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Recieved: 2001/01/08 23:59
Subject: Re: FW: [K-list] Re: Is Evolution Catching?
From: Samantha Atkins

Why I am here?

I am here in this life and time in order to help humanity across the
changes that are coming quite quickly. I am here to attempt to form a
bridge between the warring camps of reason and spirituality and to begin
to heal that breach. I am here to do what I can with the help of
Goddess and others to steer humanity safely through its transition.

Why am I here?

I am here on this list because I need to learn to open more fully to
Spirit and I felt love and caring and spirit moving here. At the moment
I am not sure that I am supposed to be here. At the moment it seems
like unlike massive kriyas, lives falling to pieces, all matter of
things that go bump in the night, terrible deadly depressions and so on
that I bring what this list cannot see as a spiritual struggle so easily
and chooses to show great impatience and even contempt and anger
toward. But my struggle to reconcile reason and faith is a struggle I
was born to undertake and is as much a part of the Spirit working its
work in me (and in far more than just me) as any other spiritual
struggle and is at least as terrible and hard. I could use some friends
and a bit of support. I could use a bit more than effectively being
told my struggle is pointless and that that reason stuff is just ego
dodo I should let go of anyway and that I only need to forget about it.
It is the same thing I hear on the other side from my
rational/scientific friends - that all the spirituality, mysticism and
intuition is all krap. I have felt a great deal of the good that both
sides hold and walked in the shoes of each in this and other lives. I
know that neither one is krap, that both have much that is quite
precious and that the war between them is ripping humanity apart. I
stand in the middle of it and the war plays out in me. It takes no
small strength to stand there. I can not stop doing that until I am
told unambiguously that this is no longer needed. So why act as if I am
just some intellectual jerk looking for a fight? I am an intellectual.
Often I am a jerk. But, dear God, it is far from as simple as that. I
wish with all of my heart that it was that simple.

love,

 samantha

http://www.kundalini-gateway.org

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