To: K-list
Recieved: 2001/01/09 00:01
Subject: Re: [K-list] K for Kundalini or C for Crazy?
From: Mystress Angelique Serpent
On 2001/01/09 00:01, Mystress Angelique Serpent posted thus to the K-list:
At 08:41 PM 1/8/01, mistressofthe8thhouse wrote:
>Don't know if my arms would be quite long enough :-) I've learned never to
>rule out possibilities, however. ;-)
LOL!! then Goddess will handle it.
I have just taken a leap of faith and done something Goddess has been
pushing me to do, for many years.. hang out my shingle as a professional
intuitive healer, Kundalini Guide. cold feet cold feet.. but another woman,
an intuitive healer I have known for years, is very supportive and
wonderful. Now I just need to collect some testimonials..:)
> > Your tears are only Karma releasing.. let them fall. I will lift,
>what
> > I can, so you can get back to better balance.
>
>Is this the same as repaying a Karmic debt? I have been told that I have
>Karmic debts from several past lives, and that I will not find inner peace
>until they are paid.
Oy, throw out what ever spook gave you that info! Everything is
already forgiven, Goddess does not judge us, *we* judge us..
If time and space do not exist, then there are not "past lives".
Everything is happening concurrently. The Karma is from *this* lifetime,
the tears that were not shed, in the past because .. just, because. You
know why.
It is the emotional baggage releasing, from this lifetime.. what Wilhelm
Reich called "body armoring". Stuck memories that were held in the body,
letting go.. you feel them, on their way out! .. and when they are gone,
you will be free of them.. free. You are safe now, you can take off the
armor, warrior woman!
Sure, there may be things you did not do in other times that you want
to do this time round... but quit thinking of it as a debt. You owe it to
yourself, to have a beautiful life. That's all.
>I am a social worker. I have recently returned to school to get my BA in
>Psychology. I have many conflicting emotions about choice of profession,
>however, but that is another story, for another time :-)
OK.
>I'm not the same Lady Scorpion that you are speaking of. However, the fact
>that we have a similiar name ( Scorpion /Scorpianna), has recently been
>brought to my attention by an associate . I initially considered changing my
>name
If you like it, keep it. So long as you are not infringing on her
business or impersonating her, she is not likely to care. I can give you
her email in private mail, if you want to chat with her.
> > I'm working to build a Kundalini retreat so people can do exactly
>that..
>
>Where would it be located? (hope it will be in Canada) ;-)
In Canada.. in the mountains and big trees of the BC coastal rain
forest. On an 11 mile long glacial lake that spills into a deep ocean
inlet.. in an old hotel I dreamt, when I was 9 years old..
> > Schedule some "falling apart" time for yourself, every day.. K. can
> > be negotiated with.. negotiation is not as good as total surrender, but
> > Goddess will understand.
>
>That is a good suggestion. I'm going to have to try to do it. I never seem
>to have enough time for ME :-)
You have to *make* time. Quit giving yourself away. Love yourself.
> > Love did it. Now all the
> > tears that you could not shed before because it was not safe to lose
> > control, all come spilling out.
>
>You are so very right!!! I have never felt safe losing control until now,
>and even now it is still a little scary. I have always had control issues,
>because I have spent the better part of my life trying to resist BEING
>controlled.
I know, I was the same.. a Dominant personality won't surrender till
they have no other option.. which makes the path of K., that much harder..
because Goddess has to box us in and take control away, to do the work.
This feeling of losing control and your trying to regain control is what
has made the crying jag so much harder. Resistance is futile.. what God
wants, God gets.
Now, it is time to learn to surrender. You have to stop trying to
control.
If Goddess wants you to be crazy, then you would be crazy. Surrender
fear of insanity, surrender control to your Higher Self. she is so much
wiser, than you.
Lay your burdens down... they are so heavy, you have carried them for so
long. Responsibility belongs to God-dess, and She can handle it, better
than you. She is outside of time, and so very powerful.. If you lose your
job, it is because Goddess has a better one planned for you. Fear not!
Everything really is happening, as it should.
> It is love, that hurts... like warmth hurts when your feet are
> > very cold.
>
>YES!!! I can DEFINATELY relate to that analogy. I have always tried to focus
>my energy on surviving. Dealing with the pain was never a priority.
Now it is a priority. Surviving, is not really enough, anymore, is it?
Do you think you incarnated, merely to survive? I think, you were born to
experience all the bliss, joy and fulfillment that you can hold.. and more,
more love till your cup runneth over and it flows over everyone you meet.
>You have my heartfelt gratitude. Thank you :-)
Love bombs incoming.. don't try to control.. DON'T try to control.
Shake, scream, laugh, dance, cry.. whatever your body wants to do. Let that
stuff out!
Goddess radiant blessings shine upon you..
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