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Recieved: 2001/02/06 10:46
Subject: Re: [K-list] about 'Dilemma'
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2001/02/06 10:46, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 05:18 PM 2/5/01, MystcLwonATnospamaol.com wrote:
>I was amazed at how difficult it was to stay in the moment... all the
>mini-mind trips, catching myself and then coming back to present. This was
>all good and fine initially, and I learned much about personal avoidance
>patterns -- but after about a week of continued observation, my mind was
>getting just a bit 'pissed off' to put it mildly.... It was like there was a
>war going on inside of me...I wasn't prepared for the turmoil and it kind of
>freaked me out. A few days later, in the interest of continued sanity (?), I
>declared a temporary peace treaty...
Colette:
You are not your thoughts, you are the silent space they happen in.
What you resist, persists, so trying not to think of the past or the
future, is hopeless and frustrating. Instead, simply be in the moment,
observing yourself thinking of the past and the future. Not judging
yourself for where your thoughts go, or interfering with the process.. just
observing.
Like Hillary said, everyone is already enlightened. The difference, is
one of identification. If you identify yourself with your thoughts, it is
not the same as if you identify with the spaces between the thoughts, the
place where thoughts occur. Like the difference between the actors on the
stage, and the script they perform, and the theatre itself. The theatre IS,
even when the lights are dark and the stage is empty.
Think of an aquarium. The basic aquarium, is the glass box. Within the
aquarium, there is water and fish and bubbles and plants, doing what they
do... all the activity.. but the aquarium, is the box where all these
things are. So, your thoughts are the bubbles and fish, and you can just
watch them... like watching fish in a tank, swimming in circles. It is
very restful, to watch an aquarium.
Spending some time thinking of the past and the future, is natural. You
cannot go grocery shopping without thinking of what you will be cooking in
the future, and how you liked what you bought last time.. that's life in
linearity.
Mindfullness, is being in the moment, watching yourself thinking and
doing. When you do this, you will become more aware of your feelings..
emotional and physical. Then you will be observing the ongoing conversation
between your mind and your body... between thoughts and feelings.
When you do it more, you will start listening to the feelings of the
body, more than the thoughts of the mind. The mind may identify the
feelings, name them, with labels, love, pain, fear, pleasure.. judge them,
as right or wrong or appropriate or "spiritual" or whatever, ... but the
feelings themselves are wordless. They just are. So from the place of
observing the thoughts, you come to observing the body.. watching yourself
experiencing emotions.
This is detachment. You are not your thoughts, your feelings or your
body.. you are the observer that watches the play of consciousness, without
judging it.
Blessings..
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