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Recieved: 2001/01/12 00:26
Subject: [K-list] HELP!!
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2001/01/12 00:26, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
>
>Okay, My name is John. I am 32, a single parent of two girls. I am not sure
>what the hell is going on. I know what is going on...but I am having a tough
>time with it. I have studied Tibetan Buddhism for year, and have done Tai
>Chi for about a year. I have also been initiated by Maharaji Tara Chan in
>Shabd Yoga. This last year I have been divorced (put my ex through nursing
>school and paid for the abortion of her child - WHY AM I TELLING YOU
>THIS??)
Because you need to let it out?
>...also, my father is going on dialysis and has been given about six
>months to live...
Ouch.
>anyway, about two months ago I was reading abook on Chakras and
>meditation, and started working with them, I thought the whole thing with
>Kundalini was quaint (but I was somewhat doubtful), till now....
Ooops. Bad attitude.. LOL!!
Well, you cannot out the Genii back in the bottle..
>Over the last few weeks, I have had the following:
>
>Pressure around my nose and sinuses, but it seems to high for a headache, it
>almost like it feels.....like something goes up from my lungs and to just
>above, to the area in the center of my head?? (the third eye??)...
Yep.
>Leg tiredness, and those leg jumps (helps and seems to feel better if I get
>in to the full lotus for a bit, then lie down to sleep, or I jump a lot) I
>get more of that leg "tiredness" now lately....
It is just energy releasing.. specifically, the energy of your fear of
moving forward with this. Let them happen.
>I thought difficulty breathing, or feeling like I want to panic....but my
>pulse/ox is 98%(can't get much better than that) and my blood pressure is
>fine (went to ER on that one).
Power chakra issues.. your fear of surrendering to the energy. When
it happens, focus on counting your blessings, and focus on being grateful
for the things you think are not blessings..
>a bit of chest tightness.
Same as above..
>Head feels detached - dizziness.
>
>Hard to concentrate.
Yup. Your brain getting an overhaul.. it will pass.
>Getting "pulled by the center"...almost like someone else, or something else
>was walking me.......like "being walked".
Goddess is walking you... let Her.
>Feeling and seeing a couple things...
>
>During meditation, sounds, buzzing, feel a shower of gold
>light...heat....etc.....(that is more pleasent)...
Enjoy it!
>I thought it would be cool, I have written some great poetry, but sometimes I
>get scared I might start crying or something in front of others.....now I
>have been medically checked, and my physician said I might want to go to a
>psychologist (as he can find nothing wrong with me). I thought it would be
>cool to go through an awakening experience like this...but it really sucks.
It'll get better.. and worse .. and better.. and eventually ecstatic!
>I try not to fight with it, but I can see things that scare me sometimes, or
>feel them.......(sometimes are better than others)...but not right now.
Learn to get grounded, that will help with the fear... Open the heart
voice.. it is the inner Guru.
>Is there any advice that you can give?? Really, help me...
>
>John
>Kalamazoo, MI
The grounding visualization for awakening Kundalini is at
http://www.domin8rex.com/serpent/spirit/ground.htm
or
Please visit this page when you have 20 minutes to relax
and do the meditation, as the page is "charged" with Shakti
and keyed to be released by your free will choice to visit the page.
Blessings, Mystress.
http://www.kundalini-gateway.org
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