubts and illusions of truth that keep you gong around
and
around. You are Life. .. You are Bliss when you drop the illusive
mind and
thought. You are Sat-Truth, Chit-Awareness, and Anand-Bliss...This IS
the
Truth of your Being... And what in reality can touch or harm this
truth?!!!
NOTHING AT ALL!!! NOTHING AT ALL!!!
Love and Blessings Sat*Chit*Anand Shanti-Shanti-Shanti OM
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