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Recieved: 2001/01/09 00:50
Subject: Re: FW: [K-list] Re: Is Evolution Catching?
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2001/01/09 00:50, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 10:59 PM 1/8/01, Samantha Atkins wrote:
>Why I am here?
>
>I am here in this life and time in order to help humanity across the
>changes that are coming quite quickly. I am here to attempt to form a
>bridge between the warring camps of reason and spirituality and to begin
>to heal that breach.
the war, is within you.
> I am here to do what I can with the help of
>Goddess and others to steer humanity safely through its transition.
Change the world, by changing inside of yourself. It is really not
about what someone else does.. You are All that Is.. there is no-one else.
>Why am I here?
>
>I am here on this list because I need to learn to open more fully to
>Spirit and I felt love and caring and spirit moving here.
It is here.
> At the moment
>I am not sure that I am supposed to be here.
You are.
> At the moment it seems
>like unlike massive kriyas, lives falling to pieces, all matter of
>things that go bump in the night, terrible deadly depressions and so on
Yes, that is normal for the list.. especially approaching a full
moon.. Carl Jung said, "There is no coming to consciousness, without pain".
Gratitude, makes pain turn to bliss via endorphin. <whack! thankyou
Mistress, may I have another?>
Approaching ego death, my guidance said, "Not for nothing, will this
be the hardest thing you have ever done". True.. and I would not change a
thing.
>that I bring what this list cannot see as a spiritual struggle so easily
>and chooses to show great impatience and even contempt and anger
>toward.
A reflection of yourself.
> But my struggle to reconcile reason and faith is a struggle I
>was born to undertake and is as much a part of the Spirit working its
>work in me (and in far more than just me) as any other spiritual
>struggle and is at least as terrible and hard.
They cannot be reconciled. One must surrender to the other. Ego and
reason struggle for life, resist.. which makes it harder... it is the
nature of ego to resist, .. but I think you enjoy the struggle. :) The drama..
> I could use some friends
>and a bit of support. I could use a bit more than effectively being
>told my struggle is pointless and that that reason stuff is just ego
>dodo I should let go of anyway and that I only need to forget about it.
what if, it is true?
>It is the same thing I hear on the other side from my
>rational/scientific friends - that all the spirituality, mysticism and
>intuition is all krap.
But, you know it isn't..
> I have felt a great deal of the good that both
>sides hold and walked in the shoes of each in this and other lives. I
>know that neither one is krap, that both have much that is quite
>precious and that the war between them is ripping humanity apart.
In what way?
> I
>stand in the middle of it and the war plays out in me.
The war is in you.. and nowhere else.
> It takes no
>small strength to stand there.
Then, surrender.
> I can not stop doing that until I am
>told unambiguously that this is no longer needed.
This is no longer needed. You can cast it off like an old sock.. and
Goddess will give you something better. You cannot tell how the battle
goes, when you are in the middle of it. You need some aerial
reconnaissance.. God's eye view.
> So why act as if I am
>just some intellectual jerk looking for a fight? I am an intellectual.
>Often I am a jerk. But, dear God, it is far from as simple as that. I
>wish with all of my heart that it was that simple.
Who makes it complicated?
I have been where you are.. I know your struggle.. Now I am where I am.
You have felt the glow of my energy.. it was attained, through
*unconditional* surrender, of *everything*. Abandoning reason.
You have 2 minds.. one is limited and uses logic and reason.. the other
is infinite and knows everything, outside of time. Which one, do you think
is better for making decisions with?
Reason will always give you reasons, not to surrender.. You can have
this huge love and spirit that others speak of, or your reasons why not.
You cannot have both. If you choose to have the reasons, no-one can change
that. No-one can surrender for you. No-one can end the battle within you,
except you. You cannot win over your ego, and you cannot win over Goddess.
You can only surrender.. then, the battle ends...
Blessings..
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