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Recieved: 2001/02/28 13:55
Subject: Re: [K-list] Intro
From: ashok sharma
On 2001/02/28 13:55, ashok sharma posted thus to the K-list:
Dear Jordan:
Kundalini is active in each and everyone on this planet only degrees are
from very very mild and
that which goes unnoticed almost throughout life to very strong and sudden
sensations. It may come
to activity just once for a moment never to repeat arousal even whole of
life. There are infinite
variations. Suggest just watch the process going with you positively relying
that Goddess Mother of all
"Supereme Nature" shall guide and steer you to better levels always.
Ashok
----- Original Message -----
From: Leo . <leoarmandoATnospamhotmail.com>
To: <K-list >
Sent: Saturday, February 24, 2001 6:41 PM
Subject: [K-list] Intro
> Hi All,
>
> I'm Jordan, from Louisiana, and just signed on to this list the other day.
> From your insights/experiences, i'm hoping to gain an explanation of what
> may or may not be happening in my life right now.
>
> I guess the triggering forces of events in my life in the past few months
> would be a good place to start. To make an extremely long story short, the
> past six months have been the most stressful in my 23 years of life yet.
> I've always had battles with depression and such, but this one situation I
> have been in would have sent me up the river to the looney bin, without a
> doubt. It would have, had I not found one book which started a chain
> reaction that has led me to writing this now. The book was called Samurai
> Zen, and introduced me to Zen Philosophy and meditation. This was a
> life-saver to me, even though it still didn't answer all i needed. For the
> most part, I've been able to detatch myself from that nightmare of a life
in
> the city and returned to my roots, so to speak.
>
> Most of the things happening now have begun rather suddenly, in the past
two
> weeks. It started with a tremendous surge of creativity. I began writing.
> Until now, I've always hated writing. I began to notice the more subtle
but
> beautiful part of life, in nature. But more than anything else, I started
to
> get the feeling that "something" is trying to get my attention.
>
> From last weekend to this Saturday morning, I have learned what
> synchronicity truly is. First I picked up a book at a friends house about
> witches and witchcraft history, etc. I couldn't put it down; I love
reading.
> I stayed up all night reading it last saturday. Then I went online and
> started reading everything I could, about everything, but mostly theology
> and spiritual reading.
>
> I was up for three days straight - un unquenchable thirst for knowledge,
as
> well as literal unquenchable thirst. I began to notice weird things
> throughout my body, but paid little attention to them. What can you expect
> from no sleep in three days, afterall.
>
> One word buried among thousands of which i was reading, ultimately lead me
> here to writing this. I had never seen it before, and the texts weren't
> talking anything about it, but I stopped reading and immediately searched
> for Kundalini on Altavista.
>
> I've read enough in the past week now to know I haven't experienced the
> rising of Kundalini. However, I am increasingly experiencing the
following:
>
> ====================
> *Muscle twitches, cramps or spasms.
> YES - Very Often, sometimes continuous for hours.
> *Energy rushes or immense electricity circulating the body.
> I wouldn't describe it as "electricity," but definitely energy rushes.
> *Itching - YES
> vibrating - NO
> prickling - YES
> tingling - YES
> stinging - YES
> crawling sensations - Mild/Hardly noticable
> *Intense heat or cold. - Intense cold at first onset of signs&symptoms
last
> weekend. Week later, always hot.
> *Involuntary bodily movements:
> jerking - YES, increasingly more often
> tremors - NO
> shaking - NO
> feeling an inner force pushing one into postures or moving one's body in
> unusual ways - YES
>
> *Alterations in eating and sleeping patterns.
> Always had sleeping/eating pattern disturbances, but even more so
lately.
> *Episodes of extreme hyperactivity or, conversely, overwhelming fatigue.
> YES-Both. Usually feel urge to sleep after meditating and eating, also.
> *Intensified or diminished sexual desires.
> Always had extremely high libido. Diminished lately.
> *Headaches, pressures within the skull.
> Pressure within the skull most of the time/Increased during meditation.
> *Racing heartbeat, pains in the chest.
> YES NO
> *Digestive system problems.
> YES, terribly
> *Numbness or pain in the limbs (particularly the left foot and leg)
> At onset of signs&symptoms, left heel went numb for hours and feet
were
> ice cold. Left toes take turns going numb.
> *Pains and blockages anywhere; often in the back and neck.
> Sharp, sudden pains scattered throughout back and sides, with
alternating
> tingling/itching. Stiff neck.
> *Emotional outbursts; rapid mood shifts; seemingly unprovoked or excessive
> episodes of grief, fear, rage, depression.
> Unprovoked rage at times. Starting to feel mild depression. All I want
to
> do is sleep now.
> *Spontaneous vocalizations (including laughing and weeping) -- are as
> unintentional and uncontrollable as hiccoughs.
> Mild giggling, then emotion of weeping, then mild giggling again -
mostly
> after laying down.
> *Hearing an inner sound or sounds, classically described as a flute, drum,
> waterfall, birds singing, bees buzzing but which may also sound like
> roaring, whooshing, or thunderous noises or like ringing in the ears.
>
> Heard faint singing several times this week usually between 2 and 4am -
> beautiful, almost like Enya. Heard bee buzzing sound in right ear for a
> while the other day here at the computer.
> *Mental confusion; difficulty concentrating.
> Past couple of days.
> *Altered states of consciousness: heightened awareness; spontaneous trance
> states; mystical experiences (if the individual's prior belief system is
too
> threatened by these, they can lead to bouts of psychosis or
> self-grandiosity)
> No, but several weeks ago I did tell myself I've lost my mind.
> *Heat, strange activity, and/or blissful sensations in the head,
> particularly in the crown area.
> Mild - Only when meditating, or outside listening to nature.
> *Ecstasy, bliss and intervals of tremendous joy, love, peace and
compassion
> Not really.
> *Psychic experiences:
> extrasensory perception- Visualizing the time before seeing a clock.
Looking
> at the phone moments before it rings. Stuff like that.
> out-of-body experiences- No
> pastlife memories- Possibly. Had several unexplainable "scenes" come into
> mind while meditating. Scenes that suggested a period several hundred
years
> ago.
> astral travel- No
> direct awareness of auras and chakras- No
> contact with spirit guides through inner voices, dreams or visions- Not
yet
> cetain.
> healing powers- No
> *Increased creativity: new interests in self-expression and spiritual
> communication through music, art, poetry, etc.
> Writing three books simultaneously. Used to hate writing.
> *Intensified understanding and sensitivity:
> insight into one's own essence- Always felt deeply connected there
> deeper understanding of spiritual truths- I feel like it's coming
>
> exquisite awareness of one's environment (including "vibes" from others)-
> One of the strongest abilities i've always had. I've picked up vibes from
> someone at a distance of around 6000 miles away, all confirmed by later
> phone conversations or chatting online. I usually feel what other's around
> me are feeling.
> *Enlightenment experiences: direct Knowing of a more expansive reality;
> transcendent awareness.
> Not yet anyways.
> =======================
>
> Just this morning while meditating, for the first time I felt an intense
> heat move up my spine. Not really the spine, but more like off to the
sides.
> Felt parallel up to the mid-back region, then the left side felt more weak
> as the right continued. The right stopped when I felt the left side
> diminish.
>
> Then there was nothing, but sweat and grogginess after breaking
meditation.
>
> I sometimes feel like I'm imagining these things - completely disoriented
> with reality. Or, that i'm imagining the signs and symptoms as Kundalini
> Awakening, now that I know what Kundalini is.
>
> Now, compared with everyone else's experiences/insights here, does any of
> this make sense as an "awakening." I don't know what to make of it - what
> i'm experiencing is nothing dramatic, or painful, like all i've read about
> from others, so i don't know.
>
> Anyways. I hope to understand more with time, in reading from all of you
> about your experiences.
>
> -Jordan
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